It's horrible! The day after my split dream I wrote about another one happened except this time it was all bad! I dreamed there were rats in my bed but the there are only 2 reasons I was really scarred. Reason #1: In the dream I was sleeping in my bed so everything looked normal and real. Reason #2: Right before I woke up I thought there was a rat under the covers so I went to check and I felt something against my stomach and it was moving/vibrating. And nothing was really there, thank god. That's what woke me up and if I hadn't been so tired (It was 4:18 a.m.) and if my throat hadn't been so dry I would have screamed. I mean I did scream but no one heard it for the same reasons above. And then I dreamed my grandpa died. That freaked me out too. –Her dreams have a habit of coming true. She dreamed of her report card and it was right. She dreamed of the tsunami before it happened. And then there was another one but I can't remember it. - Neither can I. Opps I'm rambling. Apologies friend, here is the disclaimer.
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Sesshoumaru followed Sango back to the camp. It was a silent going back there; she tried to walk completely beside him. Matching his long strides perfectly. Inuyasha didn't come with them. He was busy thinking. (Can't do two things at once, god forbid. –I'm starting to like this side of you. I'm finally rubbing off on you. - Oh no!)
As soon as they got to the camp that was reorganized every other day Sango went straight to her star map. She was working on it quickly, not thinking about what she was doing, just doing it.
The demon lord watched for awhile and then finally deciding he couldn't just watch her ruin the thing he tried stop her. Gently he put his hand on her shoulder stopping her trail of curses for stabbing herself with the needle.
He pulled away the large piece of cloth and starred at it. She watched him feeling that knot in her stomach again. But this time he wasn't leaving, he was right there in front of her. Why did he seem so distant?
She starred as he sat down next to her and took the needle from her. Biting her lip she tried not to say anything as he undid what she had just done. When he had finished he gave both star map and needle to her again.
He wasn't talking but she knew he was telling her to try again. His action always spoke louder then any of his words ever could. "Never do anything while not in your right mind, you will learn to regret it." His eyes told her.
She could feel his body; he was so close to her. And as she tried again under his watchful eye she concentrated on the steady beat of his heart that she could suddenly hear above everything else in the world.
It was the most soothing sound that she had ever heard. Sango found herself existing in a place she had never known before. It was like time stood still and there was only her, Sesshoumaru, and her work. Sort of like they were existing outside of time, and even outside of reality.
She wondered if this is what it was normally like for the demon lord. 'Is this how he always feels? Like there is nothing else that matters except for the few things around you. Is this why he never feels like he needs to explain himself to anyone, even himself? I want to be here forever, with him.'
But like everything else in the real world, it had to end. She felt him slowly pulling away from her. She wanted to ask him to stay but knew that she would sound foolish to ask him to waste more of his time with her.
When he stood up, so did she. He was saying goodbye, she wanted to die. There was this feeling of utter dread. Not knowing what else to do she grabbed onto him tightly. He hesitated before wrapping his strong arms around her.
She knew that if she hung on to him for too long or seemed too dependent on him she would only be pushing him away. "Why are you so wonderful?" She asked him letting go. He titled her head upwards and kissed her on the lips. "I'm evil demon slayer, don't confuse me for 'wonderful'" he whispered.
Up until the almost fight with Inuyasha she had only heard him whisper when talking to her. It was just one thing that made her heart flutter but his answer made her confused. "Evil is in the eye of the beholder." She told quickly before the moment was lost.
There was that faint smile upon his face that she found herself turning into mush at the sight of. "Every beholder has the same concept of evil. It's just the knowledge that they might be lacking to make the resolution." He almost sounded apologetic to her.
He left on those words leaving her in wonder. It was at this moment Sango wondered about his past, what had he done in the first place to have everyone afraid of him? What had he done to consider himself evil?
She quickly pushed those thoughts aside as Inuyasha came back. "I'm sorry." He started holding a sleeping Shippo in his arms. He placed the demon on the ground and walked over to the slayer.
"It's just that you should stay away from him. He wouldn't give a second thought about killing you after he was done 'playing' with you. I just didn't want him to hurt you." Sango just starred not saying a word, so he kept talking.
"I mean I don't even know why he's chose you but ill be damned if I let him hurt you. He hates humans and besides killing them he enjoys breaking there hearts. I've seen what he can do; I don't want you to go through that, I love you too much."
She was taken back, way back. When did this happen? When did he start to love her? "Excuse me; can you repeat that last part?" He looked a bit annoyed. "I know you heard me. I said I love you, got a problem with that?" she shook her head.
Her head hurt. 'What had he said about Sesshoumaru breaking the hearts of humans? And what could have possibly made him love me?' "When did you start feeling anything towards me besides friendship Inuyasha?"
He looked to the ground and then smiled a little. "It was when I first saw you working on that." He pointed to the star map Sesshoumaru had helped her with not too long before. "I'm not too good with this sappy stuff Sango but I just thought that you should know why I got so mad that you were with my brother. He's an evil bastered and I don't want him to chew you up and throw you away like he does everyone else."
She just nodded not saying a thing. She couldn't think of anything to say. Everything was just so weird. She felt sick and made an excuse to got o sleep next to Shippo. It was night time so Inuyasha couldn't say anything.
Sleep didn't come easily to her there were too many things on her mind. 'What other humans had Sesshoumaru destroyed by letting them love him? Is that the only reason he is so kind whit me? I'm already breaking by just the thought of it. Is that why he called himself evil? But he seemed almost remorseful; I don't think I can believe it. And why did Inuyasha have to tell me? I was dong so well, so well even if it might be a lie. I hate Inuyasha! I'll never forgive him for even thinking Sesshoumaru could be using me. His love isn't real; he's the real brother who has no heart!'
She would never say these words to anymore but she would think them until proven otherwise.
The next day Inuyasha showed Sango Miroku's body. He had held her close to him while doing so. He wanted her to cry upon seeing him; he wanted her to do something to prove she wasn't okay so he could demonstrate his worth by comforting her.
He was disappointed when he saw that the old Sango who didn't cry or do anything else that had to do with mourning was back. Sesshoumaru had gotten her when she was down; it wasn't fair, because he wanted the same.
With Inuyasha holding her so close to his body Sango only felt uncomfortable. They were burying her dead love; he was disrespecting Miroku by his actions. It was yet another reason to hate him even more on the inside.
After putting the monk in the ground Sango only wanted to get away from the half demon but he insisted on going everywhere with her just incase Sesshoumaru was there. He was driving her crazy; it was moment like these she wished that she could send him hurdling to the ground with just one word.
Finally she decided to see if she could scar him in order to leave her alone. "You Inuyasha," she started as they both sat next to each other on a log. "I think I'm gonna take a bath." She knew he was going to say it wasn't safe.
"You can't. It's not safe for you to be out there alone." "Do you never want me to bath again? Do you prefer me to smell? Or is this just a way of trying to get me to take you with me to the hot springs?"
He turned away, his face bright red. "Go take your damn bath. But I'm warning you, if you're gone to long I'm coming after you." She had a sly smile on her face. "And how long would be too long? I mean I would just die if you came by when I wasn't dressed." She used a saying that Kagome used to say, both to make Inuyasha embarrassed and to remind him that to had only been a week a girl who had loved him had died.
"An hour, and no longer." He replied not even noticing what she had implied by using Kagome's saying. He had mourned and now he was ready to get with Sango. It was the exact opposite with her. She had refused to openly mourn and would never be ready to do anything with the half demon.
When she got to the same hot springs as the day she had first saw Sesshoumaru in she looked around carefully making sure no one was around. Finally after surveying her surroundings she got undressed and stepped into the water.
It didn't surprise her in the least that he had been waiting for her there like that first day. There eyes met for a long time before either said anything. (Sango censored herself so he couldn't see anything again.)
"Is it true?" she finally asked sounding tired and worn. He took a piece of her hair that had been in her face and placed it behind her ear, kissing her neck every so gently as he did so. "Are you afraid?"
It was that same damned question. She knew she sounded irritated when answering but didn't care. "I'm not afraid. I just want the truth. Have you been meeting with me just to break my heart?"
He shook his head and Sango felt a wave of ease flow over her. "If I want to break hearts I will break them with my hands. Not with attention." She could feel her own heart beat quicken. "You hate humans…"
She started but he shook his head again. "I hate from every species, the cocky and ignorant. Your race is just filled with more then any other." He didn't hate humans. She was so confused.
This was all just so strange. And then finally everything turned black. She felt her body going under the water and then felt nothing at all.
Good or no? I can't tell. I don't know but because I get such good reviews from you people whenever I finish a chapter I get worried that I messed up big time and that you people wouldn't like the story anymore. –And that's just so horrible. - It is horrible! I mean I have no life, this is pretty much all I do! –Wow, that's sad. - Shut up, I said pretty much, I do other stuff too, just this the most.