Ya know I got a review from someone asking me where the joy in writing went of course this was a flame directed towards me and I would like to say that the joy of writing went away when you decided to write your 'constructive criticism' and as for my spelling and grammar my spell check is broken and it is kind of hard to catch every mistake. That being said have a nice day.
Ashley and John got home Talon was with John's mother for the night he thought it would be best if they had some stress free time to deal with what they just found out.
"I'm going to call Jeff" Ashley said
"Yeah sure" John replied resting his head on the back of the couch he was sitting on.
John waited till he heard Ashley going up the stairs before he started to cry he knew how sick she really was and to tell the truth it scared the hell out of him but he needed to be strong for her. He was afraid she'd try to kill herself again or that she would get so bad they would have to put her in the hospital how could he explain that to their son. He went to their bedroom a while later to find her sitting on their bed listening to a son she had her eyes closed but she wasn't asleep.
"What are you listening to?" he asked
"Simple Plan's Untitled" she replied with her eyes still closed.
"So how is Jeff and everyone?" John asked
"Fine worried about me but they are ok" she said
"You are going to be fine, you are so strong you can beat this too" John told her
"But what if that doesn't happen and nothing helps and I get so bad that I can't be in the same room with people?" she asked
"Let's not think like that" he said
"John if you know want to run I don't blame you" she said
"Well that's nice to know but I ain't going anywhere" he said
"Man my life can't ever just be normal" she said
"Normal is overrated" he said "so when are you going back to school?"
"I have 4 days left" she replied
"Well I have a few days off why don't me and Talon go with you I want to meet your new friends" he suggested
"So now you want to go with me so you can make sure I don't go off the deep end" she said getting mad "don't bother I can take care of myself"
"Nah baby it ain't like that I want to meet your friends that's all I know you can take care of ya self" he said defensively
"Sorry I know you are trying to help but I don't want to be pitied" she said
"This is me when was the last time I pitied you?" he asked
"Yeah that is true you told me to suck it up when I had strep a few months back" she said
"So are you going to let me go?" he asked
"Like I really had a choice" she replied
"I love you ma" he said
"I love you too"
flashback
"Jeff hey it's Ashley"
"Hi what's up?" he asked
"Jeff remember when I was 10 and they told me I was a manic depressive?" Ashley asked
"Yeah but I thought you grew out of that" he replied
"I did but it's back they think finding out about Chris and Deanna's death has triggered it again" she said sadly "Jeff I need you to tell me I'm not crazy if you tell me I'm not I'll believe you"
"Honey you are not crazy and don't even think you are depression is a sickness you will get better" he said
"I'm afraid Jeff" she said
"Don't be you have so much support around you" he said
"I don't want anyone to know I don't want to see the looks" she said
"You watch General Hospital right?" Jeff asked
"Yeah but I don't see how that it matters if I do or I don't" she replied
"Well you know the guy who plays Sonny?" Jeff asked
"Yeah Maurice Benard" she said
"He is a manic depressive too" Jeff said
"Um yeah and you know this how?" she asked
"I doesn't matter how I know all that matters is that there are people out there who are just like you and they don't let this get to them" Jeff said
"Thank you Jeff you made me feel a lot better"
"No problem Shorty" he said
"Luv you Jeff"
"Luv you too Shorty but I have to go Jen is calling me" he said
"Ok tell your girlfriend I said hi" she replied
"Will do bye and remember you are no crazier than I am" he said
"Oh yeah that makes me feel so much better" she said before he hung up.