After Ashley's little encounter with John she went back to her locker room and packed up. Frankie was content watching her from his carrier which was ok with her because it gave her more time to think. Was she favoring one child over her other three was she really that much like Deanna? No she loved all of her children but that thought wouldn't leave her alone. Ashley took a deep breath trying to regulate her emotions. The door to her locker room slammed open making both Ashley and Frankie jump.
"Ashley Michelle I am so pissed at you right now!"
"Nice to see you too Trish" Ashley said as as she went over to pick up a whimpering Frankie.
"Está bien a bebé no llora"Ashley whispered. (It's alright baby don't cry)
"I am so confused right now"Trish said.
"Well if you'd stop talking so god dam loud then maybe I could get him to calm down and then I could explain things" Ashley said.
"Fine go right ahead" Trish said.
Trish wasn't sure if she wanted to start crying and hug Ashley till she couldn't breath or to strangle her where she stood. Although the first option was the more humane thing to do the second option would make her feel so much better. She watched as Ashley rocked the baby in her arms whispering comforting words in Spanish to him. He had finally fallen asleep when Ashley put him back into his baby seat.
"What do you want to know?" Ashley asked. Her voice was broken and it hurt to speak she didn't want to but she knew Trish deserved an explanation just like everyone else did. She just wasn't sure what it was yet.
"Why did you leave and how come you never called, we were worried sick not knowing where you were" Trish said.
"I left because I had to and I couldn't call because it hurt too badly" Ashley replied quietly.
"That is bull shit and you know it" Trish said.
Ashley wished John was here right now he wouldn't have let Trish talk to her like that all she wanted to do was feel safe in his arms but that wasn't going to happen she needed to suck it up and be an adult.
"Think what you want it doesn't matter anymore I don't care" Ashley said. She stood up and walked to the other side of the room. Leaning with her head against a wall her body shook she was crying silently. Trish could see how broken Ashley was and went to put her arms around her. Ashley didn't have the strength to fight the embrace truth be told she didn't want to either.
"I just want everything to be the way the were" Ashley said still crying.
"I know you do sweetie" Trish said rubbing her back.
"John hates me and that is what hurts the most" she said.
"What did you expect?" Trish asked.
"Not that I knew he would be mad but to call me a heartless bitch and then accuse me of sleeping around that hurts" Ashley said. She pulled away from Trish and wiped her eyes.
"Ok now who's the baby?" Trish asked.
"His name is Frankie and he's my son" Ashley said.
"Confused again" Trish said.
"His father was a good friend of mine and he and his wife wanted a baby so I agreed to be a surrogate but then Frankie and Dani died and Little Frankie was willed to me because I am the only biological family he has" Ashley said.
"Damn girl your life just keeps getting more complicated doesn't it" Trish said.
"That is an understatement" Ashley said. "so are we cool?"
"Yeah but John isn't going to be as easy as I am and neither is your father, you hurt those two the most" Trish replied.
"I know and I'm going over to speak with my dad tomorrow" Ashley said.
"Well I'll leave you to your thoughts" Trish said.
"Ok and kiss those boys of your for me" Ashley said.
"I will" Trish said.
Ashley had a lot to think about and it wasn't going to be fun but life wasn't usually that way anyways. She convinced Marissa to drive to the hotel because she was too tired to drive. She pulled out her portable DVD player and popped in her favorite movie The Bodyguard. She watched as the lives of Frank Farmer and Rachel Marron unfold she wished life was like a movie, you could fast forward the bad parts and only see the good. She fell asleep watching that movie and all she could think of was John.
A/N: Sucks to be Ashley right about now doesn't it but don't worry it'll get better and don't hate Ashley she's only human.