Embracing the Future
Chapter 4: Please Stay
A/N: plz don't cry ppl! Everything will get better. And the song in here is called "No Good Deed" and it's from the play Wicked. And plz just substitute Fiyero with Pony and Oz with Tulsa. WICKED RULES!!!!!
DREAM SEQUENCE
I was watching it all over again. There was something different though, it was from an aerial view and I was standing in the clouds yet I was down there getting the tar beat out of me. The girl in the clouds-well me- was humming nervously. When Pony came running and the guy raised the knife, for a second everything flashed and I was in the kitchen on the ground my father raising the knife and then it flashed back, me#2's eyes got huge and she broke out into song holding out her hands in front of her, her eyes closed as though the song she was singing actually had some meaning.
"Fiyero!
Eleka nahmen nahmen,
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen,
Eleka nahmen nahmen,
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen,
Let his flesh not be torn,
Let his blood leave no stain,
Though they beat him let him feel no pain,
Let his bones never break,
And however hard they try,
To destroy him,
Let him never die,
Let him never die,
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka...eleka...
What good is this chanting?
I don't even know what I'm reading,
I don't even know what trick I ought to try,
Fiyero, where are you?
Already dead or bleeding?
One more disaster I can add to my generous supply?
No good deed goes unpunished,
No act of charity goes unresented,
No good deed goes unpunished,
That's my new creed,
My road of good intentions,
Led where such roads always lead,
No good deed,
Goes unpunished...
Fiyero,
Fiyero!!
One question haunts and hurts,
Too much, too much to mention:
Was I really seeking good,
Or just seeking attention?
Is that all good deeds are,
When looked at with an ice-cold eye?
If that's all good deeds are,
Maybe that's the reason why...
No good deed goes unpunished,
All helpful urges should be circumvented,
No good deed goes unpunished,
Sure I meant well—
Well look what well well-meant did,
All right enough-so be it,
So be it then:
Let all Oz be agreed,
I'm wicked through and through,
Since I could not succeed Fiyero saving you,
I promise no good deed,
Will I attempt to do,
Again,
Ever again,
No good deed,
Will I do,
Again!"
As the song ended and me#2 belted out the last note at the top of her lungs my saviors came and as me#1 fainted, so did me#2.
My eyes snapped open as I awoke in a cold sweat panting. I looked around; I was in a bed, a hospital bed? I heard a loud snore and jumped shooting pain up and down my side. I groaned and clutched at my side and turned and saw Steve and Two-Bit asleep in 2 chairs next to my bed.
I smiled and leaned over and flicked Two-Bit in the forehead. He jumped a mile shrieking like a little girl and looked around accusingly until his eyes landed on me. "Arri! You're awake!" he jumped at me putting me in a bear hug.
"Two-Bit...need air...crushing lungs....pain." I gasped.
"Oh, sorry. I probably just re-broke those ribs." When he saw my puzzled look he said "You didn't know you broke 3 ribs?"
"Well I know now." I said leaning against the pillows and closing my eyes.
I heard Two-Bit smack Steve in the head. How he hadn't woken up from the racket we just made I have no idea. "OW!" yelled Steve, "What the-" he said angrily before noticing me "Arri!"
He went to hug me and I drew back fearfully "No way buddy, stay away! I was just killed by Two-Bit. I do NOT need to be killed by you too!"
Steve's face darkened and he shook his head "No you're wrong Arri. We didn't kill you that would be the Soc.'s."
I felt a knot forming in the pit of my stomach, Pony..... I swallowed, my throat suddenly tight and dry, and licked my lips. "Is he, well, is Pony alive?" I said my voice cracking slightly as I said this.
Steve bit his lip and Two-Bit looked, for once, serious. "We don't know. When we found you and chased away the Soc.'s he was half dead. I have no idea why he wasn't already dead. You had just passed out from shock and pain. Soda carried you and Darry carried Pony all the way to the hospital. When we got here they took Pony into a room and you into a separate one. We waited for 15 minutes and someone came back out and told us you got 5 stitches in your cheek and 3 broken ribs. When we asked about Pony they refused to tell us anything except they were giving him a blood transfusion. Darry and Soda went home and we stayed with you. Pony could be dying for all we know." Added Two-Bit angrily.
My blood ran cold but still, I felt a bit of relief, he could still live. I swung my feet over the bed trying my best to ignore the pain shooting up my side, making my vision blur with tears. I didn't care though I could only think one thing: It was my fault. If it hadn't been for me he would never be here.
"Where are you going?" said Steve nervously.
"I'm going to see Pony." I said determinedly, "I don't care what they say, I need to see him."
"Ri, they haven't let anyone see him. Not even Soda or Darry."
"They're GOING to let me in!" I said sharply making my way to the door. No one made a move to stop me so I opened the door and asked "Where is he?"
Two-Bit would have protested but he saw the dangerous look flashing in my green eyes and told me how to get to Pony's room. When I was within a yard of the door a nurse ran in front of it and blocked me.
"I-I can't let you in." she said nervously, eyeing me up and down. She was obviously taken aback by my hospital gown, the bandage on my cheek, and my funny walk so that it didn't hurt my side so much. But she saw the look in my eye, and that made her a nervous wreck. "Let's get you b-back t-to your room, which one i-is it?"
"Move." I said forcefully trying to step around her she moved to block my way again, my patience was wearing thin. "I said move!" I said voice rising, she trembled slightly. I knew how horrifying I could get when I was mad. She better move.
Just then a look of relief washed over her "Doctor!" she yelled. My eyes widened and I whipped around to see a doctor stop and look at us. "Could you please fetch something to put her out and help me get her back to her room?"
The doctor nodded and I snapped; I was furious. "I'm NOT going anywhere! I refuse to move from this spot until you let me see Ponyboy!!" I bellowed making her cower. "Now MOVE!" I said pushing her forcefully aside and just then I felt a needle enter my arm. Damn it! I thought furiously as I kicked out with my foot connecting with the doctor's face, before I fainted.
Damn doctors... I thought irritated as I woke up back in the hospital bed. I turned and saw Two-Bit sitting in the chair again. Steve must've left.
He smirked at me and said "Little Miss Arri, sedated for assaulting a nurse and doctor. Never thought that would happen."
I frowned and threw a pillow at him. "Shut up," I mumbled "And if you though that would never happen then you don't know me very well." I said smiling weakly.
"Well I've only known you for 2 days."
"True. But I'm pretty easy to read."
"True."
Just then a nurse came in and said "Excuse me Sir, but visiting hours just ended. You'll have to leave now. He protested for a minute but I told him to just go, I'd see him tomorrow. The nurse and he left after he gave me hug and told me that Soda and Darry would probably be visiting tomorrow.
As soon as the sound of their footsteps died away I slipped out of bed. I was going to see Pony. Even if I was knocked out again, I needed to try.
I opened the door a crack and peeked out, the coast was clear. I silently slipped out and shut the door behind me. I finally made it to Pony's room after almost getting caught once, I'd dove into a laundry cart, they do it all the time in movies but I don't think they ever mentioned how it smelled like skunk.
I glanced around and slowly opened the door to his room and slipped inside. I shut the door behind me as quietly as possible and turned around, I immediately felt like crying, he was lying in a bed and it wasn't that he looked really bad or anything, just a little pale and worn out, but I felt awful because I knew it was my fault.
I walked over to the side of the bed and squeezed his hand gently, I'm sorry, I'm so, so, so sorry. It's all my fault, I'm soooooo sorry. I thought sadly as I looked at him. I choked on a silent sob and squeezed my eyes shut tight, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry. Damn it! I thought as a tear slid down my cheek and landed on the hand I was holding. That was all it took to make them all start flowing. I kept my eyes shut trying angrily to make them stop. Suddenly I felt a hand brush away a tear and I heard Pony whisper "Don't cry Arri, don't cry."
My eyes snapped open; if I was just imagining this I would kill my self. I reached out a shaky hand and touched his cheek, "P-Pony?" I stuttered surprised.
He nodded and brushed away another tear that had managed to slip out. "You ok Ri?" he said, "They didn't hurt you to bad, did they?"
"Hurt me?!" I said shocked, "They stabbed you in the friggin chest! You were bleeding to death for cryin' out loud! I mean-" but I was cut off on a count of Pony's lips were suddenly pressed against mine. After a few seconds he pulled away "really..." I said in a distant voice.
He blushed "Sorry but you just looked so beautiful, and I remember when I saw that guy punch you," He stopped for a second here and reached out tracing the rim of my bandage with his fingers, frowning, "The only thing I could think of was keeping you safe, and I realized I never wanna loose you."
I felt the tears brimming again and I was slightly speechless so I just stared at him. I had to do something. He might think I didn't feel the same, but I felt the same way he did, when he got stabbed all thoughts of me and my pain left and only could think of him. There didn't seem to be any words to describe so I leaned in and kissed him. I pulled away slowly, I didn't want to but I knew I had to leave. "I've go to go," I said sadly.
"They'll realize I'm in here soon and drag me back to my room, hopefully they won't knock me out again though."
His eyes widened "Why'd they do that?"
I laughed "I guess they think it's bad when you assault a nurse and doctor at this hospital for not letting you in to see the people you love." I shrugged pretending to find it ridiculous.
He laughed and shook his head, I started for the door when I felt him grab my wrist and pull me back onto the bed "Please stay." He whispered in my ear.
I smiled slightly and turned on my side so I was facing him. He rolled onto his back and I leaned my head onto his shoulder. I couldn't help but smile. This is where I wanna be...I thought as drifted off to sleep to the sound of Pony's gentle breathing.
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Happy now? Lol, you better be. And I wanna give thanks to Meg again for telling me to have her sneak into his hospital room. I'll update soon!
Em