A/N: Whoa, I have more reviews than some of my absolute favourite stories. New reviewers! Hi, guys! Umm…can I say welcome? Thanks for reviewing, I love you all! gives you ghost-shaped crisps she found in the supermarket today for Halloween
Miranda Goshawk- Yeah…the format is original, I guess. I love messing with POVs.
the14potter- It's the best ever? Really? Thank you thank you thank you! And it is odd, but what do you expect, it's mine.
Lucky Moony- Oui, je suis britannique, j'avais appris Français pendant environ cinq années maintenant et je suis dans un groupe avançé ainsi j'apprends plus rapidement. Je suis vraiment passionnant pour avoir un lecteur français! Et Sirius est un peu dur, mais il ne peut pas l'aider, c'est dans son sang. Pauvres Remus et Tonks... il sera bien!
Green Tea&Honey- Oh, yeah…the prefect thing. Tonks is in the year below, and is also a Hufflepuff, so…well, it was necessary! And thanks for being a new reviewer!
Leencz- Er, thank you!
devillish angel- Thanks! Yeah, Tonks/Lupin forever! If they get a mention in Harry Potter Seven, I will write a fanfic to commerate it. Even if it's just a sentence...
Romulus901- Werewolf, huh? Well, if you're ever feeling alone...find a Harry Potter fan. They'll probably adopt you. And I'm glad you liked her finding out...I was worried I got her emotions wrong. Thank you!
BlacknessAngel- I hope your stomach's feeling better...if it wasn't by now, that'd be very worrying...And I'm updating! Woo-hoo! Oh, and I'm definitely English. But let's just forget the cricket fiasco...thank you for reviewing again!
FetishFemale- Yeah...I'm not the type to abandon my stories. Please ignore Kerichi over there talking about 'How did it all start?' That fic never existed...honest! Thanks again!
Deb-lil- Oh yes, I'm Tonks! And Romulus901 up there is my werewolf...no, I'm kidding. I'm not Tonks...although I am female and British, just like her! And the owl is currently hanging out at Remus's house, keeping Remus's mother company. She feeds him chocolate every day as she no longer has a son to do this to. And the werewolf thing? Thank you! That was just a random idea...I thought it was cooler than her telling him! And I, I mean Tonks coughs inconspicously will love her werewolf in the end. Honest.
eleen- Sirius...is a little mean, yes. He cares about Remus, and Tonks hurt him, so he feels some resentment towards her. I think if he had just talked to her when it happened rather than having a go at her and then ignoring her, things would have been resolved a lot quicker. But he's a teenage boy, and a Black, so feelings aren't something he has a great understanding of. He doesn't easily forgive people who hurt his friends (think of Wormtail) even if they're his friends too. As for him calling Tonks fat...he didn't mean that in a hurtful sort of way, bear in mind he was under the influence of Butterbeer and also isn't the type to think carefully about what he says. Thanks for reviewing...I've never heard that song.
I am a Banana- Yeah...I LOVE to foreshadow! And thanks for the marshmallow!
lupinsmoon12391- Sirius is kind of a challenge, so thanks for saying I wrote his POV well. And as for the plot twists...wait and see! Hahaha!
Ash-the-great- I love your progress reports "We're doing good!". Yeah...she knows! Dun-dun! Thank you!
Kerichi- I think the allergy is more about the thing being in his mouth in the first place...like if someone who is allergic to nuts put a nut in their mouth. I don't know what anaphylatic shock is...and, er, junk in the trunk? Well, thank you for your long review, and your compliment of Sirius's POV...I wasn't sure about that.
Neraera's Pen- Hi, Pheonix Feather! And I didn't want to make Remus's feelings too obvious...glad they seem like hints! Thank you!
Emanuelle Lisselle Grey- She may freak a bit, wouldn't you? And don't worry about them being together...and thanks for the cool compliment!
cassie89- I love S/R friendship too. I also like S/R slash, but that is entirely different! I love the Marauder's friendship...I did have a fic about them, but it sucked, so I deleted it. Thank you!
This chapter is terribly angsty, but I added some humour because I don't want to go changing the genre, now, do I? Enjoy, beloved reviewers!
And now, on with the chapter! Phew!
July 25th
11: 00pm (Tonks's POV)
I am a fool.
And a coward.
I am a Scaramouch. (Or is that a boastful coward? I should ask Linny, she's the music-obsessed one)
I chickened out of talking to Remus. I actually left him lying there while I chatted with Sirius over a couple of Fudge Bars. Then I went home and cried, and ate all my chocolate. I didn't want any dinner, so the Olds had the usual rant about wasting food when there are starving children in Africa, and about how my snacking is just going to make me put on more and more weight because any doctor will tell you that you need three square meals a day and chocolate isn't a meal. I suck. So much.
Especially the running out on Remus part.
This is the way I treat the man I love?
11: 01pm
Am I in love with Remus?
11: 02pm
How the heck do you tell, anyway?
11: 03pm
I suppose you're meant to just know. Well I don't know, so I can't be in love. But I must be, because now some other part of my brain is screaming that that is totally the wrong answer.
11: 04pm
Do other people have arguments in their brains?
11: 05pm
Am I schizophrenic? If I was truly mad, that would explain a few things.
11: 06pm
Perhaps I should write this down. My Hairy Shrink will find it interesting.
11: 07pm
Speaking of Hairy things…
WHY DOES REMUS HAVE TO BE A WEREWOLF!
11: 08pm
OK, here is the list of reasons why having a werewolf for a boyfriend would be a crazy idea:
1. Werewolves eat people
2. People get eaten by werewolves
3. Werewolves are a human predator.
4. My mother is afraid of werewolves.
5. My whole family are afraid of werewolves
6. I am afraid of werewolves.
7. Werewolves don't get much money.
8. Werewolves have a lot of health problems when they're human.
9. Werewolves are with Big V.
10. Big V likes werewolves.
11. Big V and werewolves are friends.
And now, reasons why having a werewolf for a boyfriend wouldn't be so bad:
1. Remus is a werewolf
2. Remus is wonderful
3. Remus is beautiful
4. Remus is clever
5. Remus is funny
6. Remus is sensible
7. Remus is nice
8. My dad isn't afraid of werewolves
9. They're not actually werewolves all the time
10. Prejudice sucks.
11. Remus isn't with Big V
I guess it's the Big V thing. I honestly don't know why I call him Big V. It just makes him sound funny, rather than all evil and scary. My dad started it, because he's not a neurotic weirdo like my Mum. Considering she comes from a family full of Death Eaters, you'd think she'd be a bit more relaxed about Darth Volder. That's another one my dad invented.
11: 09pm
Then there's Voldella E Vil. I came up with that.
11: 10pm
OK, now I have skipped from my favourite topic (Remus) to my least favourite topic (Voldella) in a matter of seconds. I think I actually am a schizophrenic.
11: 11pm
What will I say to my friends next week? You went to Marbella? Darling! I went nowhere! I stayed at home, sweetie, and fell in love with a werewolf. I also made up comical nicknames for You-Know-Who, want to hear some?
I can't be with Remus. Werewolves are monsters, everyone knows that. Werewolves support Voldemort, everyone knows that.
Werewolves can be such wonderful people, I know that.
What the hell am I going to DO?
Remus's POV
Still no sign of Tonks. Sirius Floo'ed me to say she found out about…about my being a werewolf. It's all over.
I never thought I'd fall in love. I thought the fact that most people are frightened of me would stop me from getting to know anyone, and the only love I'd feel was physical attraction, which is pathetic in comparison to what I feel now.
I must be in love with Tonks. I don't know what else it could be. I'm confused, and yet sure at the same time.
But I need to shut up. Because the more I think about her, the more I'll want to be with her, and there's not much chance of her wanting to see me again.
I don't know how it happened. May be it was because she made me laugh. Maybe it was because she's beautiful. Maybe it was because she's brilliant…her essay on Elven Wars was more compelling than my whole History of Magic book…but then so are the napkins at Fortescue's.
It started in my subconscious. I often have nightmare about hurting the people I care about, you see. Mum, Dad (I really miss him sometimes), James, Sirius, Peter and even some random baby that I guess represented The Unborn have showed up. Then it was Tonks. Just her, on her own.
I woke Sirius up with my screaming. Thankfully, all he did was shout "You allright, Moony?". I replied in the affirmative, and I suppose he went back to sleep. He's used to it.
I decided to conceal my feelings for her. Firstly because she might be appalled if I made it obvious, in fact, she almost certainly would be. Secondly…I'm no good at telling people I love them. I loved my dad, but I didn't tell him very often. I really, really wish I had.
It was this that urged me to tell Tonks. My mind was conflicted between telling her and hoping for the best, or leaving it and hoping she finds someone better. Merlin knows she deserves it.
When my nurse saw me crying, I told her I was fine. I've lied to everyone now. I hate myself. I love Tonks. Merlin knows I love her so much. I want desperately for her to be happy, I'd do anything just to satisfy her.
But lycanthropy can't be cured by anything.