Disclaimer: See Ch.1

Note: Finally, Donna's letter. With this also completes this series, I hope it wasn't too unbearable. Thank you for reading and please tell me what you think. Now, on with the story.

My dearest Donnatella,

I knew writing these letters would be hard and yours especially so, but I had no idea how hard knowing what to say and how to say it can be (even with my 760 verbal) until I started this letter. It's now 4am, I have scrunched up more trees than I care to think about, I have been at my desk trying to write this letter since 10pm and I'm still staring at a blank sheet of paper. (well except for this explanation anyway)

There are things that I need you to know so that I can leave without any regrets and while I know that all I need to do is look at you to convey all my feelings and thoughts to you, I also know that if I ever bared my soul to you in person, I would not be able to bring myself to leave and I simply cannot be so selfish. I also want you to have a momento of me being sweet Josh, so you'll remember me as Josh, my boss who was really sweet rather than arrogant, tyrant Josh. (Yes, I admit that I try and sabotage every single one of your dates and I make you work late just so you don't have a social life. They're gomers anyway, you're just wasting your time with them! You deserve so much more than that, much more, more than any words can ever express.)

Donna, the things you have done for me over all these years have always been above and beyond the job description of an assistant. No words can express my gratitude to you for doing this, you could have quit a very long time ago, you could have moved on to a much better paid job that doesn't have a demanding boss but you chose to stay with me. (Just let me have this one illusion.) I am sorry I never told you enough how much I appreciated your help and enjoyed our camaraderie; especially after Rosslyn when you ran my office (I swear Leo wanted to sack me and promote you to DCoS instead and he would probably have done the right thing.) and anticipated my every need throughout the recovery. You listened to me drone on about theoretical physics and imposed "the rules" (which, much I would hate to admit I loved. I loved that there was someone other than my mother who cared enough to make sure I didn't push myself too hard, too fast and I loved that that person was you.).

The truth is Donnatella, ever since the moment you walked into the New Hampshire office, I knew. For many years, I've been tricking myself, telling myself that I'm your boss and it'll look bad to the administration; but the fact of the matter is that I've done enough things that have embarrassed the administration to know that it will survive. I was simply a coward, I was scared that you don't feel the same way. Even if you did, I was scared that I would ruin what we have with my stupidity and insensitivity. (I actually KNOW that I am completely incapable of understanding women.) I didn't want to lose the best friend I have ever had; I was selfish in a way, I wasn't prepared to gamble everything I have with you for a chance to sleep with you. I also knew that once I let myself fall, I would never be able to pull myself out again. Actually, who am I kidding? I fell for you a very long time ago, I am never going to be able to climb back up again and I don't ever want to.

Donnatella, I love you. I always have done and always will. I am sorry I never got to say that to you in person. I am sorry I never took the chance and told you how I felt all those years when we worked together.

However, what is done is done, there is nothing more I can do to change the situation. I know that telling you this is very selfish of me and it is placing a very heavy burden on you, but I had to tell you how I felt. I am not expecting any reply on your part, for all I know, you could burn this letter as soon as you finish reading it, or you may not even have read it in the first place. I just needed to write it down on paper and let you know that this is how I feel. Having told you this, I now feel ready to leave.

The best of luck with everything you may decide to embark on in the future, whatever they may be, you will always have my support. I have no doubt that you will go on a do great things. (After all, you learnt from the best.) Whoever you choose to work for/ pursue a relationship with will be very luck people.

DC can make you lose sight of who and what's important. I realised that too late and I have now missed my chance. Don't repeat my mistake, if there is something you think is right/ someone you love, don't hesitate, do all you can to achieve it. It'll always be worth it in the end.

With love, now and always,

Joshua