Summary: not likely to change anytime soon.

Disclaimer: I still don't own anything and my financial situation has not change. If you sue me, you will still end up with just a bunch of lint balls.

A/N: Italic are for flashbacks/past events, while everything else is the present time.

Chapter 2: Hellville, the doctor, and "Baby Butt Cream"

Pregnant. She thought to herself. Why now? Why not three weeks ago when they were still together? But wait, that would be just too easy. For Lorelai Gilmore, life is always trying to screw things up for her. Now she had to tell Luke. Tell Luke. Oh no! How was she going to do that? Just go up to him and say, 'Luke, I just wanted to tell you that I am pregnant. Ok, bye.' No. she had to formulate a plan. A plan to tell her ex-boyfriend that he was going to be a father to a child that shared half of its genes with a woman he apparently hated. The last thought hit her hard and made her eyes start to tear up again.

"Lorelai? Are you in there?" Lorelai heard Michel's voice outside the bathroom door.

"Um…yeah Michel. Just…hold on a second. I'll be right out." She managed to get out before turning to the mirror to make sure none of her makeup was smeared. She then wiped away the tears that were on her face, stuffed the strip in the box, the box in her purse, and then exited the bathroom.

"What is it Michel?" She asked as she walked over to the front desk.

"Oh, well Sookie wanted me to tell you she wanted to see you." He replies as he was writing something down.

"What did she need?" Lorelai asked just wanting to go home.

"I don't know! I am not getting paid to pass messages back and forth. She asked if I could mention that she wanted to speak with you! That was it! Nothing else. Now if you don't mind, I have more important things to do than give you a speech about my job description!" he said in an angered tone.

"Ok!" Lorelai said trying not to offend him any more. That would just take up more time. She tried to resolve the conflict within herself as she walked to the kitchen. Should she tell Sookie or not? Well, we will just see how it goes she thought to herself.

"Hey Sook, what's up?" she asked trying to sound as normal as possible.

"So, what was that all about? That thing earlier where you had to leave suddenly." She asked not stopping her preparation of the dish in front of her.

"Oh, well see," she started trying to quickly think of a believable lie to tell her best friend. "I remembered that Rory had called earlier and needed some notes from home to finish her paper." She quickly added.

"Oh. Ok. As long as it wasn't something really big. Wait," she added as she looked up. "What do apples have to do with Rory's notes?" she asked not seeing a real evident connection between the two.

"well, last night Rory called me up and I said something and she said that I had said it like 4 or 5 times and you saying that just triggered the memory of her which triggered the memory of her asking for me to bring her her notes." She said as she started to ramble.

"Oh! Ok. Well, that's all I needed to talk to you about." Sookie said obviously satisfied with the answer she had received because she had returned to preparing the food she had previously been preparing. After a moment of hesitation, Lorelai also went back to her regular work.

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Within three days Lorelai had made a plan to tell Luke about the pregnancy. She had resolved that it was better that he found out from her rather than someone else later on. So she pulled on her coat, grabbed her purse and headed out the door. She was headed towards the diner but as she neared it she noticed that she was starting to get strange looks from people all around her. She brushed it off as another symptom of the town's obsession with her and Luke's relationship, or in this case, lack thereof.

As she approached the diner, she noticed that it was empty and it looked as if the diner had been stripped of all of the decoration (what little there was). It looked vacant and as if Luke had left. But no. Luke couldn't have left. He wouldn't. Would he? She thought to herself as she stopped 5 feet from the door.

"He's gone sugar." Lorelai heard a raspy voice say behind her.

"What?" she asked unbelieving of this woman she had known for so many years.

"He's gone. He left yesterday. We thought you would have heard or he would have told ya." Babette added.

"Wait, Luke's gone?" she asked still trying to understand what this meant.

"Yeah. He didn't tell anyone why but Taylor thinks it is because of the agreement he made to leave when you two first got together, but Luke would never do anything just for the sake of Taylor's happiness." Babette said as Lorelai tried to figure out what she was going to do.

"Um…yeah, I guess you are right. Well Babette. Thanks for telling me. I actually have to get some stuff done at the inn. So I guess I will see you around?" she asked.

"Yeah! Maybe me and Morey can stop by later and we can do something together. What do you think?" she asked.

"Well, I will have to see. I did have something planned but I will see if I can get home early. I'll call you guys ok?" she said trying to cut the conversation off.

"Yep, well by sugar. We'll see you later. Say hi to Rory for us!"

"I will Babette!" she shouted back as she walked away.

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Lorelai then called up Rory who was expecting to here how the talk went with Luke.

"Hello?" Rory answered on the other line.

"Hey it's me." Lorelai said as she tried to hold back tears and as she opened the front door to the house.

"Oh. How was the chat with Luke?" Rory asked hesitantly. Lorelai couldn't take it any more.

"He's gone Rory!" she sobbed into the phone as she collapsed on the couch in the living room.

"What do you mean he's gone? Do you mean he left when you told him, because that doesn't seem like Luke."

"Rory, Luke left town yesterday. And I don't think he is coming back!" she cried some more.

"Ok mom, I am going to hang up and come over right now. Do you understand?" she asked feeling that sometimes she was more of a parent.

"Yes. I just don't know why…" Lorelai started to say.

"Mom I am hopping into my car as we speak. I will be there in 20 minutes ok?" she said trying to get her mother to calm down, but she knew that she had to be with her mother to help her.

"Ok. I will see you soon. Bye." she said and then hung up the phone.

This was the memory of the one that left her. Luke left her. And along with all of his belongings he took Lorelei's hope of having a family. A whole family, with a mother, a father, and the child. This was the hope that was lost the day he left. She remembered the emptiness she had felt at that moment after she had hung up the phone. There had been no sounds in the house with the exception of her sobbing. Before he had left, there was always a chance to go talk to Luke, go see him. But now she could do neither. Lorelai looked out at the snow falling slowly down from the sky. She wondered what would have happened if Luke had not left. But then she realized that it was all in the past and why dwell on the past when you have a whole future left to help build? Even with the absence of the futures main character.

After the initial shock of Luke leaving had worn off, Lorelai had begun to except the future she was given. She didn't think about it as much and when she did she tried to push those thoughts to the back of her mind. All she wanted now was to help her baby live a life that was worth living. Even in the absence of a father. Lorelai had told Sookie about the pregnancy a week after Luke had left and 24 hours later the whole town knew. Lorelai had hated being bombarded with questions but she didn't let anyone know.

After 3 months of no contact with her parents, Lorelai had been talked into going to Friday night dinner with Rory to tell them about the pregnancy. Lorelai had begun to show just a bit as she was in her 4th month of pregnancy so she had worn a loose shirt with a nice black skirt.

As Lorelai walked up to the door with Rory, she started to protest again.

"Do I have to go? They are just going to insult me." She whined.

"No they won't, now stop it!" Rory said. She had had enough of it. All her mother had done for the past week was complain and Rory was sick of it! Just then the door was opened by the maid who took their coats and led them to the living room.

"Hello Rory! Lorelai! It is nice to see you here! I heard you had some news for us?" Richard asked as he got up to get the drinks.

"Um… yah, but that can wait a bit. Dad can I just have a soda please?" Lorelai asked.

"Sure." Richard answered not realizing how odd that would have been under normal circumstances.

"Are you sick?" Emily asked. She had obviously not missed it though.

"No I am fine mom." Lorelai answered taking the drink from her father as he held it out for her.

"Well then why are you drinking soda? Even when you are driving you still drink something alcoholic. What is wrong with you?" she asked.

"Nothing is wrong mom; I am just not in the mood for something alcoholic." She answered feeling for some reason offended.

"What is it? Lorelai what is wrong with you?" she asked for the umpteenth time.

"Mom, nothing is wrong with me!" Lorelai repeated getting defensive.

"Well then what is it?" Emily Gilmore had never been one to give up. She never let anything stand in the way of her getting the answers she wanted. Lorelai knew this and so she gave in.

"You want to know what is wrong. Fine I will tell you. I am pregnant! There are you happy mom? There I told you! Now if you will excuse me, I have to use the bathroom!" Lorelai yelled at her mother.

Emily and Richard were speechless. At that point they knew Luke was out of the picture and had been for a few months. So, who was the father of this child? They both asked themselves.

When Lorelai came back the first question out of Emily's mouth was:

"Whose is it?"

"Well…it is…uh…" Lorelai stammered knowing her mother would hate the answer to the question she had asked. Lorelai sat down on the couch next to Rory and decided to just get the answer out into the open.

"It's Luke's mom."

"Luke's?" Emily questioned. She had thought that he was out of the picture.

"Yeah." Lorelai answered almost at a whisper volume. There was a long pause of silence. At that point Richard saw that it was his turn to say something.

"How far along are you?" he asked. There was no emotion in his voice. Typical dad, Lorelai thought to herself.

"About 4 and a half months." She said.

"4 and a half months and you couldn't find the time to tell us? And how could you do this to us? With that filthy diner man no less! I thought he was out of the picture! " Emily started to yell.

"Mom stop yelling. You and I both know no matter how much yelling you do, it won't make your grandchild that is growing inside of me disappear, so just deal with it! And I am sorry if I ruined your perfect plan for me. Of course, that is what I am good at! Oh, and Luke is out of the picture. There are you happy now mom? Does knowing that Luke is out of the picture make everything all better for you? Did you had him that much?" she yelled as tears streamed down her face. Then she turned to face her father.

"Well, I am leaving. Bye dad." She said as she grabbed her purse and walked towards the door. Rory knowing that she had come with her mother said "Mom, I'll be out in a minute." As Lorelai walked out of the house and slammed the front door behind her.

Rory then turned towards her grandmother, "what did she ever do to make you hate your own grandchild? We all know you don't approve, but face it, what's done is done. There is now turning back now and you know it!" She yelled in her grandmother's direction. "Goodnight Grandpa." She said as kissed him on the cheek and followed her mother's lead and walked out to the car.

Outside she found her mother in the car crying. She didn't know what to do. It had always been Luke who was good at this stuff, so she just sat next to her mother and let her cry into her shoulder.

Lorelai remembered that fiasco. Her mother still had not forgiven her for giving birth to the "filthy diner man's" child but she didn't take it out on the baby.

The next memory Lorelai went over in her head was the doctor's appointment where she found out what the sex was of her baby.

"Hurry up Rory or we are going to be late!" Lorelai yelled throughout the house trying to locate her daughter.

"Here I am mom!" Rory yelled back as she bounced out of her room while trying to slip on her shoe. "Hello there!" she added as she rubbed her mother's abdomen.

"What is it about rubbing my stomach that people find so fascinating?" Lorelai asked.

"What do you mean?" Rory asked as she secured her shoe on her foot.

"Well yesterday I was in Doose's and some random woman comes up to me and starts to rub my stomach! What is up with that?" she asked as they both walked out of the house and down the front steps to the jeep. "And then Taylor," Lorelai started.

"NO!" Rory said with an amazed look on her face.

"Yes! Taylor started to rub and talk to my stomach as he was scanning the items or whatever they do. I almost killed him right there!" she added.

"Who would have ever thought Taylor chatting with Luke's unborn child?" Rory laughed as they both climbed into the vehicle.

Luke had not been mentioned lately but it wasn't a 'say and you die' topic anymore. Lorelai acted as if she didn't care about Luke not being there to raise his child and she pretended not to care that she would have to raise another child alone. No one could really see what she felt inside anyways.

Lorelai still had trouble sleeping at night. Even after 4 and a half months without Luke, she still felt lost without him. She hated her house because every little thing reminded her of him.

Luke was all Lorelai could think of as Rory drove Lorelai to the doctor's appointment. She wondered if this baby would look like him or if it would resemble her mostly. Then she wondered whether it was a boy or a girl. As if she was reading her mother's mind, Rory asked, "so, are you going to find out the sex now or are you going to wait for it to be a surprise?"

"Oh, I am definitely finding out today!" Lorelai said with a fake smile painted on her face.

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As the doctor walked into the office, he saw the two women sitting in front of him.

"So, how are we feeling today?" he asked Lorelai.

"Good actually. The morning sickness stopped finally and I can now eat food without feeling nauseous." She answered smiling at him as he wrote something upon his clipboard.

"Well, let's see how this baby is doing. Now the gel is going to me kind of cold." He warned her as laid back and lifted her shirt to reveal her protruding abdomen.

"As it always is." Lorelai commented about the gel.

"So, would you like to know the sex of your baby?" the doctor asked as he watched the screen.

"Yes I would." Lorelai said with a hint of giddiness in her voice.

"Well, it seems that you are having," he paused for a moment just to check the screen one more time.

"Seems you are having a boy!" he said with a big smile on his face. Lorelai felt so happy inside. A boy! Her mind then skipped to the thought of dressing her little baby up in little flannels and a blue baseball cap like his father. She thought of how if he was there at that moment he would be so happy to get the son he always wanted. He would also protest against the wardrobe choice Lorelai had just pictured in her mind. But Luke wasn't there. It was only Lorelai.

"Yay! Rory, a boy! You are going to have a little brother!" she said looking at Rory who was also smiling.

Lorelai remembered that moment. She smiled to herself now. She had never actually gotten to dress her son in that flannel and that baseball cap. Even if she did, it would have reminded her too much of Luke, and she had spent the most of the past year trying to put him behind her. All of a sudden she heard a soft whimper coming from the crib.

Lorelai quickly tore herself away from the window to go pick up her son.

"Oh, hey. It's ok. Mommy's here, mommy's here." She said softly to the infant as she swayed from side to side to try to get him to calm down.

"Did you have a bad dream?" she asked while looking into her child's eyes. He definitely was a Luke. There was no doubt about it.

He started to calm down and quickly cuddled into Lorelai's chest. She held her baby there for a few more minutes, still rocking back and forth. She loved the feeling of being the only thing her son needed; the feeling that no matter what he would never leave because he had no reason to. She knew it was absurd to think something like that about your 4 month old son, but that was how she felt.

When she looked back down at the little infant in her arms she discovered he had fallen asleep. Lorelai then laid him back down in the crib and stole a glance at the clock.

6:17 it told her. She concluded that she should probably take her shower now before it was too late. She turned the baby monitor on and grabbed it as she headed into the bathroom to take a nice warm shower.

It was 15 minutes into the shower when she heard the baby crying. She jumped out of the shower quickly wrapping a towel around her and walked to the crib. She found her son squirming around screaming at the top of his lungs. His face had turned the color of a tomato. Lorelai knew he was hungry at that point. She picked him up and carried him down the stairs into the kitchen. She took one of the bottles out of the refrigerator and placed it in the microwave. She turned it on while trying to quiet her little baby.

"Wow you have some lungs there!" she said when her attempts to calm him failed.

Just then she heard a beep and saw that the microwave had stopped. She took the bottle out, placed the cover back on and then shook it. She tested the temperature with her wrist and after being satisfied she positioned the baby in her arms so she could feed him.

The moment the bottle entered his mouth he immediately started to suck at it. She could tell he was hungry. Within 15 minutes the bottle was empty and her little boy was staring up at her face taking in every feature. He then started to reach up and grab anything within reach. He first took hold of her nose. He pinched it as she made funny noises at him. His face immediately irrupted into a big grin.

"Are you happy to squish mommy's nose?" Lorelai asked in a baby voice. Lorelai then realized the time. It was 6:58 and she had to be to work by 8. She quickly rushed up the stairs holding her son. She placed him on the changing table. Lorelai removed her son's sleeper. She then pulled out a fresh diaper as she tore off the one that he already had on.

"Oh, no! Do you have a rash! Not again." She said to herself as she noticed the rash. She then pulled out some cream for his rash. She laughed at the thought of the conversation she had had with Rory a few days previously about how they should stop giving the cream funny names like 'Desatin' and just call it "baby butt cream". Lorelai laughed under her breath as she put the clean diaper on her son. He was chewing his fingers, or what Lorelai liked to call "gumming" his fingers. She then pulled out a pair of little jeans and a tiny, white t-shirt and dressed him in them.

She then placed him in his crib to chew his fingers while she got dressed. She pulled on a pair of jeans and a blue halter that matched her eyes. She walked over to the basket of her son's clothes and searched for 2 extra outfits to bring with them to the inn.

It was a daily routine she had started. Get up, shower, feed baby, and change and clothe baby, get dressed, and then pack the diaper bag. Normally it was that order. As she stuffed some diapers, wipes, and the '"baby butt cream" in the bag, she thought what Luke was doing at this moment. She hated this. They had never really gotten any closure. Or for her it felt as if they hadn't because she had never gotten the chance to tell him he had a son.

She then walked over to the crib where her son lay, "gumming" his toes. He looked up at her as she stood over the crib and he smiled. He was always smiling. He was really a happy baby. Most of the time you could just stick him in his crib and he would find some way to amuse himself.

"Hey! Ready to go see Sookie and mean old Michel?" she asked him. She picked him up along with the diaper bag which lay on her bed.

She walked downstairs and into the kitchen. She grabbed some empty bottles and nipples and packed them into the diaper bag. Carrying the baby and the bag, she walked into the foyer to grab both hers and the baby's coats. She put her sons coat on him and then her own on herself. She then grabbed her purse and headed out the door, not forgetting to lock it.

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