So This Is Love?
A/N This story is a Harry/Ron slash. I own none of the Harry Potter characters. This story also does not follow most of the information from the books, so if some things are wrong or miss stated, they're suppose to be. Thank you and enjoy!
When did it start? How did it begin? Those thoughts kept replaying themselves over and over through Ron's already confused mind. He wasn't sure when these thoughts started but he was sure of one thing, he was in love. Or something like it. The problem was that it was with his best friend, not Hermione but-,
"Harry!" Ron shouted as he saw his best friend in question crossing the quidditch pitch. It was the beginning of their seventh year at Hogwarts and he was holding tryouts for the new season.
Harry raised his head and grinned when he noticed his red haired friend waving to him, "Hey Ron! What are you doing down here?"
"Oh, nothing much, Hermione was trying to make me get a head start on my homework so I thought I'd come down here and see how the tryouts are going?"
"They're great! There is a lot of new talent this year. I have a feeling that we might actually be able to win the house cup!" Harry exclaimed excitedly.
Ron laughed, "You're starting to sound like Wood."
Harry grinned, "I'm going to get changed you going hang around?"
Ron shrugged, "Yeah I'll come with you. Not much else I can do except homework," he rolled his eyes.
Harry made his way into the changing room with Ron trailing behind and sat down on a bench while Harry changed. Unfortunately, at that time those thoughts decided to reenter his head.
Why Harry? Because he's perfect, loyal, brave…Why now? Actually, he had always had those feelings. He just decided now to believe them.
"Ron?"
He jumped, "Yeah?"
"You dazed off," Harry said standing in front of him, his shirt in his hands.
"Oh, um, sorry mate, tired I guess." He blushed. Harry could never know how he truly felt, his friendship was just to important to risk by telling him about a silly crush…right?
Harry shrugged and started changing. Ron let his eyes wander over his friends' well toned torso down to the tops of his pants gently resting on his hips. He noticed that his pants hung loosely around them, as if one slight tug could send them cascading down to his ankles.
Harry soon finished changing and gestured for Ron to follow him. They walked in silence for awhile until Harry couldn't stand it any longer, "What's up mate? You're awfully quiet today."
Ron shook his head, "Nothing, just thinking."
"About?"
Ron smiled, "How lovely my bed sounds, I'm exhausted." Harry laughed and they continued their long walk up to Hogwarts.
Ron decided against going to supper that night and instead went up to his room and lied down.
Would it be possible for him to let Harry know? Would he love him back? If he didn't, would they still be friends? Ron knew he should be worried that he might be giving himself away but he couldn't help it. These feelings were still to new to him. He never considered himself gay. He didn't know how to feel, if he should be ashamed or happy. He needed help that he knew he couldn't ask for. Harry didn't know anyway, he could be so blissfully unaware sometimes.
Meanwhile, down at the Great Hall Harry joined Hermione at the table. He took his seat across from her and started piling up his plate. Hermione looked up, "Where's Ron?"
"Oh, he said he was tired so he went up to bed"
Hermione looked at him, "Is he alright?"
Harry shrugged, "I don't know, he has been really quiet lately, I asked him about it but he won't say anything."
Hermione looked thoughtful for a moment and then stood up, "I'm going to go check on him. I'll see you later." Harry looked after her, feeling putout. Ron wouldn't confess his problems to him why would he confess them to Hermione?
Hermione quickly made it up to the boy's Gryffindor dormitory and knocked on the door before edging it open, "Ron? Are you alright?" she asked stepping into the room.
"Hermione, what are you doing here?" he asked sitting up.
"Well, Harry told me you were acting funny today, is there anything you wanted to talk about?" she asked, a little glitter of hope and knowing flickering in her eyes. Ron studied her, does she know? She tried again, "You're hiding something from Harry and I think that I may be able to help you with it."
For the first time since he realized his feelings for his friend 2 weeks ago he started getting nervous, "I can't do this Hermione, I know you know, don't make me say it." He pleaded hiding his head in his hands. She smiled sitting next to him on the bed.
"Ron, it's alright. I'm here to listen." Ron was truly glad that she was his friend. Before he knew it he was confessing everything he had learned to Hermione, how he loved him, his fear of being found out and the idea that he would be rejected by Harry. She stayed quiet for a moment,
"I'm not saying that he feels the same but I think that you should tell him. He wouldn't stop being friends with you. It'll drive you nuts keeping this to yourself, he should know, you'll feel better. You are the most important thing to him, remember fourth year with the second challenge?" Ron nodded.
"I know but-"
"Hey guys what up?" Harry asked walking into the room. Ron paled,
"How long where you there?" Harry looked hurt and confused,
"I just got here"
Hermione stood up, "I should let you guys talk, Harry, Ron has something he needs to discuss with you."
Harry watched her leave and once the door clicked quietly into place he turned to Ron who was fidgeting on his bed. Harry crossed over to him concerned, "Come on mate, what's wrong?"
Ron shook his head, "I really shouldn't tell you this."
Harry watched him, "Why not?"
Ron sighed, stood up and turned toward the window. Maybe it would be easier if he wasn't facing him. "I have a crush."
Harry laughed, "Is that what's so bad? Who's the lucky gal?" When Ron didn't say anything Harry stood up and walked up to him, placing a hand on his shoulder, "Ron?"
He turned around to look at him, his sparkling green eyes filled with concern, but no love, not the kind Ron was searching for anyway. "Harry, its…it's not, um…a girl."
"Not a girl? Then what…oh" Ron nodded
"Oh," he said again. Ron turned away again.
"I just thought you should know that you're living with a fag," he mumbled sadly.
"Ron, don't be daft, I mean, I wasn't expecting that but you're still my friend."
"There's one more thing."
Harry grinned, "Come on, after that nothing can surprise me."
Ron's eyes faltered and feel from his face, "My crush, it's on you." This statement was followed by a longer silence then the last and the removal of Harry's hand from his shoulder. This is it, its over. Ron thought miserably not having enough courage to lift his eyes.
"I guess I was wrong," Harry muttered.
"I'm sorry; I knew I shouldn't have told you anything, it was a mistake. I'm going to go now," and he quickly rushed out of the room.
Harry sat down on the edge of his bed in a complete daze. His best friend was in love with him? His best GUY friend? Why wasn't he more disgusted? Should he even be? Then a thought occurred to him, no. He didn't care if Ron is gay, he is still the same person he knew for the past seven years. Nothing could change that. Maybe he didn't feel the same way about him but they would be friends until the end. Harry was just about to stand up and find Ron when another thought entered his brain making him stall. Was he sure he didn't care for Ron that way? I mean, he always felt close to Ron, he could tell him anything. He was the one thing he would miss most in the world. He didn't know, he couldn't think right now. All he could do was to find Ron and talk this out.
Harry rushed out of the room and was just about to jump through the portrait hole when Hermione cut in his path.
"Harry, what happened?"
He shook his head, "I don't know, he, he likes me?" Harry whispered confused. Hermione nodded. "I need to find him," he said going around her.
"What are you going to say?"
Harry stopped, "I don't know, I'll think of something," and he ran through.
It wasn't hard to find Ron, he could be predictable sometimes. Harry quickly made his way down to the quidditch changing rooms and gently pushed open the door. "Ron? Are you in here?" He didn't hear a sound but went inside anyway. As he walked deeper into the room he heard the showers running. Making his way over he spotted Ron under the cold shower head fully clothed. "Ron?" Harry asked quietly. He spun around,
"What are you doing here?" he asked, his voice slightly high pitched.
"I want to talk to you," he said walking over and shutting off the valve, "Why are you in here?"
"I thought it would make me feel better, help me realize it was all a dream?" It sounded more like a question then a statement. Harry tried guiding him out of the shower but he refused to move and sat down on the floor. Harry followed suit, ignoring the cold water seeping through his pants. "I think we need to talk about this," he said staring at his friend who refused to meet his eyes.
"There's nothing to talk about, I'm a fag, you hate me, I'm going to lonely the rest of my life and that's all there is." He said his voice hoarse. Harry stared at him, at loss of what to say.
"Ron, you won't be alone, I'll always be with you. We'll always be friends." Harry said placing his hand on his friend's knee. Ron jerked under his touch causing him to pull away.
"No we won't. It's going to be different now," he sighed finally looking up.
Harry shook his head, "Maybe it will be weird at first, I'm still confused on how I feel about this but I'm sure of one thing, we'll always be best friends." Harry moved closer, "I've never had a friend before you; I'm not going to throw it away just because you fancy men." Ron smiled.
"Think there's a chance you might like me?" just the way he asked made Harry's heart melt, the un-sureness, the hope. Harry shrugged.
"I don't know, I need time to think about it." Ron smiled.
"I can handle that, thanks by the way, for not, you know, hating me"
Harry laughed and pulled him into a hug, "I'd never hate you"
"Together forever we'll always be. Together forever, just you and me"
End here? I don't you can decide. Please review!