Chapter 8

Hiya! Another chapter, I hope it's good. =)

            Hiei continued down the street.  It was still early in the morning and he could feel things stir around him.  The birds sang in their treetops, the fresh scent of newly cut grass drifted in and out of his senses, moisture lingered in the chilled air, all made the demon feel more alive.  Quickening his pace, Hiei wondered what Kurama was up to these days. 

            It was true that they've known each other for a while, but they were never really close.  Hiei didn't allow their relationship to go a bit beyond simple friendship.  He was too busy playing the tough guy, the cold, I don't need anybody act, to notice Kurama's feelings for him.  And when he did, he shoved it away, burying them into the deepest corner of his mind.  So long, he had tried to forget about them, but he couldn't.  Because in a way that Hiei will in no way admit, he liked Kurama too, a lot.   

            Hiei sighed, remembering the times that they had together, the times they spent making adventures and getting themselves into danger.  Those were the days that he had the most fun, and happiest moments in his life were those days, because Kurama was with him.  The fox demon was as sly and dangerous as himself, making them an invincible team.  No one dared bothered with them.  Hiei stared at the ground as he walked, not caring if he bumps into anyone.  A distant memory crept itself upon him again, shifting the demon into a dark mood. 

Hiei would never forget the day he made the worst mistake of his life, the only thing he regrets to this day.  Because he had hurt Kurama terribly that day. 

*Flash Back*

"Hiei, have you ever thought of what you're going to do later in life?"  Kurama leaned his chin in his hands, elbow on the table. The fox demon looked into the other's eyes. 

"Hn. I'm living my life now.  Isn't that enough."  Hiei didn't meet Kurama's eyes. 

"What about your sister?  Aren't you going to find her and tell her who you are? I think she deserves to know she has a brother."  Kurama shifted so he moved closer to Hiei, still looking at the boy. 

"I'll find her, and watch over her."  Hiei didn't like the way the conversation was going. 

"But what about you?  Don't you think about yourself?  Wouldn't you like a family, with little demon Hiei's running around?" Kurama waited for an answer from the silent demon. 

Hiei's face turned into a scowl as he imagined being married to a female, not that there's anything wrong with them.  It's just weird.  It was something Hiei could never imagine himself doing.  "No." 

A soft relieved breath came from Kurama. "No girl? Then I guess, maybe a guy, Hiei?"  Kurama didn't know if this was the right way to approach Hiei about this delicate subject.  He was treading on dangerous grounds, and he knew it. 

"Kurama.  Why would you care?" Hiei now made it an effort not to look into those green eyes. 

Kurama quickly took Hiei's hands into his own.  Not realizing what he had done, Kurama continued speaking, noting the slight tone of hurt in Hiei's voice.  "Because I'm worried about you.  I spend everyday thinking about how much I need you in my life, Hiei.  You're like a drug, the more I see you, the more I need you in order for me to live.  Hiei, these feelings, they're so intense. I don't know what it is." Kurama was slightly confused.  "I, I think, I'm in love with you."

A wide-eyed Hiei sat there in shock.  It wasn't shock that Kurama loved him, but that he had actually said it.  Looking at Kurama, Hiei couldn't help but return the feeling he had forced himself to bury.  It came like a flood, washing over him like a thousand tingling waves that spread warmth everywhere.  He tried to contain it, even fought it, but all the walls he had built for years crumbled as Kurama's lips embraced his own.

Enveloped in Kurama's arms, Hiei felt as light as a feather.  Any moment, he was going to soar to heaven with this boy.  The innocent kiss turned into a spar of hot tongues.  Sampling and taking, giving and receiving, Hiei couldn't get enough of Kurama.  They were both out of breath, but that did not mean they were going to stop anytime soon. 

A light caress across Hiei's thighs brought him back to reality.  He broke the kiss, staring into Kurama's watery eyes.  He wanted him, so badly.  Kurama tugged on his shirt, pointing to the bed.  Soon, they were both there, wrestling for dominance.  Clothes flew everywhere, and elicited cries of pleasure resonated throughout the room.

Kurama took the blanket and covered himself and the sleeping Hiei with it.  Turning off the light, he gave the sleeping demon one last kiss on the forehead and fell asleep. 

It was a one-time thing.  Once.  Hiei never regretted it.  To him, it was paradise to be with Kurama, in a way, it was the best thing that had happened to him.  Loved, Hiei both adored and loathed it.  It was a foreign thing, unfamiliar and baffling to the small demon.  

Hiei woke up first.  Basking in a warm haze, he turned and saw Kurama.  His breath caught in his throat as he saw his partner for the very first time, vulnerable and innocent.  This was his true form. 

But Hiei couldn't forget his previous vows to never fall in love.  Love made you weak and at risk.  It opens a whole new portal to danger.  Hiei was afraid of it, of what it would do to him if he let himself get involved with Kurama.  His reputation and way of life was at jeopardy. 

After thinking a long time, Hiei decided he just couldn't love.  His doubts about himself and about Kurama ended their relationship before it even had a chance to start.  He gently woke Kurama up.  Rubbing his eyes to chase away the last lingering seconds of sleep, Kurama wasn't at all prepared for the news. 

"Kurama. I know you think you love me, but you don't.  I don't love you.  This, is just a one-time thing ok? Please understand, I can't have a relationship with you right now, I don't love you enough. I hope you didn't read too much into last night, it was only lust.  I'm really sorry to tell you this.  I hope our partnership doesn't suffer from this."  Refusing to look into Kurama's eyes, Hiei quickly dressed and left the room before droplets of tears made its way down his cheeks.  That was hard.  He ran as an unbearable pain threatened to tear him apart.    

Kurama was numb.  He didn't know what to say.  His heart had been ripped out and stomped on.  At the moment, he couldn't face this pain, this horrible flaming agony and grief sweeping over him, eating him alive.  But he knew it was over, Hiei didn't want him, he felt like a fool for expressing his feelings.  Kurama knew there was no way he could cope with seeing Hiei everyday.  Without a single word, he left. 

Of course, Kurama came back after two months, as if nothing happened.  His attitude was cold and heartless towards Hiei.  Hiei wondered where he went and if he still had feelings for him.   

*End Flash Back*

Hiei came upon Kurama's front door.  He was worried about Kurama and Yusuke.  The mission they were on wasn't as dangerous as his own, but something terrible might've happened to them.  If something happened to you, Kurama… Hiei thought worriedly.  He had to tell Kurama that he loved him after all.  Hand about to ring the doorbell, Hiei dodged just as the door suddenly opened.  A redhead and a dark haired boy stumbled through the small frame of the door.  The two figures were entangled in each other's arms, lips locked in a passionate kiss.  Hiei's face contorted in shock and disbelief.  Jealousy.  Kurama's hands were on Yusuke's ass, giving it a gentle squeeze before looking forward into the street.  Yusuke slipped his arms around the other boy. 

Eyes lit up in astonishment as Hiei's dark eyes met clear green ones.  Kurama froze, his brain grasping the situation.  The person he had once loved so dearly, the one whom he had spent countless days pining over, the one he had wanted for so long, stood face to face, glaring at him and his current lover.  No matter what he told himself, Kurama knew he still loved Hiei, but he loved Yusuke too.  And the look on Hiei's face right now told Kurama that the demon had lied when he said he felt nothing for him. 

"Kurama? What's wrong?"  Yusuke's concerned voice broke the two out of the trance. 

Kurama shook his head and looked at Hiei.  "Hiei.  How was your mission? You seem well."

"Yes, so do you."  Hiei turned around swiftly.  "We must report back to Koenma." 

Kurama sighed as Hiei pretended he saw nothing.  His thoughts keep lingering back to Hiei and Yusuke.  He loved them both so much.  The only reason he was able to chose Yusuke over Hiei was because he thought Hiei had no feelings for him, therefore, he didn't stand a chance.  But now, it seems that things had become quite complicated.  How can he tell Yusuke without breaking his fragile human heart? 

I dunno if this makes sense at all so please review and tell me.  If it's really that bad, meaning it doesn't go with the story, tell me and I'll probably rewrite it.  Thanks.