I am saddened. TT My beloved Animerica... It's GONE! -cries- Why, why must they take my precious away...! -glares- They better eventually bring it back... Or I swear I'll buy Viz myself and make Animerica come back! For those who have no clue what I'm talking about- Animerica is a wonderful magazine that tells you everything: Jpop concerts, release dates, reviews of manga/anime/games, the wonderful Duke of Oita does a column about living in Japan... TT I already miss it... Gimme Animerica back you -bleeeeeeeep-! -glares- -sigh- Okay, I think I'm done ranting now.
The number of reviews I get for each chapter is slowly dwindling... WHY! TT That saddens me, too. But, as I promised, -pulls out a pile of money- here it is. There's some for everyone. (Everyone those who reviewed the last chappie. -glares-)
Disclaimer: These are fun to do every chapter, don't you agree? I mean, a smart person would've read the OTHER dislaimers, wouldn't they? Well, here is for the mentally challenged- I DO NOT own any person of the anime Yu-Gi-Oh!. I'll just put up with my card collection. (I'm such a dork, I know.)
Teian no Kokoro- Chapter Six: Denial
'I'm not sure what this feeling is when I see him. Happiness? Relief? I'm afraid to say it but... maybe even love? It kinda sucks that I can't talk to anyone about because they'll think I'm queer or somethin'. ... Am I gay? I'm really not sure. And I can't talk to him about it, that's for sure. I don't know what he'll think of me if I tried to. But does he feel the same...? (Heh, now that I think about it, it's highly doubtful...) I have so many questions, but no way to get answers... I sorta wish I could talk to him...
'I heard that in every person's life, they question their sexuality. Well, I guess this is my time.'
A few days had passed since they had been stuck inside their school during the storm. It was now Wednesday, and the gloomy weather wouldn't let up.
Seto Kaiba silently did chin ups on a metal bar in his in-home gym. (A/N: Rich bastard...) He counted in his mind each time his chin touched the bar, looking like he was far from being done. The muscles on his arms stayed like rocks every time he brought himself up.
'There's no way...' he thought after twelve. 'I'm just jumping to conclusions, that's all. He's only... a... friend... Why does that feel so weird to say?'
He let himself drop after the fifteenth time he pulled himself. 'And what was with him, anyway? At first he's being an idiot, then a serious, thinking, normal person? What's with that!'
He walked over to the blue mat over in the corner. On his way there, he glanced at himself in the mirror. He was shirtless, revealing a strong chest and a defined abdominal area. The only article of clothing he wore were loose fitting black boxers that went down to the middle of his thighs. His entire body was in a light coating of sweat, and his hair was out of its usual neatness.
'It blows my mind, how much I seem to have changed, yet I never realized. My thought patterns, my speech, the way I look at things...-' He sat down on the mat, folding his legs to his chest, and he began to do sit ups. '-all because I've been hanging around with him! And it's only been a week and a half... It's absolutely impossible, and yet it's true... But how, why? I couldn't... can I?'
After doing only three crunches, the door opened. A man in a black tuxedo now stood in the doorway. "I'm sorry to interupt you, sir, but Joey Wheeler is on the phone again. He demands that he talk to you. Should I tell him to stop calling?"
Kaiba did a few more sit ups as he thought about it. "No," he said during mid-crunch, "Just... tell him that I'm busy."
The man bowed his head. "Yes sir." He backed out of the doorway and shut the door behind him.
'He's called me five times in two days... Does he need to talk to me that badly? What about? Hm... has he noticed the change in me? Has he come to the same conclusion I ha- No, I can't be... gay...'
It was then that something ran through his mind. It was in the voice of Joey, while they had been in Domino High and watching the rain from the desks. "Have you ever felt... something, deep inside, but you couldn't figure out what it was?"
Kaiba shook it out of his head, quickening his pace. 'No... Not him, he wouldn't. It's wishful thinking- but not exactly...' He scowled. 'I am not gay...'
The Ice King lay on his king size bed, a lamp on the other side of the room casting a dim, dark yellow light in the room. He was now still shirtless, but wearing black jeans with a thick matching belt. He was on his side, and his eyes were clouded as he stared blankly at the bare wall.
'I haven't stopped thinking about it. It's almost been a week since he asked me that stupid, pointless question... So why can't I stop thinking about it? If it's not, could never be true, why not just move on?' His eyes closed. 'I don't understand... I'm not sure if it is what I think it is, so it couldn't be since I don't know...'
He rolled onto his back and gazed at the ceiling. 'Heh... Why am I worried? I can't be in love with Joey... I'm Seto Kaiba, president of Kaiba Corp., and known to be the most icy, unemotional bastard in Domino City... So I have no room to be in love, that disgusting emotion... What I feel, I don't know what it is, so I'm just jumping to conclusions, that's all...'
Sleep was threatening his vision. His eyelids were burning and getting heavy, demanding to be closed. He obliged and closed them, allowing himself to begin to drift into unconsiousness. His breathing immediately began to come softer as he drifted further away. Right before he was fully asleep, an old saying went through his mind.
'The first step is always denial.'
Kaiba sighed, leaning his leather chair back as he looked over the file he had just typed up. Behind him, thw window showed a clear, blue skied day, and the traffic below was light.
'This isn't good enough...' he thought, going over for a third time. 'It seems so blunt, yet I know I could do better... If only I had done this a few weeks ago...'
'You're distracted...' the back of his mind whispered.
His eyes wondered to the silent phone sitting on the corner of the desk. 'I haven't talked to him in a week. Maybe if I... then I could concentrate?' He shook his head. 'No, that wouldn't help...'
"Kaiba-sama?" said the secretary from the first floor on the desk intercom, "Joey Wheeler is here and asks to see you. Should I send him up?"
The CEO sighed. "... No."
"Okay, sir. I'll send him away."
Kaiba rubbed his eyes with the fingers on his left hand. 'This is stupid...' After a moment, he rose and went behind his chair to look out the tall window.
A few seconds later, he watched Joey come out of his building, noting that his hands were shoved in his pockets and his head was down. When he got far enough away from the building, he stopped. Turning around, he looked up directly at Kaiba. After staring at each other for a moment, the blonde turned and walked away.
Kaiba put his palm on the window, his eyes sad as Joey walked away. 'So... stupid...'
A sinister grin went on Marik's face. He opened his pale blue eyes as he swept a stray sand-colored hair from his face.
'So that is his weakness, now...' he thought gleefully, 'I see... Well, this is unexpected, coming from Kaiba-san... Well, I'll just adjust my plans a bit...' His evil grin grew wider. 'Be careful with who you love, Seto Kaiba... I will get my Egyptian God card back by any means possible...'
END CHAPTER SIX
... Do you know how weird it is to be typing this? I wrote this so long ago, and I'm currently writing a story that's ten times better... (It's a YGO/ Gravitation crossover. Couldn't resist.) Oh well...
Anyway... I know, it's just a wee bit short. Next chapter'll be longer, I swear! (I already know this coz it's sitting right in front of me!) So, just review, tell me what you think, and we'll all be happy! And everyone likes to be happy! (I'll be handing out Bakura plushies next time to reviewers...If I don't horde them all for myself...XD) And, all that's left is a quote. This one comes from the wonderful Demon Lord Raenef the Fifth of Demon Diary: "I feel like I got smacked in the medula oblongata with a cast iron skillet." LOL He's so cute... "TOMATO!" -dies laughing-