Sorry it took so long! I had to take a break from writing. Don't get me wrong, i love it, but it just tires you out sometimes. So, my tenth chapter. Yay! After this there is only one more. Ah! it is coming to an end! NO! So thanks for waiting and i hope you enjoy it! Oh! And i would like to thank all of my reviewers. most of you i already responded to the reviews you gave me but you are so special that i think you deserve more thanking! I really appreciate it and i am sure that every other writer would agree that reviews is the best way to repay them for taking the time to write their story! so, i will stop rambling and let you get back to my story!
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Chapter 10: Coming, Going, and Leave!
"What the hell have I just done?" Lorelai asked herself in a whisper. She had just told Luke to go, to leave, to never come back.
"Oh, dear god no!" she said as she crumbled onto the couch in sobs. She hated herself. Why did she always have to push him away? She now knew that she loved him. There was no doubt in her mind. But it was too late. Luke was gone.
All of those perfect dreams could have come true if she had just forgiven him! Damn pride! She could have had that little boy that she wanted. She could have done all of those things she hadn't told Luke she wished for. She wanted to share her son's first steps with Luke. She wanted Luke to be horrified when the first word out of Jake's mouth was not Mommy or Daddy, but coffee. She wanted to tell stories to her little boy while Luke watched silently from the doorway. She had wanted to be able to bring her son to preschool with Luke. She wanted all of these things, but she had just demolished any hope for them in one quick moment. Gone. Luke. Memories. Future. All of them were gone. And it was her fault this time.
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Luke had never felt so lost. So unsure. So miserable. Why had she told him to leave? Did she not love him? And then it struck him: she didn't. she didn't love him. She hated him so much that she had pushed him out of his son's life. God! Why did she hate him so much?
When he arrived at the inn, he walked up to the front door. His face was still showing the stunned feeling he had felt 10 minutes earlier at Lorelai's house. Now he just felt sad, depressed, like he had nothing to live for. He walked through the entrance and up to the front desk. He was leaving. He couldn't take anymore disappointment. He had to leave this town that was only a memory of the fact that he was the one that started everything. He had broken up with her in the first place. He had moved. He had not come back or shown any sign that he ever would. It was his fault.
"Leaving so soon?" Michel asked in a somewhat satisfied tone. He just wanted this untidy man out of the inn and away so Lorelai could stop avoiding her job.
Luke just shot Michel a glare and then turned around to go get his things. At that moment he almost knocked Sookie over. She had spotted him and needed to talk to him and so she had been standing there long enough to know that he was planning to leave early.
"Oh, god Sookie!" he said as he stumbled backwards.
"Luke what are you doing?" she asked.
"What? Oh, I'm leaving." He said as he went to pass her.
"What? Why?" she asked knowing Luke was a private man but sometimes, just like Lorelai, needed to talk to someone.
"There is no reason to stay, that's why. I helped Liz and TJ with the repairs and now I am done." He said as he walked towards the stairs.
"Luke! What about Lorelai?" she asked as she trailed after him.
"Lorelai does not want me here. End of story." He said as he walked up the stairs towards his room. Lucky number 7; that was his room number.
"What are you talking about? She still loves you Luke!" she yelled trying to keep up with him as he walked up the stairs. At that he turned around.
"No Sookie. I am not having this conversation with you. If you want to know how she really feels, then you go ask her! Not me! I am done!" he practically yelled this as he ran up the stairs. Sookie stopped for a moment and then ran after him again. By the time she reached him he was already opening the door to his room.
"Luke! I don't care whose friend I am right now, that doesn't make what I said any less true." She said chasing him through the door. Luke turned around and looked at her.
"Sookie! Stop! She said she didn't want me here. She said to leave. Forever! Now I am just abiding by her wishes. Now if you don't mind, I have to pack!" he yelled as he turned towards the bed which already had his things piled on it.
"Luke! Tell me, since when has Lorelai ever realized what she wanted before it is too late?" she asked with sincerity in her voice. Luke turned to look at Sookie. He had a stunned look on her face. "Since when does she realize that the only way to be happy is to let someone in?" she asked.
"Sookie what are you talking about?" he asked with a puzzled look on his face.
"Luke for many years I have watched Lorelai struggle with her relationships and she has always turned to you. You have always been a main factor in her life. She told me how you built her a chuppah and then she realized that max wasn't the one. She told me how you were the one who taught her how to fish, even though it was all for the sake of a date she was having with another man." she said staring at his eyes. He looked stunned that she knew all of this.
"Luke, she said she doesn't want you around because she is afraid you will hurt her again. Like you did the first time a year ago, and like you did yesterday." She said. "Luke, she loves you, I can see it in her eyes every time she sees a picture of you two, and even when she looks at Jake. She sees you in him and that makes her think of you. She knows she will never be able to fully shut you out of Jake's or her lives, but god knows she will try if she thinks it will protect her from getting hurt again. Luke, don't leave. Don't give up on her. Stay and work this out. If not for you sake, then for your son's, you know, the little baby that is stuck in the middle of all of this?" she said. Luke immediately realized that Sookie was absolutely right. Lorelai did love him, but she was just too afraid that he would hurt her again; which was his fault, once again.
"Uh…Sookie, I…uh, have to go." He said as he rushed passed her and out the door; he had something he needed to get.
Luke was always sure about what he was going to do and this time was nothing different. But he was the only one. Sookie didn't know what Luke was in such a rush to do but she had some clue. The question you should be asking yourself is: is he coming or going?
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"Mom! where are you?" Rory yelled as she opened the front door. "Mom? I forgot my book bag here and I need it for my next class." She yelled again. When she got no response she yelled again, "MOM!" she frantically ran through the house looking for her mother. "MOM!"
She ran to her mother's bedroom door and pushed it open. Her mother was standing over the crib watching Jake play. When she heard the door open she turned around to see Rory standing there looking shocked. She quickly wiped away the tears that had been lingering on her face.
"Mom, what happened?" Rory said taking a step towards her mother.
"Shhhhhh! I don't want to get Jake upset again." Was Lorelai response.
"Again? How about we go downstairs and you tell me what happened." Rory said sympathetically. She had no idea what had happened but she knew it had to be something big for her mother to cry like this. The last time she cried like this was when Luke broke up with her. Luke! It finally hit her. He must have been a part of this. It must have something to do with him.
Lorelai nodded, took one last look at her little Luke that was contently playing with a toy in his crib. She then turned around and followed Rory out of the room.
"Mom, what happened?" Rory asked as Lorelai sat down on the couch. Rory decided to remain standing.
"It's my fault this time!" Lorelai said as tears started to pour out of her eyes. "I pushed him away this time!" Lorelai said through the sobs.
"Who? Mom, who did you push away? Was it Luke?" she asked sitting down next to her mother. Lorelai's only response was to nod her head.
"How did you push him away?" Rory asked.
"I…I uh…I told him to leave. I told him to leave and not come back." She said wiping her tears.
"Oh, mom he will come back." Rory said as she pulled her mother in for a hug.
"No he won't Rory! I told him that it was his fault that all of this happened. I told him that me and Jake don't need him! I lied Rory! I need him more than any other person on earth and I told him to leave! God! I am such a screw up!" she yelled at herself.
"Mom you are not a screw up! Just look at me! Look at your beautiful inn that you own! Look at Jake!" she said trying to cheer her mother up.
"The town, Luke." she said. Rory looked at her mother like she was crazy.
"What?" Rory asked.
"The whole town helped with you, and Luke…Luke helped with the inn. And so did Sookie!" she said.
"Well that was just for the first two. What about Jake, who helped you there?" Rory asked. Lorelai thought about it but couldn't find an answer for that question.
"See mom. You are not a screw up. And plus, Luke would never leave you! He is just not one to give up unless he feels that he has a better shot at being happy somewhere else!" Rory said. She still did not realize how bad the fight had been. She still did not realize that Luke did see leaving as the better option. She didn't realize how complicated her mother's life was.
"But he does Rory. He does have a better shot at happiness if he leaves! I have caused him as much pain and hurt as he did me a year ago!" she said as she started to sob again.
Rory pulled her mother in for another hug, only this one lasted about 30 minutes. Just as Lorelai was starting to calm down, there was whining heard from the bedroom.
"Uh, hun, I should probably go get him. Just hungry I bet." She said pulling away from Rory's embrace and standing up. "You should probably go too. You have that paper you said you have to finish tonight." She said trying to get Rory to leave. She just need some time. If Rory stayed then she would be watching Lorelai's every move. And right now all Lorelai needed was some peace and privacy.
"Oh, I can stay. I can get the paper done tomorrow. I just wanted it done by tonight." Rory said. She knew she should stay for her mother.
"No, you go. I have everything I need here. And plus you can spend your free time with that man of yours." She said giggling at the last part.
"You sure?" Rory asked.
"Yep! Sure as sure can be!" Lorelai said. JUST GO! Lorelai cried inside.
"Ok. But call me if you need anything. Ok?" Rory said as she got up from the couch and grabbed her bag and coat near the door.
"Ok." Lorelai said. "I really have to get him, so…bye." Lorelai said as she made her way to the stairs. Jake could still be heard crying.
"Bye." Rory shouted so her mother could hear her as she walked out the front door.
Lorelai then made her way up the stairs to her son. And life goes on; she thought to herself and then sighed.
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hey doodle people! i have always wanted to call you guys that! i am so sorry to all you people who expected luke and lorelai to get back together. i know i have ended this chapter in a way that disappoints you. Don't worry! Just one more chapter. i would also like to bring up the topic of a sequel. if you would like one or would like me to continue at the end of chapter 11, please just tell me. if i get enough people wanting a sequel or a continuence(sp) then i will write one.
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