Chapter 7

Authors note: Let's see how things will go from here……..

"Where am I?" Kikyou muttered stretching out into the golden sunlight that poured into the room. "I was battling youkai in a village and…" She looked around noticing she was back in Sesshomaru's castle. "Did I ever leave?" Kikyou pondered clueless, rising to a stand. She paused looking onto the small desk there was a note on there addressed to her none the less.

Kikyou-

Please change into something more...clean. There is a built in hot spring on the second floor, the second door to the left from the stair well. Borrow someone's clothes if need be they need to be tended too.

-Sesshomaru

Kikyou blinked holding the paper in her hands, 'when did he start calling me Kikyou?' She thought staring towards it. 'I defiantly missed something…I wonder what room I'm in? His?' She pondered looking around opening the dresser drawer and finding his outfits. 'Bingo' she thought slowly folding one up staring towards it. She shouldn't take his clothes but he did say 'borrow someone's clothes'

She slowly walked down the stairs, pausing as she entered the second door, more or less there was a built in hot spring there. 'his house really is perfect' Kikyou thought slowly shutting the door and sliding off her miko outfit and relaxing into the water calmly.

"This is the first time I've bathed in hot water…since I met Inuyasha' Kikyou mused quietly letting the water run from between her fingers as she splashed some onto her face, diving under the water.

Surprisingly enough no matter how hard the miko tried she couldn't think of any possibility of what could have possibly happened or how she could have gotten back to the western lands. She was alive still, so she knew that part wasn't a dream and her body didn't hurt from any fighting. Her bow and arrows were still up stairs, her priestess outfit was rather grimy and blood stained as Sesshomaru had 'suggested' within his note. So it couldn't have been a dream…could it? And where did Kikyou come from? Hadn't he been calling her 'miko' until recently, could she have possibly misread it? Kikyou was so deep in thought she didn't even hear the door open.

"Hi Kikyou-sama!"

Kikyou nearly jumped out of her skin staring towards Rin, blushing madly at her being so scared, the small child jumping in.

"How do you feel Kikyou-sama?"

"I feel okay Rin-chan…How did I get back here? I apologize for leaving after Sesshomaru healed me but I did as told and I sensed a powerful jaki not to long after I left." Kikyou explained Rin blinking a few times in confusion.

"I know, we found you at the village"

"Then why did you bring me back here?" Kikyou said confused staring towards her, "What happened after I had slain the demons?"

Rin blinked a few times staring towards her "You really don't remember Kikyou-sama?"

"Not a clue"

"You lost your memory and you asked to see Kagome-chan and then you and Inuyasha and Kagome-chan talked for a bit…and you started crying. The only thing you remembered was the day before you were supposed to give Inuyasha the jewel."

Kikyou stared towards Rin as if her speaking was more or less not even of the right language. "I cried?" Kikyou said staring towards her as if she was certain.

"Hai Kikyou-sama! To me and Sesshomaru-sama"

Kikyou's face went pail for a few seconds, 'No wonder he's calling me Kikyou! He's making fun of me! There's no way this could be happening? I saw Inuyasha? I spoke to Kagome? Kagome! What…happened?'

Kikyou's POV+

I feel utterly and completely empty. I've never felt such a feeling of emptiness inside of me, and I have no way of telling what I said, or what even happened just like at that time with Inuyasha. I just knew what I had to do, and that was consulting Sesshomaru. I've never help so helpless within in a situation before except the one over 50 years…with Inuyasha and here I am again helpless because of him. Curse Inuyasha.

I could feel my hand clamp into a tight fist, I couldn't help it, my heart hurt. Will I ever be able to move on? Can I stand the thought of Kagome and him ever being together, Could I stand being alive when they are even now that I am? I can feel Rin's warm wrinkling hands on my arms; I hide my eyes under my black bangs. I can't look at Rin now, I can't stand to feel this way, and in the end I'm just stalling.

"I'm going to talk with Sesshomaru Rin-chan….I'll join with you again soon"

I slide on Sesshomaru's youkata and almost grin at Rin's look of confusion. The youkata was the one he always wore minus the armor and the swords. It's baggy on me, extremely. Come to think of it, I never wore Inuyasha haori either, none of his clothing. Strange though if I shut my eyes just tight enough, I can see us living together to this day, I often use to dream about it the happiness we almost shared. It's a nightmare.

I didn't have to go far to find Sesshomaru, He was in his study, his room. Typical. I don't remember opening the door, and I don't remember having the note he had left for me in my hands- and I don't remember going to get it. But there I was the calm miko in the youkai lord's clothing, holding the paper between two fingers, flicking it towards him as he stared towards me.

"Nice outfit" His voice was dull and I was almost surprised, was he joking?

"It's so me right? Perfect for a girl"

"Talk is cheap miko"

"What happened to Kikyou?"

"…"

He got quiet for a few brief moments and I couldn't help but wonder, if he didn't know what HAD happened to Kikyou. It was like me calling Inuyasha a hanyou, how it had pierced him how he had stated that he had a name, and ever since then I addressed him by such. I always had even in death. The name I had longed to call out in love as I had done was called out in hurt and confusion. I wonder why he didn't understand that. I wonder if Kagome felt that way too in a different way, always be addressed as MY reincarnation, it was nothing that I was proud of but I wonder if Inuyasha had ever called her my name, how she had felt. For some reason I understood both of them very well right now, being labeled… as a miko.

I paused for a few seconds remembering Inuyasha's exact words and I wondered if Sesshomaru would play my part if I played Inuyasha's. I closed my eyes at the remembrance of the annoyed hanyou and I felt a smile play across my lips.

Flashback Kikyou's POV+

We stood there, Inuyasha and myself my bow drawn his hands bearded ready for attack. I had just finished asking him why he hadn't killed me after I had collapsed, and he said he couldn't take the head of an unconscious person. For some reason I found that funny, and I said I see. I only had one last question to ask and he seemed well over reasonable listing to me intently, ready to attack when the time was right, not making any sudden attacks of anything else. He was doing it fair.

"Hanyou what is your name? You have a name don't you? Unless it's 'hanyou'"

He looked so annoyed his face picking up as he stared towards me, making some unruly hand gesture "Stop calling me hanyou and hanyou over and over!"

My voice was even and my bow un- quivering, I had no intentions of faltering at all. I wanted to know his name; He seemed so familiar to me. I couldn't help it I needed to know. "Then tell me your name! I would have no reason to call you hanyou anymore!"

His head almost lowered just a bit, and I could see into his golden eyes, his voice steady. "It's Inuyasha" The calmness in his voice let me know I had hit something inside of him, and though my face didn't show any emotion, I was almost happy.

"Inuyasha…hun? I'll remember that"

"Prepare yourself Kikyou!"

Swish, swish swish

End flashback+
"Stop calling me miko over and over" I said calmly my eyes still closed. Sesshomaru seemed to pause almost mauling it over in his mind, his face calm as he averted his stare towards mine.

"What do you want me to call you?" His voice was so monotone, so steady it reminded me of my own, and here I felt almost like Inuyasha ready to burst out and tell him I wanted it my way. The way of being treated normally instead of a hanyou or in my case a miko.

"Kikyou"

He stared a few brief seconds longer, "Kikyou hun? I'll work on it"

Authors Note: What'ya think? o Hope ya liked it!