Happy Thanksgiving everyone. I hope you all had lots of turkey and whatever your favorite holiday treat is. Mine are deviled eggs and ambrosia fruit salad, you know with the little marshmallows. Now that that's over I can get this posted.
Sorry it took so long to get this to you. I know where I'm going with this but I had a bit of a writers block as to how to get it there. I hope the next chapter doesn't take as long but I'm still having some trouble with what to write next to get where I want to go. I hope you all enjoy, drop me a review and let me know. Thanks everyone for being so patient and for the great reviews. Your reviews keep me writing.
Standard disclaimer: I do not own YuYu Hakusho.
Lonely Hearts
Chapter 5
Kurama sat on the bed staring at the closed bathroom door trying to comprehend how things could have gone so wrong. His budding relationship with Hiei had been progressing perfectly up until tonight. With one dream, one incredibly sexy dream, his dreams of a relationship with the fire demon were going up in smoke.
When he heard the shower start he cleaned himself up and changed into a pair of green pajamas. Searching in the bottom drawer of his dresser he found a pair of black pajamas he had bought for Hiei a few months ago though he had never gotten up the nerve to give them to him. Easily picking the lock on the bathroom door he left the pajamas on the counter before relocking the door and slipping back out.
Kurama gathered Hiei's clothes from the floor and stashed them in the closet. He didn't want the fire demon to leave until they'd had a chance to talk. Turning around he saw Hiei's katana in the corner by the window. Kurama stared at it for a full minute before deciding to leave it there. Hiding Hiei's clothes was one thing, disarming him would upset matters even more. Silently he prayed that he wouldn't be meeting the blade of the katana personally.
When he heard the shower stop Kurama reluctantly sat at the end of the bed facing the bathroom door. His feet were apart, forearms resting on his knees with his head slightly bowed. He waited like that for almost twenty minutes before he heard the door unlock.
Kurama looked up as the door opened but didn't straighten. He knew he had to be very careful how he handled this encounter with the fire demon. The fox's posture showed submission but his steady gaze showed no fear. He knew he had made the right decision when, after surveying the room, Hiei's eyes resting momentarily on the katana before his gaze returned and held Kurama's
Kurama's voice was soft but didn't falter as he spoke. "Hiei, I am so sorry. I never should have touched you like that without your permission. Please forgive me."
Hiei starred at him with no emotion for several moments before he moved forward causing Kurama to have to look up at him. Hiei's voice was calm when he spoke. "Kurama, I never even knew you wanted to touch me like that. I'm not sure what to think. Things have been changing between us and I don't know what you want from me."
The fact that Hiei didn't try to leave and even moved closer gave Kurama confidence. "I want nothing from you that you won't freely give me Hiei. I don't want to lose my best friend but I hope some day we can be more than friends."
"If all you want is a lover Fox then find someone else. By nature neither Koorime nor fire demon's take casual lovers, I'm no exception. Even if you want more than just sex Kurama you probably should find someone else. You know my history, it took a long time for me to call you my partner and even longer to consider you my friend. I won't easily trust even you with my body or my heart." Ruby eyes met green as he spoke but he turned away when he finished.
Quickly Kurama reached out to take Hiei's hand in his, waiting until red eyes met green again. "If all I wanted was friends with benefits Hiei I could have seduced you long ago. Exactly what I do want even I still don't know, I just know I want you. I want you as my partner, my friend, my lover and more. What that more is remains to be seen but I'd like to find out. You said I couldn't easily win your heart but I hope you'll let me try because I think you already have mine."
Hiei's eyes widened at Kurama's confession. In his life many had promised him affection or riches only to betray him in the end. Even Kurama had betrayed him once but since then had redeemed himself a hundred times over in the fire demon's opinion. He knew the fox had earned his trust, now he had to decide if his heart was something he was willing to give his long time friend.
Hiei looked down at their joined hands shocked at how much he liked the way it felt. Shyly he looked back at Kurama and whispered. "I'm not promising anything Fox."
Looking at each other both demons hid their surprise. Kurama couldn't believe Hiei was considering his request and Hiei couldn't believe Kurama had made it.
When neither spoke Kurama tentatively held out his other hand. Hesitantly Hiei took it, allowing himself to be pulled closer. Standing between Kurama's knees Hiei looked at him nervously. When Kurama smiled he relaxed a bit.
"Thank you Fire-Fly. With your permission could we start with a little kiss?" Hiei's eyes widened but when he didn't object Kurama released one of his hands to gently grab the front of Hiei's black top and slowly pull him closer. He couldn't help but notice how sexy Hiei looked in the silky black pajamas.
Hiei knew Kurama would stop if asked but he was curious, wanting to know what those beautiful red lips would feel like on his. Kurama's soft lips touching his gave Hiei the most calming feeling he had ever known. Closing his eyes he leaned closer.
As Hiei leaned into the kiss Kurama slowly slipped his arms around him, careful not to startle the fire demon. Not wanting to push his luck Kurama pulled back after only a few moments, smiling at Hiei's little mews of disappointment. "Patients my sexy little demon. I want to take this slowly Hiei. I want you to trust that anything that happens between us will be more than just sex."
Relieved that Kurama had shown control when he could have taken advantage, Hiei took the fox's hand and pulled him to bed. "Let's get some sleep Fox."
Together they crawled into bed. Without speaking they lay facing each other. After a moment Kurama slowly reached out and took Hiei's hand. "Hiei, I really am sorry about what happened earlier. I would give my life before I would hurt you."
In the dark Hiei starred at their joined hands. "Hn. Forget about it Fox."
Kurama's voice rose passionately. "How can I forget about it Hiei? I nearly raped you."
Hiei gave a big sigh. "You didn't rape me Kurama."
Kurama wasn't appeased. "No, but I forced myself on you and molested you."
"Hn, stupid fox. Do you really think I'm so weak that I couldn't have stopped you if I didn't like what you were doing to me?" Hiei gasped when he realized what he had just admitted.
It took Kurama a moment to comprehend the meaning of what Hiei just said. Before he could say anything though Hiei spoke. "Don't let it go to your head you conceded fox. Now go to sleep."
With a huge smile Kurama drew Hiei's hand to his lips and kissed it. "Goodnight Fire-Fly."
An hour later Kurama, still holding Hiei's hand, lay watching the fire demon sleep. Kurama was thrilled that Hiei hadn't rejected him. He still didn't fully understand his feelings for his best friend. The only thing he knew for sure was that he wanted Hiei as more than a friend and was looking forward to exploring what more might mean.
Giving Hiei a sleepy smile he leaned over to kiss the back of his hand again. "Thank you for giving me a chance Hiei. I promise not to betray your trust."
After Kurama fell asleep Hiei leaned over to kiss his hand and whispered into the dark before slipping into sleep. "You'd better keep that promise Fox. I don't think I could handle it if you don't."