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Rinoa watched him as Squall walked out the door. She had frozen in the middle of what she was doing, and her face construed only a mixture of grief and horror. She only faintly heard and understood Seifer saying.

"Rinoa, this was a mistake, you know that I love Quistis. The feelings that I used to have for you are long gone. I'm sorry I let myself do this."

He paused.

"Look, everyone knows that Squall loves you. Maybe you should realize that before he does anything too outrageous because of you."

Seifer then lifted her stiff body off of him and placed it gently on the ground. He stood up and walked away. Rinoa sat there, alone and torn. What had she done? How could she have done such a thing!!??? She slapped herself as hard as she could. Her cheek stung, but she deserved more. How could she have ever believed that Squall didn't love her? He was just busy with something, and she had enlarged it to this! She slapped herself again. Her cheek burned with pain. She could not feel it though, for the pain in her chest burned too hot.

Her heart was not broken in two, but torn into a million flimsy shreds.

She sat there for awhile, unable to make herself move. The tears rolled freely down her face.

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Seifer quickly went through the halls looking for Quistis. He would tell her himself what he had done, before anyone else found out. He found her helping a student in the Library.

He bent over her shoulder and whispered in a low voice.

"Quistis, I need a word with you, now."

Quistis looked up, about to tell him off, but when she saw the pained look on his face, she became puzzled, quickly apologized to the student and then stood up.

He lead her to her dorm and than sat her down on the bed. He sat next to her. He looked down at the floor for a few minutes, contemplating on how he was supposed to tell her. After a prolonged silence, she finally asked.

"Seifer, What's going on?"

He looked up at her. She gasped. Tears were rolling down his face, his eyes filled with hopelessness and sadness. She had never seen him cry before. She drew him into a hug, but he shoved her back.

"I don't deserve you!" he said through his sobbing. Quistis shook his shoulders.

"Get a grip on yourself Seifer!"

He looked up at her. "Quistis, I....... I kissed Rinoa again.... not just kissed her.... I.... I can't even say it.....I...I have no good excuse...I'm just...so...sorry....and I wanted you to hear it from me, and not from someone else...."

He put his head in his hands.

Quistis stared at him, ashen faced.

Suddenly, out of instinct, she put her arms around him.

"It's okay Seifer. It doesn't matter what you did. I've never seen you in such a state before. You repent your actions, and that is all that matters to me."

Seifer looked up at her disbelievingly.

"You can't forgive me.... I don't deserve it."

Quistis managed a thin smile.

"Well," she said, "Deserve it or not, I forgive you." Seifer turned to her and they embraced.

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Squall ran from the deck. He kept running and running. He didn't even notice as his steps took him through Balamb and back to Garden. He didn't notice as he boarded Ragnarok. He didn't even notice the monsters he was killing as he ran through Centra. Finally he found himself standing on top of a Trabian mountain, considering jumping and rolling down to his death. Everywhere he had gone, everything had died. He pulled the diamond Griever out of his pocket and considered it a moment.

He held his arm up as though to throw the ring, but something stopped him, and he put it back in his pocket.

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Numbly, he flew back to Balamb. As he walked into Balamb Garden, the little clumps of people socializing recoiled from his vibe of despair, which was almost tangible. He went to his dormitory and pulled a thin coil of rope out of the bottom drawer of his desk. After knotting it in a certain way, he attached it to the rack in his closet and then sat on his bed and stared at it.

Just when he was about to stand up, Selphie burst into the room crying.

"Oh Squall! I heard, oh that's terrible, oh no, you must feel awful!"

He turned to her, and she ran to him and gave him a big hug, trying her best to comfort him. She looked over his shoulder as she did, and past him into the closet.

She gasped and released her embrace. Still staring at the closet, she squeaked out the words.

"Oh, no.....Squall, you wouldn't!"

He looked down at her seriously. She kept staring wide-eyed, at the noose hanging from the rack.

Note: Oh my gosh!!! No Squall, don't do it! What will happen? You'll just have to wait and see! -evil grin-