Title: How do you know?

Disclaimer: Don't own any of the characters, that privilege belong s to the eloquent Mrs. JKR. Besides, it's not like I am going to make any money of this anyways.

Warnings: SLASH! Don't like, Don't read! There will also be language in this chapter as well… maybe some adult situations…hmmm…if I can fit them in, maybe not yet.

Pairings: Harry/ Draco, Mione/Ron and whoever else I feel like throwing in!

Rating: I'm going to be safe and say "R" for language.

No matter what I've told you,

Your answer is always the same.

How can you look at me like that,

When I feel so ashamed?

"Yessss….Gods Draco…that feels so good…"

Draco couldn't help the smirk that came over his mouth, he loved pleasing Harry. Harry had so little happiness in his life anymore, anything Draco could do to make his lover experience the joy he felt when he was near him, Draco would do; The fact that Harry was so appreciative as well, well, that made it all the better right?

"God's Draco…I'm not going to last…uhhhh…much …like this."

Draco's eyes followed up Harry's beautifully sculpted abdomen, across his lightly muscled chest, his flawless neck, and over those luscious lips that just begged to be suckled, into those marvelous green eyes…the windows to Harry's soul…catching his attention, then flicked his tongue languidly across the tip. Bucking his hips, Harry arched back into Draco's warm mouth and begged the skillful ministrations of his tongue to slow down, but it was too late…Draco, his trademark smirk beautifully gracing his lips, gulped hungrily. Pulling himself onto all fours he crept carefully back up to join Harry, taking his lips with his own ravenously. It wasn't long until Harry could feel Draco rubbing against his thigh, so he slid down to return the favor. Though he knew he was the less experienced of the two, hell, Draco was his first real anything. They had not yet had sex, but neither seemed to want to rush things.

Harry had gotten very good at exploring Draco, he was so curious and wanted to know everything there was to know about him, his body, mind and soul…His body of course was the easiest since Draco still locked his insides up at times, but his body…he gave Harry free reign over that at any time as long as it wasn't in public. Of course, Harry took full measure of this. As Harry licked the pre-cum off of Draco he couldn't help but love the look on Draco's face…the smirk was gone, replaced by a look of utmost satisfaction, and he hadn't even begun yet. Taking him full in his mouth, feeling the twitch in his throat, and relaxing so as not to gag…he felt his body warm and accept Draco as an extension of himself.

"MMMMmmmmmm…."

Harry smirked as he heard Draco's low moan…he loved that part…it let Harry know that what he was doing was right, and to keep going…Harry needed this tidbit of knowledge. He was so unsure of himself around Draco sexually, everyone knew about the "Slytherin Sex God" and Harry found out it was all true. However everyone assumed that the "Prince of Gryffindor" was equally as experienced, after all how could he not be when everyone was throwing themselves at him? Harry had never slept with anyone; he didn't even mess around much. A couple of times he and Seamus had messed around, but that was before Seamus and Dean hooked up, and Harry couldn't really say he was hurt, he just took a bit longer in the shower at night. This was so different though…he cared for Draco, more than that, he loved him…Harry had known he had loved Draco for awhile, but still hadn't told him yet, he was afraid that he would scare Draco away.

"OH!...Potter…fuck…"

Draco still called him Potter, and that unnerved Harry a bit, but he didn't want to scare him away so he just kept going…this time he thought that a distraction was needed, maybe he could get Draco so excited he would call him Harry. Slowly he worked his hand down between Draco's thighs, massaging him the whole way, Draco eyes began to widen, and when Harry inserted a finger, Draco arched into Harry's mouth and started bucking his hips, driving Harry's fingers farther, and farther in. Thrilled by his new found power over Draco, Harry kept going, faster and faster, then decided to add another finger, and continued his barrage on Draco's delicate little ass.

"God's Potter… you better not be teasing me, fuck me, I can't take anymore."

Harry was taken aback. 'What did he mean tease? Shit! I was just playing back there, I didn't really…shit! I don't think I'm ready for this yet…fuck! Draco is going to be so pissed! What do I do?'

"Hello! Are you going to finish or what you little cock tease?"

Apparently while Harry's mind wandered, he forgot about what he was doing. 'What was I doing? Did I really want to do that? Well yes, but does that mean I'm ready…maybe for me to do it to him…maybe that will work…he won't notice I'm not ready for me to go through all that…'

"Umm…Draco, do you want to…you know?"

"Are you daft? Or are you really that naïve?"

"Well, I've never…well, you know."

"Oh… OH! You've got to be kidding me? All those people throwing themselves all over you and you've never been with any?"

"Well, no, not really, you've been my first for pretty much everything…" Shit, I so did not want to tell him that, he's going to throw it in my face.

"You are serious aren't you?" 'I can't believe that Harry is a virgin! Shit! I thought for sure…no, I was too wrapped up in my own distractions to really pay attention…well, this should be delightful.

"Well, yes I'm serious; I wouldn't joke about something like that. There were loads of stories about you too you know. I'm sure they weren't true, after all, if they were you most definitely would not be here with me, you'd never have been able to keep it in your pants this long! HEhehehehe"

A look of horror crossed Draco's face, Harry immediately regretted what he had said…. Draco dropped his head, slid away from Harry to lean his back against his head board, and quietly let out a sigh as he ran his hands through his silver locks. Harry climbed up to sit beside Draco, but as he neared Draco's body stiffened, and Draco motioned for Harry to sit at the edge of the bed. Harry, of course complied, not knowing what was wrong with Draco, but none-the-less, did not want to say anything that might hinder what he was apparently getting ready to say.

"They're true. All of them."

Realization finally hit Harry, and he was taken aback…

"I'm sorry; I shouldn't have said that…it's just everyone made up so many stories about me I just assumed that they did the same to you."

"I didn't know they were made up stories about you, I thought that they were real, most of mine at least…they ARE real. I had sex with…God's I don't know how many people…I was being a teenager for Merlin's sake, I just didn't want any attachments, so there were very few people I had sex with more than once. As soon as someone would start to get clingy or want to talk, I cut it off, and found someone who wouldn't ask any questions. Male or female, it didn't really matter. I guess I never really thought about it, but if you've never, and I've had…But then you were just so damn good, a little clumsy, but I thought that was you, and it was endearing…and when you started tonight, I thought that we were finally… and damn you, you should have told me I was your first. I would have been more gentle, I would have made it so much more special…Do you know how bad you could have been hurt tonight? With me not knowing it was your first time? Do you know how bloody bad that hurts at first? Especially if…Fuck Harry…I could have hurt you! You wouldn't have hurt me, shit I'm practically used to it, but you…your different."

Harry just sat back and was taking this all in, 'Draco really did get around…I must have been so horribly inexperienced, how could he not know? Male or female? Did he not know what he wanted? Is he bi-sexual? No, he said that he just wanted the sex…How many then have been with him like this? He doesn't know…shit I am so inadequate, I wish I could be more like him…I wish I could have just had one nighters a couple of times to help ease off the stress…Maybe that's why I've been so bitchy lately, everyone else is having sex, and stupid little me…I was waiting for it to feel "right". Merlin does that sound girly or what? Definitely something Hermione would say, though her and Ron have been sneaking around a bit, I've only noticed since I was sneaking out to Draco's room and Ron's been going to 'Mione's, lucky us they are both prefects and have their own rooms…'

Draco, misunderstanding Harry's quiet contemplation, began to get dressed in his night clothes, 'Harry can't get past this…shit! I'm going to fucking lose him, because I couldn't keep my damn wand in my pants! Great! All this for nothing…and he'll have it as ammo to use against me, I don't care anymore…Fuck this!'

Harry was brought out of his musings seeing Draco getting dressed…Draco looked so sad, so alone…Harry didn't really care how many people he had been with, it was just a bit of a shock…

"Draco, what are you doing? I'm sorry."

"Sorry? What do you have to be sorry for? You're not the one who slept with half of the school! You are bloody perfect! Just as always…It's me who's not perfect, it's me who should be apologizing to you…for everything…shit I've made your life hell, I threw your life upside down by saving you, and in that telling you that I had feelings for you, and to top it off I could have caused you a great deal of pain tonight…because I was selfish, I didn't think to ask you if you had ever…I just assumed that you had. Just because I was a stupid slut, I assumed you were as stupid as I was. I'm sorry Harry. I'll be okay, just leave and I will let you alone. I understand."

"What the fuck! Draco! I love you! I don't care how many people you've fucked…what I care about is that you are here with me NOW! If you go fucking people on the side, then I'll get pissed! But as far as your past, it's just that…it's in the past. Let it there, if you dwell on it, it will only keep coming back to haunt you. You have nothing to be sorry for. I love you Draco, for you! Not for whom you've been with or haven't been with…just you!" Harry was looking longingly at Draco, he could feel his heart swell with the love he had for the blonde…Draco just hung his head…his shoulders began to shake…

"After everything I've told you…how can you feel that way?"

"Because I love you Draco. "

"I'm humiliated by all this, and you sit there with my smirk on your face. Tell me Harry, how is that possible?"

"It will be okay."

Harry didn't know what else to say, it had all been said, and in the process, he finally got Draco to say his given name, and he didn't ever want to forget that moment.