Soon the month of February was only a memory as was March. James withdrew deeper and deeper into himself. Refusing to talk to anyone except his brother. Plus he avoided Hermione like a plague. He didn't eat with the other students. He had Dobby bring him a small dinner every night. He refused to eat breakfast or lunch. He was beginning to look sick. His eyes were sunken and his skin pale and clammy. His grades were below average in every one of his classes. He wasn't a very happy boy. Not since he received an owl from his Uncle saying that nothing could be done about their situation. He tore the letter up before Luke could even read it.

At this moment in time James was sitting up in the Astronomy tower like he did every night. He wasn't able to sleep. Nightmares plagued his mind as soon as his eyes closed. On a good night he might be able to get an hour of sleep. Other nights he went without. He stares up at the stars, tears in his eyes. His brother was drifting further and further away from him. Luke had made friends. He even excelled in all his classes. Luke was popular unlike James who had no friends. He didn't realize all of this until an incident that happened, earlier, during class. It was Potions. They had been asked to pair off. Luke was always his partner but he did something that made James's heart break. He paired up with one of his friends, leaving James by himself. He didn't even bother to find a partner. He promptly got up and left, slamming the door behind him. He had been in the Astronomy tower ever since.

Lupin stands outside the Astronomy tower staring at the closed door. He knew James often found refuge in the dark tower. But Dumbledore had sent him to retrieve the boy. He opens the door and slips in as quietly as possible. He stays away from the boy just watching him.

James tears his eyes away from the stars when he heard the door being opened. He looks down at his hands. "I know your there, werewolf. Don't bother to try and hide. I supposed your to retrieve me? Typical." He stands and brushes his all black clothing off. His cloak was nowhere to be seen. He was only wearing muggle clothing.

Remus eyes the boy and steps out of the shadows. "Professor Dumbledore wishes to speak to you." His voice his quiet. "Your brother is worried about you, James."

James snorts. "I have no brother." He says with bitterness in his voice. He walks to the edge of the tower and looks down to the ground. He could jump. It would solve all his problems.

Lupin takes a step forward. "Don't do anything stupid, James. There is nothing wrong that can't be worked out."

James looks over his shoulder at his former favorite teacher. "You don't understand. I thought Luke understood. But he abandoned me for...friendship." He spits the last part of the sentence out like it was poison. "I never wanted to be here. I was happy living my life as a muggle." He looks back down to the ground. He had tried jumping a few weeks ago. But there was some sort of spell that made it impossible. He studied the spell and finally found a way through it.

Lupin watches the boy. He looked sick. "James. Your brother just started to fit in. You could too, you know? It's not to late."

James lets out a bitter laugh. "Everyone in this bloody school hates me. I see the looks that the other students give me. I hear them whisper. I even see the hatred in the teachers eyes. Why should they have to teach someone as unworthy as me?"

Lupin looks at the boy in surprise. He knew that the teachers disliked him. He was very observant to catch something like that. "I don't hate you, James."

James spins around to face Remus. "You don't hate me because I remind you of someone who was dear to you. Another student. Or how about your two best friends who are now dead? I don't want you bloody pity. I want to be left alone! Why can't anybody understand that?"

Remus blinks at the boy. James knew a lot about him and it kinda creeped him out. "How do you know about them?" His voice is quiet.

James hops up on the edge of the tower and turns towards Lupin. "I know all about the anti-jump spell that is around this tower. I also know the counter spell to it. It all ends tonight. My pain. My agony. My betrayal. It all ends tonight." He mutters a spell under his breath. He smirks as he takes a step back and off the tower. He begins to fall.

Lupin runs up to grab James but he is a second to late. He watches the boy begin to fall. He pulls out his wand and tries to stop him but all his spells bounce off him. He growls and looks around. He mutters the restoring spell and James lands softly on the ground instead of hitting it hard. He then rushes down the stairs and outside.

James closes his eyes. He couldn't even escape his pain. They had even taken that away from him. His heart ached. He sits up slowly and glares at Lupin who from a door in the side of the tower. "How dare you?" His voice is dangerously low.

"James. What were you thinking?" A figure steps out of the shadows. It turns out to be Luke. "You tried to kill yourself?"

James glares at Luke. "Why isn't it the snake in disguise. You had me fooled for so long. Once a snake always a snake. Wait until all your little friends find out who you really are."

Lupin stops. The two boys were having a heated argument. It was something they needed to work out.

Luke glares back. "You wouldn't dare. You would dare tell them who I really am. Your being selfish, James. You could have made friends. But you're too busy being bitter. What would mom and dad say?"

James seems to fill with rage. "My parents were killed when I was a baby! And your parents were nothing but worthless death eaters! I'm tired of all of this. I just want Voldemort to come and end it. One has to die so the other can live. I'm already slowly dying. What would it matter if he came and finished me in?"

Luke looks at his brother in shock. "James. You don't know what your saying. I'm your brother. You twin. Remember. We have been through a lot together."

James snorts. "It was all a lie. Who was I kidding? Being friends with you was a mistake." He turns and flees into the castle where he heads for Dumbledore's office.

Luke doesn't bother to go after him. He looks up at Professor Lupin. "I'm sorry. We've lost him to bitterness and hatred which consumes his soul." He also heads inside.

Lupin just stands there. They weren't really brothers. But why all the lies? He shakes his head and follows the boys inside.