"Munkin, go get ready for bed. Mommy and I will be there to tuck you in, in a few." Spike said to the little girl. She only nodded and scurried off.
Once she was one Spike turned around to Buffy, who hadn't spoken since they left the mall. "Buffy luv, are you alright?" he asked, moving toward her.
Buffy just nodded. She looked up at Spike, "I'm fine." She lied.
Spike just glared at her.
"Spike please, I don't want to talk about it." She told him, before turning around and heading to Miracle's room.
Spike followed close behind. "Luv don't do this, don't shut me out." He pleaded.
"Spike stop it." She said leaning over and kissing her daughter's forehead. She then turned and exited the room heading towards her own.
Spike followed and shut the door behind him.
"Buffy, luv don't shut me out." He said softly.
Buffy turned around and faced him, tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Oh luv." He said as he pulled her into a hug as she sobbed into his chest.
"Spike, he was there. I saw him and I didn't say anything. He still doesn't know Spike. He still doesn't know that…" she hiccupped a sob. "That he has a daughter."
Spike just held her. When Buffy's sobs quieted she moved away from him and sat on her bed. Spike sat down next to her and waited for her to speak.
"Spike what am I going to do?" She asked.
"Honestly, what do you WANT to do?"
"It depends on what your asking. Are you asking me what I want or what I know is right?"
"We both know what's right luv, I'm asking what you want."
"I want…I don't know. I want him to know he has a daughter. I want Miracle to know her father." She looked into his deep sea blue eyes. "But I don't want to lose you in the process."
Spike just looked right back into her green orbs. "You wont, not ever. No matter what you choose, I'll be behind you one hundred percent. Just like I was the first time and just like I'll be forever." He said placing his hand on top of hers.
"Thank you Spike, god thank you so much."
"No need, I love you and Miracle, Buffy. I wont leave you, ever. No once can make me go but you two, not even my poof of a grandsire." He leaned over and kissed Buffy lightly on the forehead. " I love you Buffy. I'll never leave you."
"I love you too William."
They embraced for a while just enjoying each others company. Spike pulled back and looked at her. "What are you going to do about Angel?"
"I guess the thing I should have done four years ago. Tel him." Spike just nodded his head in understanding. "Spike I'm scared." Spike was the only person she could tell that to.
"Why?"
"What if he hates me?" She asked, her eyes shining with unshed tears.
"Never going to happen Buffy. That man love you more than life itself. Literally."
"Spike I kept his daughter away from him for four years. A child who in all sense should not have even been possible." She put her head down. "What if he doesn't want us?" she asked after a long pause.
"I doubt that but if he doesn't, we'll deal. You'll still have me." He told her.
Buffy just looked up and smiled.
Angel Investigations
Buffy walked into the Hyperion Hotel mid afternoon the next day. She left Miracle at home with Spike. She needed to tell Angel before she told Miracle.
"Hello, may I help you?" A soft female voice called.
Buffy looked up and saw a young brunette with glasses. "Oh umm… I'm looking for Angel…I'm…"
"Buffy?"
Buffy turned around and saw Cordelia coming down the stairs. "Hey Cor."
"Oh my god. It's been so long. How are you?" the tall brunette asked as she gave the blonde a hug.
"Yeah it has, um… Cordelia is Angel here? I need to talk to him. It's kind of important."
"Sure. He's upstairs, his room is 217."
"Thanks." She said before heading up the stairs.