Wow! this has to be the longest chapter i have writen! sorry i haven't posted in the past few days but i have been busy with some school stuff. i also didn't have that much time to edit so it might have a few grammatical errors. sorry if there are! well, here it is, i way not be able to post another chapter for another couple days, but i will try to post at the soonest possible time. now i will stop talking and let you read what you really want to read! Enjoy!

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Chapter 6: The Babysitter and The Sookie

Luke was shocked at her response. He knew it was an honest answer because it wasn't full of laughs, or jokes, or pop culture references. He had caused that tear. She had asked him to go, and he had refused. He then heard the sobbing coming from the other side of the door. He raised his hand to knock on the door but then decided against it. she needed time now. He now knew how it felt. She needed time, and he didn't like the fact that she was the one deciding his future; His future with their son; his son. His son's name was Jacob, but she called him Jakey. He thought to himself.

He then decided to back to the inn and give Lorelai some space.

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Lorelai was in that position for at least 15 minutes before she realized that she had to feed her son. She got up and wiped her tears on he sleeve of her jacket.

"Hey baby!" she said lifting Jake out of the seat. "what are you doing?" she asked him as he drooled all over her.

"So, what do you want for dinner?" she asked as she walked into the kitchen looking around for food. "How about some cereal for you, and for me, how about cold pizza!" she said enthusiastically as she pulled out the baby cereal. She set it down on the counter so she could get a bottle; all while still holding her son. She mixed the cereal with some formula and put it in a bottle. She then fed it to Jake.

"so, how do you like your daddy? Oh, wait you know him as luke." She said angry at herself for saying that to Jake about his father. "Yeah, that's what I thought." She said when she saw how uninterested he was in the conversation he was supposedly apart of.

She had then put him down in the bassinette in the living room while getting some 2 day old cold pizza from the refrigerator. She ate in silence until she heard whining coming from the living room. She walked in to find her son cry profusely.

"Hey, what's wrong?" she asked him as she picked him up and rocked him back and forth. "Do you need a diaper change my little Jakey?" she asked knowing the answer was probably yes. She walked up the stairs to the changing table where all the diapers and such were kept. She didn't know why she didn't keep everything down stairs. It would be so much easier at night, but she never got to the actual relocation of everything. Oh well, this will be a fun night. She thought to herself.

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the next morning Lorelai woke up covered in sweat. Damn dreams! She thought to herself. She had tried to get to sleep for 2 hours and once she finally did, she woke up to a nightmarish dream. She got up out of bed and pulled on a sweatshirt and went into the bathroom. I look like hell! She thought to herself as she glanced in the mirror. She knew that it must have been at least 3:00 in the morning. Well, I am up, so I might as well go finish the paperwork she thought. She really didn't like what Luke being around was doing to her. She hated it in fact. But she didn't want to think about it. She just wanted to burry herself in her work. It was the safest thing to do at the time.

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Lorelai all of a sudden woke up to here a phone ring.

"Ah! Go away!" she yelled at the phone as she curled up on the couch covering her head with pillows trying to block out he sound. She must have fallen asleep while doing the paperwork she thought. When the phone didn't stop ringing she got up to answer it.

"Hello?" she said with her eyes still closed.

"Hey mom!" Lorelai heard Rory say.

"Do you have any idea what time it is?" she asked wanting to kill her one and only daughter at that point.

"um…it is 9:00 mom." She answered.

"yah, so? She asked.

"well I expected you to be up because of little Jakey. normally he gets up at 6 or 7 right?" she asked. Lorelai smiled. It was cute that Rory knew when her little brother woke up every morning.

"well I guess he is not up yet. So, what are you doing calling so early on a Saturday morning?" she asked rubbing her eyes.

"Well Sookie called me to tell me that Luke was back in town and you two had some sort of a fight?" she was asking more that explaining.

"Yeah, we did. And I really don't want to talk about this right now. change the subject." She demanded.

"Mom. You have to deal with this. Luke is back and I am guessing you told him about Jake! So, I was wondering If you needed me to come by the house and baby sit while you go out and talk with Luke and maybe…" she started rambling on.

"No. I do not want to discuss this with you Rory! It is something I have to deal with on my own!" she said forcefully into the phone. Rory felt hurt but kept at it. she and her mother had grown apart over the last few months. She knew it was because they rarely got to see each other. Her mother was always busy with the inn or Jake while Rory had school to think about. She then came up with an idea.

"Mom, I know, but I don't have classes today and I was thinking I could come down and just spend the day with my little brother!" she said trying to make it sound more appeasing.

"Fine, Rory. Come by the house at 11. Ok?" she asked giving in. she was giving in to Rory babysitting but not giving into talking with Luke. Rory said ok and then Lorelai hung up the phone. Time to start the morning she thought trudging up the stairs to see what her silent son was up to.

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"Hey mom!" Rory said as she burst through the front door. "Mom! Mom? Mom where are you?" she said listening for her mother's voice.

"In the kitchen hun!" she yelled back. "Here he is!" Lorelai said as she handed Jake over to Rory. "Are you going to parade him around town?" Lorelai asked.

"Always!" was Rory's response. "Hey, mom, where is the stroller?" Rory asked not remembering where her mother usually put it.

"Um, I think it's by the door." She answered as she stuffed a pop tart into her mouth.

"Ahah! I found it!" Rory yelled from the foyer.

"Ok, so here are his things. They are all packed in there. If he needs a diaper change remember he has a rash so use the…" she started going down the list of things she needed to remind Rory to remember.

"Baby butt cream. I got it mom. I have done this before! And even better that you! Do you need reminding of the bookstore incident?" she asked giving her mother a look that said 'do I need to remind you for the millionth time?'.

"No! And that was one time!" she insisted.

"Yah, ok mom. So we will be back in about two hours, ok mom?" she asked her mother.

"Yeah. You two go and have fun! And don't forget the butt…"

"The Butt cream! I got it mom!" She yelled as she exited the house with the baby, diaper bag, and stroller. Lorelai then sat down on the chair in kitchen to finish her cup of coffee.

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"Hello?" Rory said as she answered her cell phone while walking out of her mother's house.

"Hey, it's me." Sookie said.

"Sookie?"

"Yah, I was just about to go see your mother and talk to her. Did you get anything out of her?" Sookie asked.

"No, sorry. She avoided the subject completely. So you are going to talk to her now?"

"Yep." Sookie said.

"Well Sookie, tell me what she tells you and then I might be able to figure out how I can help her." Rory said referring to her mother.

"I will. Are you sure she will talk to me? I mean if she didn't talk to you…" she started.

"Sookie, to her I am still her little baby that needs to see her mother as superwoman. She will at least open up to you more. Ok? Well I have to go Sookie, I have some bonding time to get to. By Sookie." She said.

"Bye!" Sookie said with sincerity in her voice and then they both hung up the phone they were on.

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"Come in!" Lorelai yelled as she heard a knock at the door.

"Hey hon! It's me!" Sookie yelled as she walked into the kitchen to find her friend looking quite depressed with her head in he hands.

"Hey sook!" she said putting on a fake smile for her friend. Sookie was able to see right through it.

"What's wrong?" Sookie asked seating herself at the table across from Lorelai.

"What? Oh, nothing, just lack of sleep I guess. Why?" she asked Sookie.

"Lorelai, I know you don't want to talk to anyone, but it might do you some good!" Sookie said. Lorelai could tell she was right but she didn't want to talk.

"talk about what?" she asked acting as if she didn't know the answer she was going to get.

"Luke." Sookie said.

"Sookie I really can't talk to you about this. I have it all under control. Don't worry about me!" she said trying to get Sookie to understand that this was not a subject she wanted to be discussing.

"You do not have everything under control. Lorelai, it is like you said to me. I have known you for over a decade, and in that time, I have always been able to tell when you were lying to me. This, Lorelai, this is lying." She said repeating Lorelai's exact words from a day earlier almost word for word.

You have not always known when I was lying! She thought to herself. But then again, she is right this time. She added to her original thought.

"Sookie," she started.

"Lorelai what happened?" Sookie asked. She had known that Luke had been at the house the day before. They were seen by Babette and then the word spread around that Lorelai had gotten mad about something. There had been yelling. Babette hadn't been able to make out what they were saying but she knew there were some pretty hateful words exchanged.

"What happened when? I told you about the inn! He yelled I yelled, we both yelled. End of story." She summarized to her friend.

"I know, but what happened yesterday here?" she asked Lorelai.

"What? How did you know about that?" she asked astonished that her friend knew what happened only 12 hours after the fact.

"You're neighbors with Babette." She informed Lorelai.

"Oh, yeah. That would do it." Lorelai said laughing into her hands and then wiping her face with them. She removed them to see Sookie looking at her obviously waiting for her to say something. "What?" she asked.

"Lorelai, what happened?" she said trying to get her best friend to open up. Sookie had never been very successful at it but she had to try.

"Ah, fine!" she gave in. "When I got home after I picked Jake up from your house, I saw Luke waiting on the steps for me. I guess he tried to help me and I just brushed him off." She added while fidgeting with her coffee cup in front of her. "He then acted as if he wanted to talk. I told him to leave or I said goodbye or something like that. But he wouldn't leave. He then asked if Jake was his son. I insulted him or something by saying Luke didn't want to be in Jake's life." She said looking down at the coffee in the cup.

"Oh Lorelai," Sookie started.

"Hold on, there's more." Lorelai said stopping Sookie. Once Lorelai started talking, there was no stopping her. "Then he wanted to know Jake's name. I told him. Then I went and insulted Luke again by introducing him to Jake as "Luke" rather than his father. I still can't believe I did that! I could tell I had hurt him. He then defended himself by saying he would have been here if he had known about Jake. And then I told him to leave. He asked why and I told him the truth; I told him that it hurt too much to talk to him." She finished as she tried to hold back tears.

"Oh, honey!" Sookie said as she rushed over to comfort her friend. Sookie then pulled Lorelai into a big hug.

After crying for about 60 more seconds, Lorelai broke away from Sookie's embrace. She wiped her tears from her face with her hand but still continued to cry.

"I know that I should give Jake the chance of having a father around, but I just can't have Luke coming over everyday to see him and then leaving. I know it isn't fair but I can't get over Luke if he is here everyday only playing the father role. I don't know how things are going to end up Sookie, and that scares me. I have always, always had control over everything in my life. That is how I get through the day. Luke coming back is like throwing a wild card into the batch; it could go either way." She added as she wiped her tears and stopped crying.

"I mean, I would love to have Luke in Jake's life, but I don't know if I can bare it if Luke isn't in mine. Listen to me, I am babbling on about my ex boyfriend who got me pregnant and now wants to be part of our son's life. Wow! That just sounded so much like a description of Christopher!" she said to Sookie.

"But Luke is not Christopher. Christopher was never reliable or at least that what I have heard over the years from you. Luke isn't like that. You know that, I know you do." She said trying to reassure her best friend who seemed to doubt what she should be trusting.

"I guess." Lorelai said as she ran Sookie's words through her head. Was she right? Was Luke more reliable than Chris was? She thought. Of course he is! One voice screamed. Yes, but he ran away at the first sign of trouble. He didn't wait to see what would happen. He backed out the moment he thought it was too hard for him to deal with! The other voice yelled in her head. The first voice couldn't find a comeback for that statement. Why had Luke run? Did he not trust me enough to believe me when I said nothing happened between me and Christopher was true? Who is he to yell at me for not trusting him to be ok with me being pregnant when he couldn't even trust me to be fully honest! She thought in anger. These questions were valid and she knew that she would need them answered before she even allowed Luke to enter her son's life. She needed to know before she could move on. She needed her closure.

"Hey, honey, what are you thinking?" Sookie asked when she noticed how silent Lorelai was. Lorelai quickly snapped out of her train of thought when she heard Sookie's voice.

"I'm sorry, what?" Lorelai asked.

"I wanted to know what your thinking." She stated.

"Oh, just some more Luke stuff. Hey what time did Jackson want you back?" she asked trying to change the subject. Enough had been said and she just needed some alone time to think some more.

"Oh! Crap!" she said noticing the time. "Actually in about 30 seconds! So, I am going to go. I am sorry about the Luke thing. I hope you two work it out." She said as she walked to the door.

"Ok. Thanks Sookie. Bye!" she yelled so Sookie could hear her. Lorelai then closed the closed the door. Wow! It had been some day! She thought to herself.

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