"Yeah," I frowned, paddling the canoe across the large lake watching as my sister flirted with the two young men. I'm not sure if she was flirting with them, I could barely make out them from my spot in the canoe but I could hear. I heard her laughing; calling out their names and much to my relief, Joe and Mimi joined them. That made me feel much better. Then I notice a sudden silence and I looked over at the usually talkative Jun. She was lost in her own world, her elbow on the edge of the boat, her hand under her chin. The light gave her a flawless appearance and if I squinted and looked crosseyed, she didn't look half-bad. The breeze caught her short hair in a lazy dance; there was a small curve of a smile playing on her lips. I glanced over my shoulder and caught sight of her view. Matt.
Matt and Sora had took their walk around the lake and found a fishing ramp which they sat on. Sora leaned against Matt's body, his arms wrapped around her in a tight embrace. They weren't talking but Sora had told me that there was something special in their relationship and words didn't bring them closer to each other, but silence made them inseparable. How sappy is that! Silence, my worse nightmare!
"She's never going to break up with him," I said carefully, still paddling the damn canoe.
"I know…" She gave a sigh and leaned against the back of the canoe, her body stretched out before in an innocent way. Her figure was not as bad as I thought, not seeing it in a bikini. She has long tan legs, her hips are softly curved and her breasts are much bigger then I thought. "No harm in day dreaming."
"Except that you would be dreaming your life away and if the right person walked up to you, you would never see him," I had heard that in a movie and it sounded like a good advice for this moment.
"What makes you think he isn't the right person?" June turned towards me and I only replied with a slight shrug.
I couldn't really say he wasn't, who was I to predict the future? I could tell her how much he loves Sora and her love for him. It is nothing they ever talked about but a person can't help but notice. Jun, herself had to notice and if I told her, I don't think she would believe me anymore then she believes her own eyes. I glanced over as I heard Sora scream.
"MATT!" Sora yelled from her place in the water.
"Did I drop you?" I over heard Matt ask Sora innocently. I watched Matt lay on his stomach on the deck and Sora swam towards him. Once she reached him, she gave him a playful splash in the face. Matt didn't laugh, I don't know what he was telling her but he reached out and caresses her face. They were looking each other in the eyes and Sora held his hand against her face. I smiled at the couple but quickly glanced over at June.
"Why don't you tell me, what makes you think that you are the right person for him?" I asked her. I think, from that moment on, she made a deal with her revengeful soul to make this vacation hell for me.
We all sat around a campfire that night. Matt had his old guitar and strummed carelessly on it. He had often did that out of habit, never realise what he was doing. As he did with his harmonica. Davis and Tk were trying to out wit each other at making my sisters laugh. Occasionally one of the two would open their mouths to say something to her but, for whatever reason, looked over my way and decided against it. Don't get me wrong, I want my sister to be happy. There is no one out there that will be good enough for her. God had not made such a person, there for I have to settle for who ever she picks and pray they make her dreams come true. I want her to have the best of everything and in my heart; I truly believe that Davis and Tk doesn't fit the picture.
Look at Davis, if you double his IQ it would never match hers and she needs someone on an intelligent level. Besides, even I have to admit how much he acts and looks like me. I wouldn't be surprised if he said he came from the future and was my son!
Now Tk has intelligence however, Kari has had a secret crush on Matt for a long time. I know it is a harmless crush, nothing even close to what Jun is dealing with but still, she couldn't date Tk while liking his brother! Tk respects her, but Tk protects her too much. She humours me by letting me play my role as an over protected brother but she would never allow a boyfriend treat her the way I do. I am a special case.
"I'm going to get more marshmallows," Mimi jumped up from her spot near Joe. Her face looked flushed and at first, I thought it was from the heat of the fire.
"I'll help, " Sora jumped up and I, sitting beside her, couldn't help but admire those strong thigh muscles she display so well.
I leaned back and caught Joe's eyes, we held that eye contact for a moment before he blushed and looked away. That is when I knew that Mimi's blush wasn't from the fire; something between the two was starting to happen. Is it possible for me to be the only one not in love with anyone! It's as if cupid is playing a game with everyone's heart but keeps forgetting my own! I gave a quick glance over everyone and I can grantee that everyone else was thinking about someone else. I feel so unloved…
"So how does it feel," I glanced over at Matt. Since Sora left, I moved over to my best friend. "How does it feel to have all your dreams come true?"
"My dreams?" Matt asked softly, a lift of his eyebrow told me he had no idea what I was talking about.
"Yeah your dreams." I swept my hands over at his guitar he put down gently beside him in its case. "Do you have any idea how many guys want to be rock stars? How many guys would love to have a girl like Sora on his arm? You have every guy's fantasy!"
"You don't want to be a rock star and I thought every guys fantasy was a set of hot twins?" Matt said innocently, and I nodded. "Or Sora and Mimi…" Matt added.
"You thought of them too!" my grin grew.
"Sure, I'd never tell Sora that though," Matt looked over his shoulder to where Mimi and Sora were handing out marshmallows. "Or Mimi."
"Why not? I am sure they would get a kick out of it. Mimi would tease you about it too." I shrugged looking at the two girls. After a moment of silence, which again I hate, I glanced back at Matt. "I won't tell if you are worried about that."
"Nah, I'm not worried that you would tell," Matt shrugged, "I'd never act on it at any rate."
"What's wrong with you?" I asked stunned.
"Nothing," Matt gave me one of his ice blue stares, "It's just…I don't know." A moment of Matt's silence followed. I would usually start saying something…anything but when he starts talking with that look in his eyes, it's when he going to say how he feels about something. Therefore, I stay quiet and wait until he can find a way to put it in words. I think that is where most of his problem with his emotions lay, he can't find the words to the way he feels and it frustrates him even more! It seems to boil under the surface looking for an outlet to escape. Frustrations sets in, fear, weariness and anger are all mixed within him somewhere and then…he takes it out on me. What are friends for! I still owe him a few more bruises.
"Fantasies are meant to stay fantasies. It's when you are hungry for a huge piece of chocolate cake, you keep putting it off, and the longer you put it off, the hungrier you grow for it. When you finally do devour it, it's not as good as you had thought it would be."
"Nah, you are losing me. Whenever someone besides mum makes cake, I know it's going to be as good as I thought." I gave him my best smile, which for some odd reason, never works on him. It seems to make him frown. Complexity in a friend is never good. " I'm sure Sora and Mimi would be as good as I believe they are!" I smiled, nodding my head at the thought. "Yeah, I'm sure…"
"Forget it," Matt sighed and leaned back on the fold up chair he brought with him.
"Okay, so you aren't living your dream. Your dream is to have Sora and Mimi while everyone else would love to be a rock star…"
"No, that's my fantasy," Matt interrupted me.
"To become a rock star?" I teased.
"No to have Sora and Mimi. I am a rock star now but it's not my dream to become one. I just…I don't know fell into it. Dreams and fantasies are two different things. Dreams are something you build towards and make a solid foundation. Fantasies are things that would never happen, that are never meant to happen. Like you and that cheerleader Trisha…"
"HEY!" I punched him in the shoulder, "I almost had that fantasy come true!"
"Except you didn't care for the muscles her boyfriend was packing," Matt grinned.
"Whatever…" I mimicked his old line.
"Tai," Matt said softly, "Do you want to see what my dream really is?"
I glanced over at him; everyone's voices went in the background of my mind, "Um…okay." I am curious by nature and it seems to get me into trouble. I stood up beside him, stretched as he told everyone we would be right back, he gave Sora a kiss on the cheek before he started walking away from the group, and I did the only thing I could. I followed.
I am a nature boy; I love the great outdoors, the smell of fresh pine, the chirping of birds, the bright sun heating my body. I love it…but this was the middle of the night. I was being eaten alive by every insect in a five-mile mark. I almost lost my shoe in the mud. Some vine kept following me (I swear it was the same vine!) and tripping me. I stumbled over the uneven surface of the forest ground. Once I tripped and stuck out my hand to keep balance and it went right up a tree hole. I apologizing to the tree countless times, who would like a fist rammed up its backside? I was sure the tree was about to forgive me when Matt yanked me by the collar.
"Stop talking to trees!" He hissed at me.
"Are you afraid I'll embarrass you in front of all the insects?" I asked him.
"You are an idiot," he only replied in his low voice.
"I am what I am and can only hope that I will be what I will be'' I sighed, walking behind him, up the slope of the hill…or was it a mountain? "Hey Matt!" I called out to the person in front of me. I couldn't even say for sure if it was Matt before me or not. It was so dark, I could only see his body outline.
"Huh?" He asked which made me feel better. I don't think anything could be worse then following a stranger through the woods thinking he was your best friend.
"This dream of yours…does it have anything to do with killing me?" I asked, buffing, "Because I am way too tired to put up much of a fight. Remember, I broke up two fights between Davis and TK because you wouldn't step in…"
"Tai I told you," Matt turned around, I'm sure to glare at me but again, it's dark! "They would eventually fight it out!"
"And, for you," I ignored him, not wanting to really argue. "I paddled clear around the lake with Jun…in a canoe. A very small canoe I might add!" I stood tall, "I'm in no mood to put up a fight. Just kill me now!"
"Why would I kill you?" He asked.
"For my money, for my fame." I told him.
"I'm the one with the money and fame."
"Oi," I nodded my head, "Then it should be me who slaughters you!"
"Are you done?" Matt asked.
"With what?"
"You are getting cranky," He told me.
"I am not!" I frowned, I don't get cranky! Well, at times I might get somewhat moody, but not now.
"Do you want to go back to the cabin? Do you need to take a nap are something?"
"Lead on," I said with a sigh. Sometimes I wish he had more of a sense of humour.