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Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
No I can't breathe, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Kagome knocked on the door and waited patiently for a minute. Before it opened to reveal a little girl, who was wearing a purple sleeveless dress with a small pocket in the front. She looked at Kagome with a wide smile, showing her missing tooth in the front. Her sandy brown hair was done into a sloppy two ponytails, Kagome was guessing that she did it cause her father didn't know shit when it came to doing girls hair.
"Kagome, you came to visit me?" the little girl asked running up her, hugging her legs. Kagome kneed down to her eye level and hugged her.
"Sorry Rin, I came to see your daddy" Kagome said sadly. She hated to disappoint Rin, she was such a cheerful kid that her face she never have a look of sadness on there.
"Oh, Okay Kagome" she said disappointedly
"But I promise that the next time that I visit I will pick flowers with you" Kagome promised. She was pleased to see that Rin's disappointed look was replaced with a happy one.
'Boy this kid can change emotions' Kagome thought as she stood up and took Rin by the hand.
"Okay Kagome! Let me show you were daddy is" Rin exclaimed.
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
(Kagome's P.O.V)
Rin lead me down the white carpeted hallway, passing several rooms as we walked. As many times that I have been here, I knew this whole place like the back on my hand. Like the upper level were Sesshomaru, Rin and 5 guestrooms and there were 4 bathrooms. The lower level has 6 bedrooms, 5 bathrooms, Living Room, Kitchen, Library, Sesshomaru's office, a play room for Rin, and last but not least me favorite the gym. The last time that I was here I lost 4 pound on the new addition treadmill that Sesshomau had just bought. Don't worry I have gotten lost so many times.
With this big of a house you might wonder, who keeps it clean? And I can tell you this it is not the mother. She died giving birth to Rin and as for Sesshomaru; he is still dealing with it one day at a time. But as for who cleans the house it would be some asshole named Jaken that can't remember to call me by my name instead of human. That reminds me I have to get that old fart when he comes to clean tomorrow. After walking down about two more hallways, Rin let go of my hand.
"Okay, Kagome I'll see you later" Rin said and I nod my head, watching her go down the hallway that we just went down and turning a left. My guess she was going to her playroom. I turn my attention back in front of me and I walk up to the oak double doors. I knock twice and wait for him to signal me in. I've had to wait a lot trying to get my way into this house. Just playing I don't mind…. it's cool.
"Come in" he yells through the door.
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewed together but so broken up inside
No I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
(Normal P.O.V)
Opening the door Kagome popped her head in seeing Sesshomaru sitting at his desk looking over somewhat she guessed to be important papers. His silver hair was out of it's usual low pony tail and a single strand fell out of place and landed in his hand that was resting on the table. His golden eyes moved for the paper work and rested on her.
"Kagome. I was not expecting you. Are you alright?" he asked, from the look on Kagome's face he could tell that she was crying or something. Which she was?
"No" Kagome whispered in a soft voice as she stepped inside the office and closed the door with a soft click. Kagome lowered her head so that her bangs hid her eyes, the one thing that showed everything that she was feeling.
"It's about your half brother, Inuyasha" Kagome spat of his name like it was poison. Sesshomaru was surprised never have he heard her say his name like that. Something must be wrong. He was willing to DO anything to make her feel better. He liked her ever since he knew her, which was, before he met his fucked up brother. But stood aside and became her friend that she could talk to.
"Kagome sit down and tell me what happened" Sesshomaru said as he pushed the papers aside and watched as Kagome slowly make her way to the leather sit that was in front of his desk.
Kagome took a deep breath and let it go slowly.
"Well it started when Inuyasha's ex-girlfriend called, Kikyou" Kagome started. Sesshomaru sat there and listened to Kagome as she told her story and was mad at Inuyasha for doing what he did to Kagome. She was a nice, beautiful woman that didn't need Inuyasha's shit. How many times did she call him late at night scared as shit when Inuyasha didn't come home, and where she lived it was a bad neighborhood, where you could get robbed, killed, rapped anything. He had been meaning to get her to move in with him and leave Inuyasha there and let him rot. But he knew that she would decline and say that she can't leave Inuyasha….but I guess now she would.
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
By the time that Kagome finished telling him what happened, she was crying. Getting the best of him, Sesshomaru rushed out of his sit and grabbed her by her shoulders and hugged her in a big hug. He felt her return the hug and he also felt his 200-dollar shirt getting wet to, but right now money didn't matter to him, what mattered was getting Kagome to be alright.
"Sesshou, he hurt me so bad, you know" she said in a watery voice. "I thought that he would wait until we got married but was the right thing to ask him? Ask him to hold out and for one year?" she questioned herself. "Maybe if I told him that I would have sex with him, maybe he would still be around!"
He had had enough her she was blaming herself over something that asshole placed upon him. He placed his big warm hands and cupped her face, bringing it only a few inches away from his.
'Why is she doing this to herself?' he wondered
Swallow me then spit me out
For hated you I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
Though I don't cry on the out side anymore
Anymore
"Kagome don't blame yourself over his mistakes. He chose what he wanted to do because he couldn't hold out, but you stuck to what you said you wanted to do. You want to share that intimacy with someone you love and I….I respect that about you" Sesshomaru watched as Kagome looked at him, searching to see what he said was true.
'what is he trying to say' Kagome thought as she continued to look at his luring golden eyes, those where his best assets besides his body then that would have been it.
"Kagome, I know that this might not be the right time but I will tell you this you might have lost the one that you love, but there are others that love you more." With that said he let her go and took at least one step back so that she can get a breather. Or so that she wouldn't tell her that he is desperately in love with her.
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Kagome wiped her tears away and looked a Sesshomaru giving him a big smile that made his heart warm up inside. "Thanks Sesshy, I needed that. But I was wondering since I don't have a place to stay..I-" she was interrupted when he held up a hand to stop her.
"Don't said another word you are welcome in my home and can stay as long as you like" he said.
"THANK YOU SESSHOMARU" Kagome screamed excitedly. She ran and jumped on Sesshomaru making him and her fall down with her of course on top of him. Just when they were about to get off each other and Kagome blushing like a tomato and saying sorry, Rin came bursting through the doors.
"Hey what's going on in here I heard screaming" That's when she looked at the fallen couple and smirked. "Is Kagome going to be my new mommy daddy?"
Sesshomaru and Kagome blushed at that innocent comment and quickly got off of each other, saying sorry to each other, ignoring her question. All thewhile Rin kept smiling, knowing that her daddy really did like Kagome and the same wentfor her. They were just stupid to notice. 'Grown ups' she thought as she closed the door and going back to her playroom.
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
(Space)
Opening his golden eyes he looked around the darkened room. He couldn't hear anything, but he could hear his breathing and his heartbeat that was about it. But wasn't there suppose to be another one? 'Kagome' he thought. That's when he remembered whet he did earlier today. Nope Kagome's gone and was never coming back, not what he did to her.
'But I have Kikyou' he thought.
He touched the space when she should have been but it was empty and cold. He signed. What has he done?
He lost the woman that he has ever loved.
O.OI am happy I wrote 4 to 5 pages! I know that you guys want me to write a chapter that is long but I am trying and so far I can only do 4 to 5 so can you please just give me some time to try and make one. It will take some time. Oh and Rin can speak good English. Please R&R
P.S. i would like to thank the people that reviewed my story and i am happy that you liked it, i guess you guys are the only reason why i don't stop the story. BUT i like it so much that i am going to continue it.
Sorry for grammar!
Thankx
Luvs to all
SparklingSilverTearDrop
Song: Behind these Hazel eyes by: Kelly Clarkson
Originally written: Saturday, July 09, 2005. 3:07am
Kira: Hi i'm SparklingSilverTearDrop's cousin and i just wanted to tell you that you should review cause you might not know what's going to happen in the next chapter...but wait a second i do and i can tell you!
SparklingSilverTearDrop: (yells from the closet) KIRA UNTIE ME NOW!
Kira: (giggles) sorry me no speak no english come again?
SparklingSilverTearDrop: you will pay
Kira: anyway just wanted you to know that the next chappie will be an Inu and Kikyo scene and Kikyou i---
(CRASH)
Kira: GAH SHE ESCAPED
SparklingSilverTearDrop: you have 10 seconds
Kira: damn..i knew i shouldn't have used duck tape...anyway review and know what's gonna happen next.
SparklingSilverTearDrop: (sceams) 10
Kira: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH