Building a Mystery
PG-language
I don't own anything, not the show or the song.
Song fic, Scully's reflections
Night. It's his favorite time. UFOs, monsters, demons; he says it's the best time to see them. He says he is a night person; he does his best thinking then. I still remember how on the first case he called me in the middle of the night. Ever since then, he's been building a mystery. I'm given a piece at a time, to figure out the mystery that is Mulder. At first, I thought this search for his sister was a suicide mission, one bound to kill him in the end. Well, on that part I was right. I've almost lost him so many times. But after every danger that we experience, he just gives me that grin, and will not give up. That grin is what makes it ok. It just won't fade. If it doesn't get to him, then it doesn't get to me. I would follow him to the depths of hell just to see that smile again. It's very charming, almost innocent and boyish. He's beautiful. But a beautiful fucked up man. He will never give up the search for the truth. Or his sister. Once, he told me, she haunts him. He blames himself for what happened. "Scully, I can't look anywhere without my shadows and faults getting in the way." Sometimes, he wakes up screaming in the night. I go to comfort him, then he stops me. "It's progress, the nightmares help me remember." Fucked up right? Or how violent he can be. He throws fits, when things happen. He threatens violence when anything happens to me. When his mother died, I saw such rage. He broke things, punched the table so hard his hand bleed. Yet, I do not fear him. Although he much stronger, he is so careful when I'm in his arms. He kisses me with tender lips, caresses me with gentle hands. He has great passion. From passionate nights, I go to passionate days where we argue over the logistics of the case. But before, I get too angry, he gives me that know it all grin, and walks away. I follow, because, even though his passion blinds him to facts sometimes, he is usually right. I've learned that after so many years with him. Even though I would never admit that to his face. I also learned what his mystery is. The mystery of Mulder is he is a beautiful fucked up, passionate, man who will never compromise in his search for the truth. And by being the mystery he is, I love him more than anything else. He is my soul mate, my other half. So I guess by reason, that means I'm a beautiful, fucked woman. And together, we will uncover the mysteries that everyone else has built.