Disclaimer: i don't own any of JRR Tolkiens characters (i WISH) and the description of Rosie comes from the movie.

A/N: this is my first LOTR fic so please tell me what you think! READ AND REVIEW

The Ponderings of Samwise Gamgee

Oh I've failed him. I've failed him…Samwise you fool! What were you thinking? I wish this whole thing were over. Better yet, I wish it had never begun. They always say curiosity kills the cat. Well, this time it's going to kill this hobbit. I never meant any harm. I never expected to find out so much sitting under the window of Bag End. You see, I was afraid for Frodo. After Bilbo had disappeared well…but that's not important now. Ever since I took that step out of the Shire, nothing but bad and evil has befallen us.

Now I'm sitting on these accursed stairs. They're black and steep, and they go so high I can't see where they stop. Frodo has just left with that creature Gollum. I knew he was bad from the beginning. But Mister Frodo, being the kind soul that he is, thought he could help him. He's corrupted poor Frodo's mind. Or maybe it's that damned ring. It's leading Mister Frodo to his death! I think Gandalf might have overestimated hobbits. We're a peaceful folk, we don't like fighting.

I must admit this whole bit has me scared to pieces. Those Orcs are the most frightful creatures I've ever seen. And I still have nightmares about the Ringwraiths. And now I'm closer to Mordor than I have ever been, and have ever wanted to be. I dare not sleep; for fear that something will come and kill me.

Dear, oh dear. I wonder what's happening to Mister Frodo now. I hope he's alive. What about the others? I wish I could see Merry and Pippin again. They always had a way of brightening things, despite the grim circumstances. I even miss Aragorn, Legolas, and Gimli, though I've always been somewhat intimidated of them. Especially Aragorn. He'll be king one day, or my name isn't Samwise Gamgee.

But aside from all that I just want to go home. And more than anything I want to see her again. Rosie, with her pretty curls and lovely smile. Her eyes twinkle when she laughs, such a melodious sound…yes, I must see her again.

"Never let him out of your sight…"

Gandalf's words echoed through my mind. I've failed him, too. He told me from the beginning to never leave Mister Frodo's side. And now I have. I've failed as a hero. Though, I was never really one to begin with. If I ever do get back to the Shire, they'll probably scorn my very existence. I can just hear them. "Oh look, it's Samwise. He's the one that abandoned poor Frodo Baggins…" Rosie will hate me, i'm sure of it.

What am I going to do? I can't sit here for the rest of my life. And I can't go back to the Shire without Frodo. I don't know how to find Gandalf. Which leaves me with one option. Find Frodo. I took one look behind me. I saw nothing, but heard an ear-piercing shriek of a Nazgul. As quickly and quietly as I could, I began to climb the black stairs. I'll find Mister Frodo…or die trying.

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