Title : My Love, Your Love

Author : foxhana

Genre : Yaoi

Pairing(s) : RuSen, MakiSen

Disclaimer : I don't own any characters, except for my own imagination in this story.

"Akira I'm home!"

Rukawa hurried through the front door and closed it immediately, not allowing any snow from flooding the house. He sighed in disappointment again as his beloved had not greeted him back, again.

It has been two years since the betrayal, and he had been guilty for two years. Rukawa sighed again as he brushed off the snow on his shoulders and took off his layers of clothing and put them on the couch. Rukawa had loved Sendoh before the betrayal, he still loves him after, and has ever since love Sendoh even more than ever.

Sendoh's depression has pretty much gone, thanks to the fact that Rukawa was there for him all these time, remaining loyal and faithful. He was able to snuggle into Rukawa's arms at night, being fed by him when he had fell sick and most importantly, was given anything he wanted, even though he never asked for much.

Afraid that his lover might have another attack, Rukawa called out to his lover once again.

"Akira where are you? I'm home!"

This time however, he received a cough from their kitchen. Certain that it was his lover, Rukawa walked towards the kitchen, leaving his bag on the floor beside the couch on the way.

Once in the kitchen, he saw Sendoh stirring the warm honey drink he had made to sooth his aching throat.

Sendoh had been really sick lately; his temperature has been running really high reaching a high 41 degree celcius, he has cough and flu. Apparently he had not been better after Rukawa's family doctor had came for him a few days ago.

Sendoh had not been able to go to school for the past few days. This has been happening a lot, especially these few weeks, when the day of what happened two years ago is nearing.

Rukawa hugged Sendoh from behind as usual. He felt Sendoh tensed and had stopped the stirring. Rukawa immediately turned Sendoh around and kissed his forehead. Sendoh had stopped growing at 191cm, while Rukawa had grown to a new height of 196cm, taking over his lover and the redheaded monkey, who was probably yelling out loud somewhere, jealous.

Rukawa hated that day. Rukawa regretted that day. Rukawa did not want to remember that day. It was horrible, it was saddening, it was shocking, even to the culprit himself.

That day was the day he saw Sendoh standing outside the locker room, staring at them with wide eyes and running away with shock. Rukawa had ran after him after gathering and putting on his clothes.

Rukawa knew, at that very moment, that the relationship he shared with Sendoh had been strained. Time would heal all wounds, or so as the saying goes. It seemed to be true, however, at a very slow pace.

Sendoh had wanted to give Rukawa a surprise that very valentines day, which was also his very own birthday. Rukawa however had ruined it all. He regretted and felt ashamed of everything single thing he had done with his teammate.

He chased after Sendoh, picking up everything that the latter had dropped, his bag, his books, his chocolates and his flowers. Sendoh finally stopped at a jetty about three kilometers from Shohoku, collapsing with an asthma attack, which has not happened in eight years. Rukawa dropped everything in his hands and rushed to his lover's side. Sendoh was gasping for air with is mouth wide opened and grabbing Rukawa's hair in pain.

Three hours later, Sendoh and was sleeping peacefully on the hospital bed, with Rukawa staring at him, wanting to take care of his every needs and wants when he awakes.

Even though Sendoh has not had an asthma attack for almost a year, Rukawa was glad and had been very cautious in everything he does, not wanting to provoke his beloved again. He had taken care of Sendoh for two years, and he would take care of him for as long as he can last. This used to be Sendoh's job, having taking care of everything Rukawa wanted and needed.

Sendoh became the uke ever since. He had became dull and wore only darker colours, eating lesser and lesser and even his famous spiky hairdo had to be done by Rukawa. It was a mess of gel and fingers at first, it had became closer to perfection when Rukawa had practiced it on his own hair everyday after school.

Rukawa kissed the tip of Sendoh's nose, causing a sneeze from his sick lover. Sendoh giggled and toppled over the cup of warm honey drink, obviously delirious.

Rukawa sighed and led his lover into their bedroom. Sendoh was laid down the bed and had Rukawa by his side, staring lovingly into each other's eyes.

"Kaede..."

"Hai Akira-chan?"

Rukawa laid down under the blanket beside Sendoh and rubbed their cold fingertips together.

"My honey drink...?"

"You knocked it over remember?"

Sendoh looked at Rukawa with his glassy eyes.

"Eh..."

It pained him to see his lover this sick all because of him, all because he could not control his desires that very night, that so important night, that night, where every lover would be together, celebrating their love, and in this case, both birthday and love.

Kissing on his lover's warm lips, Rukawa brushed the hair sticking to Sendoh's forehead.

"I will make you another one ne? I will always be there to give you what you want, whenever you want."

"Kaede... when will I be fine...? I don't feel too good these few days... my head hurts."

Sendoh turned and snuggled into the arms of his now seme lover.

"You will be very soon, as long as you leave everything to me."

"Really...? You won't love other people again...?"

Rukawa admired and smiled as Sendoh's eyelids began to droop.

"Baby I never did. It was an honest mistake."

"Mistake..." Sendoh yawned.

"Yeah, and it will never happen again."

"Why did you do it...?" Sendoh yawned again.

Rukawa had a tough time answering this question when it was first asked at the beginning of Sendoh's depression. It had took him more than a few days to answer Sendoh. And now, guilt was crawling to him again, looking at his vulnerable beloved.

"Because I had to make sure I love you more than anything else."

Sendoh yawned another time. "Really...? So... do you...?"

"Of course I do.."

By this time, Sendoh was fast asleep in Rukawa's arms. Rukawa let Sendoh snuggle into his arms and kissed Sendoh's forehead, swearing once again never to let Sendoh down, ever again.