A/N: Oh man…this scene is hard to do…because I can do him going to the Dark Side, I can do him after he's gone to the Dark Side, but trying to justify the murder of little kids? Uh…toughie. Anyway, I'll try the best I can, but still…How can anyone still be good inside and yet kill off little kids?

Plus, the one thing I hated about this movie (Besides Vader's "NOOO!1one1!1") was how he just turned the Dark Side like that. "Join me." "Okay." It just…eh…didn't work in my opinion.

Chapter 11: Suffering for Love

I was in the worst turmoil of my life. I had decided to save Padmé, even though I knew I would, in the end, have to use a Sith power to do it. But I still felt guilty over it…even if I was using these powers for good…

I was more confused than ever.

And even more so, when I discovered that Chancellor Palpatine was a Sith lord, the Sith lord that the Jedi had been looking for. Anger and hatred built up inside me. He was a Sith lord, the one who had started this war, the one responsible for many deaths…

Even the near-death of Padmé, three years before.

I wanted to kill him so much, wanting to seek vengeance for all the Sith had done. And if Iwould havekilled him, I felt it in my very bones that I would become the strongest Jedi ever, able to help people…to keep them from dying.

But I couldn't kill him, it wasn't the Jedi way. Even though my blood burned to see him dead, I could not kill him. But I wasn't about to keep this quiet. I told Master Windu.

He assured me Chancellor Palpatine would be taken care of. But with turning Chancellor Palpatine in, another fear crossed my mind. With him gone, would I still be able to save Padmé? Could I still get the power I needed to save her, even if Palpatine was gone?

I pondered that thought over my mind so many times that night…I wanted that power, but how far would I go to get it? Would I willingly, throw everything else away, for Padmé?

Would I go against Master Windu, and all of the Jedi council, in the hope that I could gain powers to keep Padmé alive?

But when I thought about Padmé…I thought about all the joy she brought to my life. How whenever she was around, I felt calmer, I was at peace. She made my heart lift, made me feel like I never felt before…I couldn't lose her.

If I lost her…then I would lose myself…

I had to do it. I had to keep Palpatine alive, so he could teach me those powers, no matter what the cost.

I hastened over to the Senate building, to Palpatine's chambers, my heart getting faster and faster, knowing the danger. I wasted no time in bursting in, to see Mace Windu hovering over Chancellor Palpatine, who was unarmed at the moment.

Suddenly, Sith lighting burst from Palpatine's fingertips. He told me that the Jedi were taking over, that Windu wanted to kill him, while the Jedi Master was fighting off the attack. I didn't know who to listen to. Windu wanted to kill him…the only man who could help me save Padmé…

But Palpatine's power rebounded on him, distorting his face to an almost unidentifiable form. He couldn't keep up the attack. He moaned in pain as his powers failed him.

That's when Master Windu declared he would kill him. I was shocked, that was not the Jedi way. I yelled at him not to, telling him I needed him, but he didn't listen…he raised his lightsaber…

One thought ran through my mind, Padmé…

It all happened so fast, before I knew what I was doing, my lightsaber was in my hands…

Mace Windu was crying in pain…

The Chancellor shot Sith lightning from his fingertips…

And then Master Windu was gone.

I stared, my mouth agape. I couldn't believe what had just happened…I had killed…assisted in the murder…of Master Windu. I had killed a Jedi.

What have I done?

Several thoughts shot though my mind…The Jedi will find out…they will come for me…I won't be able to save Padmé…they'll know…The Jedi will find out…I killed a Jedi Master…

I didn't know what to do. I could run away, but they'd find me…and they'd hurt Padmé…If I stayed, they'd come anyway…But, if I left, then Padmé would die…and I couldn't live without her…

Then I remembered, Chancellor Palpatine could save Padmé's life…he knew what happened…he could teach me to save her…and if I learned that power…then I would be stronger than the Jedi…they wouldn't come after me…

Then Palpatine asked me to turn to the Dark Side.

At first, I didn't want to answer…I didn't want to become a Sith…but if Padmé died…I wouldn't be able to go on…I couldn't live without her.

And that's what made me do it…I did this all for her…to keep her alive…

Regretfully, I kneeled before him. "I will do, whatever you ask." I said, almost unbelievingly. I had become a Sith.

But I wasn't really a Sith. The Sith were evil…doing this for their own profit. I wasn't. I was doing this only for one person, Padmé. I was not a Sith, though I was learning their power. I was above them.

The Chancellor accepted me into his order, and gave me the name Darth Vader. I was still in too much of a shock over this happening. Earlier that day, I had sworn to destroy the Sith…and now I was joining them. But if it was for the good of Padmé, I didn't care.

He told me what I already knew, if they Jedi found out, they would kill us. All of them. They were the enemy. At first, I didn't want to believe it, but I knew, that by this, they would want to kill us. Kill me.

They would go against the Senate, he told me. To kill all the senators. Including Padmé…And I wouldn't let anyone go against her...I wanted to protect her, but I would be no match against them…the only way was to take them on before they fought the senate.

He also told me that by this, it would make my powers grow, in order that I could save Padmé…I could save lives…

I willingly did what he asked.

But at first, I hesitated. What am I doing? I wondered, as I marched towards the temple, lightsaber in hand. I am going to kill Jedi…to take lives…why am I doing this?

I remembered what Palpatine said, and how they would come after the senate next… They're going to kill Padmé…I'm doing this all for Padmé…

And once again, my mind entered a hazy fog where I was not the one controlling my actions. My mind was running by my hatred, my anger at the Jedi…from my fear that they would come after us…I barely knew what I was doing, I just mechanically slew every Jedi I saw…for they were all the enemy…

There was only one other time where I hesitated. I entered into the Jedi council room, where many younglings had hidden. They were scared, afraid of what was happening, and when they saw me, they came from their hiding places. "Master Skywalker, they're too many of them! What are we going to do?" They asked.

I hesitated. They're younglings…just innocent younglings… A part of my mind said. But another entirely said, But they're Jedi…Jedi who will be trained one day to come after you and Padmé…Jedi, you're enemy!

I ignighted my lightsaber.

After that small annoyance had been taken care of, I knew I had to go back to Padmé. I knew her, she'd be worried. I'd have to assure her that everything would be all right. And so after the Chancellor gave me the assignment to end the war on Mustafar, I had to visit her before I went.

I sped over to her apartment, where she rushed out of it to greet me. I caught her in my arms and instantly felt that she was shaking. She was hysterical. "Are you all right? There was an attack on the Jedi temple! You can see the smoke from here!"

"I'm fine," I assured her, she always did seem to worry. "I just came back to see if you and the baby are safe."

Her brown eyes held worry. "What's happening?"

I sighed, feeling the burden of knowing the truth of this situation. "The Jedi have tried to overthrow the republic."

She gasped. "I can't believe that!"

"I saw Master Windu attempt to assassinate the Chancellor myself." I admitted, remembering that event which seemed to take place so long ago, yet it had only been a couple hours since.

I looked down and walked away from her, looking at the view of the city, lit up by the fire from the Jedi Temple. "Oh, Anakin," she said, "What are you going to do?"

I took a deep breath, hoping she would agree with my decision. "I will not betray the republic." I told her, turning back around. "My loyalties lie with the Chancellor, and the senate…" I took her back in my arms. "And with you."

"What about Obi-Wan?" she asked. That question of Obi-Wan sent a sting through my heart. Why did she always want to know about Obi-Wan, anyway?

"I don't know." I said. "Many Jedi have been killed—" With that, I saw her give an inaudible gasp of fear. "We can only hope he's remained loyal to the Chancellor." I secretly hoped that as well. Obi-Wan had to be on my side…he had been my friend for years, how could he not understand?

"Anakin…" she whispered, all her weakness showing through. "I'm afraid"

I held her closer, trying to make everything all right for her. That's when I remembered why I was doing this. I was doing all of this for her…to keep her safe. She was my number one priority; my everything. I would shape the galaxy for the better, all for her. All to keep her safe. "Have faith, my love." I assured her. "Everything will soon be set right. The Chancellor has just given me a very important mission."

Her eyes returned with fear when I said "mission" I knew she hated it when I was sent off to war. "The Separatists have gathered on the Mustafar system." I continued. "I'm going there to end this war. Wait for me until I returned, things will be different, I promise."

I kissed her one more, feeling her fear flow through. I hated her sad and afraid…when the war was over, I knew she'd be happy once more, I knew it. "Please…wait for me." I asked.

And with that, I left in the speeder, leaving to finally end the war, and to make the universe right for Padmé.

A/N: Whoa…reading this over…I still think it ends up like the movie, in the beginning Ani good, in the end, not so good, without much of an inbetween…I hope it was alright…

Anyway, next chap is last…so, yeah, please read!