Chapter 13

Authors Note: Some of my reviews were a little concerning. I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea and I think some of you have.

I am an Inuyasha fan, he may not be my favorite Inuyasha character but I love Inuyasha. In this story I'm trying to express Inuyasha's problem. Most people just blame one or the other out of the miko's I'm trying to show that it's not either of their faults but it's Inuyasha himself. Don't misunderstand me, I'm much more disloyal to Kagome then I am to Inuyasha so please don't' misunderstand.

Another review asked me to make it a Sess/Kag/Inu with all do respect this is for my boyfriend and he prefers Kikyou over Kagome. If you challenge me I will gladly do a Sess/Kag/Inu fic for you. Now…on with the story….

Sesshomaru's POV+

Inuyasha's on my land, he is on my territory. That hanyou bitch agreed he'd never set foot into my lands again. It angered me to have him so close to me and me to be so unaware of it, I knew he was near my border but he had got to the heart of my lands so quickly for a dumb ass hanyou. I'd thought at least his group would slow him down but he apparently left them, and I knew exactly why, he was here to see Kikyou.

That reason alone was more then enough to piss me off. Kikyou as long as she was on my grounds was mine. As wrong as that sounded Kikyou was mine as long as she was on my property and he was…he was…god what was he doing to her. I had to keep a calm demeanor though there's no point in it, I just didn't want to let him get to me that bad.

I rounded the corner of the garden and I felt frozen for a minute. He was embracing her, he was embracing the miko in his arms and she looked like she stopped resisting just being held. I felt my blood boil, how dare he do something like that in my presence? On my land? With my wo---- no…with Kikyou.

He looked so peaceful, so careless…so vulnerable. I find a smile traces my lips and morethen anything in the world I want to take his head. I wonder how Kikyou would feel then being held by a man with no head. What look of disgust would she make?

"Inuyasha"

By the sound of my voice Kikyou tenses and Inuyasha looks up still holding Kikyou. His golden eyes lock with mine and show a seriousness that almost seems scarier then my own, and I wondered how in hell that was possible.

We don't say anything for a while, I'm not sure what to say or do, I could attack if I wanted to I wasn't afraid but…he never let go of Kikyou. He never even flinched when I said his name like he usually would if he felt like he was in trouble or if he had done something wrong (not that there's much difference between the two just at the time it had felt like there had been). I felt almost helpless and that only added to my anger but more then anything I wanted him to move away from Kikyou. I wanted him to get his filthy claws off her back.

"Move…now" My voice was calm; I was giving him a warning. He could move away from Kikyou or I'd attack anyway, I was good enough not to strike Kikyou but did Inuyasha know that? Or did he think I wouldn't strike? Of course he thought I would, I just wonder if the hanyou will be smart enough to listen.

Inuyasha rises to a stand Kikyou still in arms. "Kikyou, stand behind me…I'll protect you" His voice is calm and gentle towards her as if she was the only delicate thing alive. For a brief second I wondered if his words would be so soft if Kagome was here. I didn't know I wouldn't have to wait long to find out.

It was inevitable that a fight would break out; it was inevitable that someone was bound to be hurt. Over time I had found myself unconcerned with the death of my dear half brother and once again that burning rage, that secret flame was ready to burn and burn him no less.

My arm reached towards where Tokijin lay as Inuyasha drew Tetsusaiga. It was once a prized sword I treasured and yearned for, now when Inuyasha held it, it seemed nothing more then a slunk of metal wasted on a piece of garbage. I wonder if I would have thought differently if Tetsusaiga had been mine, but if Tetsusaiga had been mine, and Tenseiga his…we would have been two very different people. VERY different.

"Inuyasha" at first I thought it was Kikyou, that unmistakable sadness but Kikyou had not moved she had only turned her head in the direction of the voice- her reincarnations voice. Kagome stood there she looked a bit stunned and relieved, her face pale and eyes closed only to the slightest. Rin was by her side a bit disarrayed peeking out behind Kagome's leg. The slayer and the monk were riding on the cat-like youkai and the little kitzune was on the slayers shoulder.

Inuyasha looked over his shoulder and that was all I needed that small space of time to attack. My hand connected with Inuyasha's throat and he let off a stuttered gasp, Tetsusaiga slipping through his fingers. I felt the girl's instant fear, the girl called Kagome as she stared towards me. She had aimed her arrow towards us, she planned to shoot off my other arm and a chill suddenly ran up my spine as she fired her arrow a blue light shinning from it.

I waited for my arm to fall off enclosed around my brother's neck, I waited for the instant he would fling my hand to the side, choking and gasping for air as he lunged at me. But it never came; it was such a strange sight to see Kikyou standing there in front of me chocking her beloved.

Kikyou stood there her eyes closed Kagome's arrow enclosed between her middle finger and her pointer finger. When she opened her eyes, Kagome's arrow snapped straight in two.

"K-Kikyou" Inuyasha gasped, my thumb pressing into the sensitive skin of his neck, my talons sinking in a bit deeper, one simple move and I could kill him…I could…

"Sesshomaru…Let him go" Her voice was calm and careless, I didn't want too. Deep down I wanted to kill Inuyasha, dear god I wanted to exterminate him so he had never existed. But I listened. I don't know why, something told me too, perhaps guilt or repayment. None of that seemed the right answer but surely it had to of been.

My hand slid off Inuyasha's neck and he landed to the ground with a cold impact, dust sprawling around his body from his landing. "If you ever come onto my land again I will kill you" I walked off mixed feeling of accomplishment and confusion but I don't suppose it mattered. He could have his few minutes with Kikyou and then he'd be gone.

End Sesshomaru's POV+

Sango's POV+

I looked over towards Kagome as the youkai lord walked away; there was a loud silence between everyone. Kirara had landed and Miroku and I had both moved towards Kagome's side. Shippo stayed next Kirara watching…he looked terrified. Inuyasha hadn't even moved from being tossed to the ground and neither had Kikyou, in fact no one had other then Sesshomaru. No one said anything and no ones gaze met one another. Kagome looked hurt staring hopelessly towards Inuyasha, Inuyasha gazing to the side, Kikyou gazing to the exact opposite side. Miroku and I well we were just looking at everyone, how the hell did this happen? And most importantly had the big love triangle become a love rectangle?

I was always on Kagome's side when I thought about it, how could Kagome forgive Inuyasha for this mess? His insanity, his confusion? But for once I looked at it through Kikyou's way, just once and I realized that maybe it hurt her just a bit more. When I had found out Kikyou had been alive it hadn't really affected Miroku or me or even Shippo-chan. But we knew it effected our companions and in a strange way…our family.

I'll be the absolute first to say, I've lost my family. I've had them torn out of my bear hands because I wasn't strong enough, I wasn't fast enough and I've even let my brother's body become a toy to Naraku. Not anymore though with my new family as strange as it seems, with my companions I've found comfort in a family. A hanyou, a demon, a miko and a monk it was a strange family wasn't it? But it was my family it was all my family I had left…other then…Kohaku. And of course Kirara.

I looked towards Miroku, I had developed a crush on the monk, normally times like these we'd whisper our confusions to each other. But the silence was so…so mortifyingly painful. It throbbed in my ears and pulsed in my heads, the mood didn't even have a sad aura, just a dyingly quiet one.

The only question I had now was 'What next?'. I had a feeling that that was the thought in everyone's mind right now, what would happen next? I looked towards Kagome wondering if she'd talk or do something anything in her good natured way. Kagome had away of no matter what she did it was always the right thing to do, but I didn't believe that. She was covered in lies, just like all the rest of us. We were drowning in them.

And Kagome DID do something. She turned around and walked away, without a word to Inuyasha. The miko we knew to be pure now looked like she had been engulfed in sin and had turned her back on the world- her world perhaps- Inuyasha. It was a terribly scary sight, I find my lips quiver in a short gasp and I find myself running after. Miroku runs by my side and Shippo's on his shoulder now eyes filled with worry for his mother figure.

I paused for a brief second as Miroku and Shippo run past me after Kagome and I stand there, turning towards Inuyasha. My brown eyes lock with his golden ones and I can almost read his thoughts begging me to tell her…to tell her…something. I look down to the ground having eye contact with Inuyasha was to painful. He had hurt Kagome…the girl from the well who I had established a sister like relationship with…he had injured her feelings how could I just? How could I just expect her to understand their situation? Even I didn't understand it so how could I make her?

I turn and start running again. This was Inuyasha's mess wasn't it? It wasn't any different then any of the other times, it didn't affect us. It was their business, their problem, and it will all turn out the same as always right? Right?

Little did Sango know…how wrong she was.

End Sango's POV+

Inuyasha's POV+

Sango stared at me for a while and her eyes couldn't meet mine for very long and she had turned to stare at the ground as if it were too painful for her to look at me. Was she…disgusted with me? Is that why Kagome left because I was wrong to get myself into such a position?

'Keh serves you right' that's what I would say but right at this second I couldn't find ME. The arrogant me, the selfish me, the me that made me. Not this…not this one. I hated this one. This part of me that doesn't know… my heart. That's what I don't like about me, I don't like to feel and why don't they want me to be a full demon? If I was a full demon I'd never be looked down upon, I'd never be considered worthless and this hatred by the both of them…Kagome and Kikyou it would no longer seize to matter.

Am I growling? Kikyou looks surprised raising a brow almost in suspicion. So she doesn't know what I'm thinking? That's strange. She ALWAYS knew what I was thinking. I'm either losing it or I'm getting my life back. Didn't make sense did it? I don't suppose I did.

"Kikyou am….am I sinned? Was I your sin? Am I Kagome's? Is that's what's wrong with me?" My voice is wracked with sobs or maybe that's just my conscience but I feel like I'm choking. I tried to swallow and it was as if something was stuck there, something thick as a rock and I couldn't. My hand comes up to my neck and it feels unbelievably hard and I'm suddenly wracked with fear and I think to myself what a way to die, I can take a blow in my stomach but I'm choking on air.

Kikyou runs towards me her eyes in panic but I can't see her anymore, I know my eyes have rolled into the back of my head because I see nothing any longer. Am I transforming? I don't feel angry so why am I? Why is this rupture taking place in my mind? Why is my heart so so locked? What is this cynical laughter echoing through my mind?

Fear begins to penetrate my body it's getting much harder to breathe. I'm not scared that I'm touching death I'm scared because I know why. This laughter this laughter wasn't just mocking and cold it was familiar. There was no doubt in my mind and even though I couldn't see what was going on around me I could see Naraku. I could see him oh so clearly, smiling his devious smile. HE was killing me, no…he was taking control of my body because I can't see where I'm going but I feel myself running.

My heart begins to pump fear, has Kikyou fled? I'm going to kill her! No…no Naraku doesn't want Kikyou anymore he's hidden his heart. Naraku he wants…Kagome. Oh dear god he wants Kagome's shikon shards and he wants me to get them.

The pain is unbearable is this a dream? Is this real? Am I conscious? Dear Buddha I can't see! I can't…it's to….The scream rises in my throat I can't tell if it's more my own doused in pain, or a lunatic's scream of Naraku's.

Please….Someone…what's going on with my body?

End Inuyasha's POV+

Authors Note: wow…I really like Sesshies POV, and Sango's was a dif. POV so that was good, and who knows whats going on with Inuyasha? We will just have to wait and find out…woops did I say we? I meant you! Lol. Because I know o Love ya all R&R!