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Chapter 4: The Man, the Son, and the Uncertainty

"Luke?" she said his name. She felt the need to burst into tears. He had left. He had left and now he was back. She had just started to be able to live a normal life without him, or so she kept telling herself.

"I…uh…" he started not knowing where exactly TO start.

"Can we talk in my office?" she asked knowing this conversation needed some privacy. She never had told him he had a son, and she realized she had to tell him now; while she still had the chance.

"Um…ok. I guess." He answered. He could see the hurt in her eyes. It had been over a year now and he was sure he was over her until he looked into her eyes. They were the same sapphires he remembered from before. The only difference was that they seemed more tired, less upbeat, more…under pressure and stressed? Was that what he saw in her eyes?

"So, what are you doing here Luke?" she asked as they entered the office and Lorelai closed the door behind them. It didn't sound the way it was supposed to. It was meant to be a simple question wondering how he came to decide to come back. It came out as if it was her town and he was trespassing. But he didn't seem to notice.

"Uh, Liz was here in town for a bit and she needed me to help her with some stuff. There isn't enough room at her place, my old apartment is not fit to be lived in, and this is the only other place to stay within a 30 mile radius." He said not sure if that was enough for her or if that was even what she wanted to hear.

Lorelai felt her stomach tighten when he referred to his apartment as old. In some way it made her think that maybe he meant that their relationship was old. It was in the past. He just passed so many memories of the together from that apartment for the inn. The new inn. The newish inn. Her inn. Her newish inn.

"Ok. Well, I…uh…I…Luke I have something to tell you." She stammered.

"What? What happened? Did something happen to Rory?" he asked. He still felt like a father to her. If he had missed anything, anything at all that had happened to Rory, he would kick himself.

"Um…actually no. it involves just…just you and…and me…and…um…and um…god how do I say this!" she said to herself trying so hard not to burst into tears.

"Luke, you have a son." She just blurted out. She then buried her face in her hands as her eyes started to well up with tears. She was sure his first reaction would be to yell, but it wasn't.

"Wha…I have a what?" he said talking to himself. He was having an internal war of emotions inside. He was excited because he had a son, sad because he hadn't known about it. Lorelai then dried up her tears and looked into Luke's eyes again.

"A son. You have a son. He…he is um…4 months old, he…" she started.

"4 months? Wait, wouldn't that mean you knew about the pregnancy before…before I left?" he asked as anger started to rise within him.

"Um…yeah. Between a week or two before you left." She knew all of a sudden why he had asked.

"and you couldn't find the time to tell me?" he yelled. Why would she do that! He thought angrily.

"Luke…it was all really complicated and by the time I was ready to tell you I was pregnant, you were gone and…" she started.

"Well then you could have contacted me! I have a son that I don't know about and you decided to wait till you ran into me to tell me? So, if I didn't show up for the next 18 years, you wouldn't try to tell me I had a son? Is that what you are saying?" he yelled

"No Luke that is not what I am saying!" she defended.

"I can't deal with this right now!" he said taking his hat off his head and running his hand through his hair.

"Luke, please…" She pleaded.

"what do you want from me?" he yelled.

" I just need to know how you feel about this! Do you even want a part in you son's life!" she yelled back now furious that he was acting as if their son was some thing to be tossed back and forth; not living and just there for decoration. That child had grown inside of her for nine months, had been her whole life for twelve, and she would not stand to have him insulted like this.

"I just need time to think about this. Time." He said quietly.

"And we all know how things ended up the last time you needed time!" she said in a hateful tone as she passed him and walked out of her office. She was done. There was nothing left to say. He wanted time, he could have it. Just like he did last time only this time, she was not waiting for the final answer. She didn't care anymore.

"Lorelai! Wait!" he said as he rushed after her.

Lorelai went up to the front desk to get the paperwork she needed to work on. She had heard Luke call after her and then saw him follow her but she just ignored his presence. She grabbed the papers from Michel, turned around and walked to the door.

"Ok, Michel, I will see you on Monday!" she said responding to the list of swears he had just thrown at her. She walked out the door with Luke following still.

"Lorelai! Can we please talk! I didn't mean it like that!" Luke said trying to get a response; any response.

"No Luke. We did talk. You had your chance. And I don't care how you meant it! It still hurt to here you insult our son! Oh, sorry, let me correct that statement, MY son!" she yelled as she got into the jeep and sped off towards Sookie's to pick up Jake.

She knew he had not directly insulted Jake, but by showing no interest, he proved that he didn't care. How could he? Why did he have to be like that, so…! She tried to find the word to describe him. Selfish! That was what he was. He was being selfish. He didn't care that maybe he was hurting her all over again.

Her thoughts then drifted towards her son and what Luke being back meant for him. Jake was a 4 month old baby. He didn't know the difference between his father and a random serial killer off the street. A serial killer alright. Luke definitely was a serial killer of hearts. What if Luke decided that he wanted to be a part of their son's life? She knew it would only be her son's life, rather than both her and her son's lives. At this thought tears started streaming down her face. She hated Luke! He brought so much confusion into her life; so much uncertainty.

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dun dun dun! see! i fooled some of you! ha ha! sorry about the fight, but it had to happen! "you said pie! all i heard you say was pie!" sorry, that was just me being...well me! so, you know you want to give me those nice reviews that you have been so graciously giving so far! well, i also want a pony, and some chocolate, and some coffee, and my two front teath, and some pie! ok, well there is my chistmas list. ok. well i hope you enjoyed the chapter. sorry for the randomness in this paragraph. ok, well review review review. there. i am done.