Lily
Dear Diary,
I'm already falling for him, why him? why a Marauder? why Sirius? I'm going to end up with my heart broken like all of the other girls! He's a player for goodness sake! Why is it that the only decent Marauder is taken? By one of my best friends as well! No that I'm complaining, he isn't exactly good looking but at least Remus doesn't really prank anyone, I think he's the person who helps plan pranks more than anything, although that prank on me last week was not funny but Hannah made him feel really guilty over it, I think she has him wrapped around her finger or something. I wish for one moment that a guy would do anything for me without even a hesitation - she's so lucky! I wish I could get Sirius out of my head but everywhere I go I see him and I see his face when I close my eyes. Damn I got it bad!
I'm gonna go do some homework cause if i don't do it then the four of us are screwed!
Lily
Lily thought to herself for a moment, she wondered if Sirius felt the same way about her as she did him and she highly doubted it, granted both were popular but he acted like he didn't know who she was!
'Wonder if Hannah can see if Remus will get me a date with him.' she wondered
Lily sighed and picked up her Charms book, an essay on Cheering Charms. Stupid teacher had messed up in third year and given them the fifth year syllabus by mistake so now in fifth year they were doing a third year syllabus. She cursed loudly, it was her turn to do homework and she hated it. At the begining of fourth year they had decided that out of four subjects each of them did that set homework. For Lily it was Charms, Clare it was Defence Against The Dark Arts, Carolyn was History Of Magic and Hannah had Potions. For Lily, Clare and Hannah it didn't matter because that was their speciallity but Carolyn had drawn the short straw.
Lily threw the book across the room in frustration, she couldn't take the fact that Sirius was haunting her thoughts anymore, she couldn't get him out of her head. She had two choices, all four of them in detention and she could daydream or do the essay.
Sirius
Sitting in a Potions detention was not the best place to be, especially with a girl who your best friend was besotted with. Copying out notes and answering questions from previous lessons wasn't what Sirius had had in mind. Usually it was James and he in detention together but they had decided to give James something a little more challenging and also made sure that they were not in the same room as each other. He looked at his watch – it was only 7:10, only ten minutes had past but that had seemed like a lifetime. He glanced over at Lily, she was writing away like crazy as if to get out of detention early. He didn't even know why she was there – Lily Evans, model student, got top marks in everything. She was the last person he expected to see in detention. Sirius found himself staring at the back of her head, looking at how her hair fell. He closed his eyes and the image of her face formed in his head.
'No!' He moaned inside his head 'Please God, anyone but her! I can't be falling in love with Lily!'
He looked at his watch again - 7:30. Half and hour left and he couldn't keep his eyes off her, he couldn't be falling for her! Could he? He shok himsself mentally, James wanted, she wasn't worth risking their friendship, no girl would come between them. He and James had made a pact that they wouldn't date any girl who the other fancied, was it worth going back on that pact? NO.
'But she's so hot.' he thought, 'It was only a promise,one that I swore I'd never go back on! Note to self never make promises like that agian!'
James was his best friend, he wasn't going to betray his trust.
"Both of you may now leave!" The Potions Master said
Sirius let out a sigh of relief. He was glad that the hour was over.
Hannah
"You've got a very loyal friend there Miss." The nurse said, meaning Remus, "Been here almost two weeks straight."
Hannah smiled
"He's slightly more than a friend." She responded
"Boyfriend?"
"Kind of." She answered
"I'll just give you your insulin and then I'll go."
She handed her a tray with a syringe on and Hannah injected herself with the needle, wincing slightly. When the nurse left, she tried to move but she didn't want to risk waking Remus up. She played with a strand of his hair, thinking about what had happened. She could remember telling Ryan that it was over between them and when he had asked her if it had anything to do with Remus, she hadn't answered. She remembered him hitting her across the face but it went black after that, she was in hospital two weeks later. She saw that Remus' face was stained with tears and she gently touched the side of his face.
"I love you." She whispered, "I just wish it wasn't this complicated."
"Can't be helped though can it?" Remus said, lifting his head up
"I thought you were asleep." She said
"I've been awake for about ten minutes, I heard what you said to the nurse." He said, "That I'm kind of your boyfriend."
"Well at the moment I don't know what you are." She whispered "And anyway, have you actually left this room?"
Remus shook his head.
"Has Ryan been in?"
"He's in Azkaban, Hannah." Remus muttered, "Charged him with GBH and attempted murder."
"Attempted murder?"
"Yeah, you nearly died."
Remus
"You think I care?" Hannah asked, sounding sightly agitated, "I swear, you are one of the smartest people in the year, yet you are so dense it is untrue!"
"I'm dangerous, I don't want you getting hurt." Remus whispered
"Isn't that what you're doing now though by breaking my heart?" She cried in frustration, "And anyways, so what if you're dangerous its partly the dangerous side I'm attracted to, your bad boy side is attractive to me and I don't know why any girl can't see that."
He didn't meet her eyes, he couldn't but she lifted his chin up and smiled. She loved him for who he was and not for what she wanted him to be, she wouldn't change anything about him. well almost nothing.
"Why me?" He asked quietly, "You could have any guy in this school and you choose me."
"You're my best friend and no matter how many guys I date or how many I kiss it only makes me love you more." She answered truthfully, "Trust me, I tried it."
"I - I - I'm..."
"So what if your not as popular as Sirius or James and you don't have girls throwing themselves at you. You're forgetting that I'm one of the most popular girls in school, yet I'd give up any popularity, dammit I'd give up everything before I lost you. I admit it okay, I can't live without you, you're the closest thing I've got to normalilty. Everything I touch seems to fall around me, look at my family, I was passed from foster home to foster home before they found my dad and even then I had a crappy childhood. You're the one good thing in my life Remus, and don't ever forget that. I'm popular because I'm pretty! Why can't you see that you being a werewolf doesn't change who you are, that doesn't define you but you wanna know something if I had a choice I would make it so you weren't a werewolf, but only so it don't hurt you anymore."
Tears spilled out of her eyes, he was the only person who she had ever truely opened her heart to and he would be the only one.
"Hannah, I - "
She didn't let him finish, instead she kissed him tenderly on the lips.
Carolyn
"Daddy." She cried, as he walked out of the house, at seven years old she knew he wasn't coming back, "Daddy!"
"He ain't coming back baby." Her mother whispered, taking her in her arms.
"Where's he going?" she asked
"I don't know." Her mother answered, "And to be honest sweetie, I don't care, he can throw himself under a bus for all I care!"
She look confused, she may have understood that he wasn't coming back, but she didn't know what her mother meant.
"Don't you love him anymore?"
Her mother didn't answer, how could she tell her only child that her father was never coming back and that she didn't love him anymore, instead she just shook her head, she didn't think her daughter would understand
"Why not?" She implored, "Did you ever love him?"
"I did a long time ago but it's just one of these things that happen Carolyn, and I'm afraid he isn't coming back."
"Does he love me?"
"He loves you very much, but he doesn't love me anymore so he isn't staying here, he might be at your Nanna's."
"I want my Daddy!" She cried
"I know baby." Her mother cradled her but she broke free.
"I want him back!" She whispered, "Why can't he come back?"
She ran out of her mothers arms and ran into her bedroom, she buried her head into her teddy bear and cried, she didn't want anything at the moment apart from her dad, she was a daddy's girl at heart. She wanted him to take her in his arms and read her a story like he had done every night. She closed her eyes and wished she could wake up from a horrible nightmare and without realising sent a book flying across the room by using what little magic she possessed.
James
"I hate being popular!" James moaned
"You weren't saying that yesterday when Alison was all over you." Sirius stated
"There is no such thing as popularity," Remus piped up from behind his book, being in one of his philosiphical moods, "Popularity was conceived by those who needed reasurance that they are worth something in this world, popularity means connection that is it."
Both James and Sirius burst out laughing, it was amusing when Remus came out with things like that.
"Where do you get these things?" James asked
"I read!" Remus answered, "Shame the same thing can't be said for you."
"Girls don't like guys that read!" James retorted, "It's a known fact."
"Yet I have a one of the most desired girls in the school and you don't any." Remus grinned
James looked at him apparently beaten but he turned around and said
"I do read sometimes though."
"Quidditch books DON'T count!"
"Well then I might take up reading as a hobby then." James responded, "To impress a certain girl."
"This wouldn't be a certain Lily Evans by chance would it?" Sirius asked, "Face it James, you're never going to get her - she HATES you and thats putting it lightly, I think it's more of a despise myself."
James stuck his tongue out at him. He hated losing an arguement to either Sirius or Remus but to lose two arguements to both of them was just plain evil.
Clare
"Do you mind if I sit here?" a girl asked Clare. She had long brown hair to her hips and was carrying a trunk that looked like it was too heavy for her, she would later become her best friend.
"Sure," Clare smiled, "I'm Clare by the way."
"Carolyn." the girl returned the smile
"Your first year?" she asked
Carolyn nodded.
"Me too." Clare added, "I've been looking forward to it for months."
"Same here." Carolyn said, she sounded excited, "I've only ever seen pictures of it, I've got no brothers or sisters to tell me what its like."
"My sister went here, she left last year. She said it was the best place ever and she never wanted to leave. She said she'd go back and teach but she can't stand teaching."
Both Carolyn and Clare laughed at this.
"What about your mum or dad?" Clare asked, "Didn't they go to Hogwarts?"
"My dad did but I haven't seen him since I was seven and my mum went to Beauxbatons."
"The French school?"
Carolyn nodded
"She wanted me to go there but I didn't like the idea of living in France and of course there's Dumbledore at Hogwarts so it's not as if I'm not going to get a good education here is it?"
"I suppose not." Clare giggled, "How come you haven't seen your dad since you were seven? if you don't mind me asking."
"It's okay, he and my mum split up when I was seven and he never came back and I haven't heard from him since."
And I have to say I do not own the part about popularity I borrowed it from my friend Rachel! I am not that clever to have come up with it!"