1A/N: Okay, so I know I have all these stories that aren't finished, but screw those, I just had a good idea! (In my opinion, that is...) I know I've written a lot of song fics, but hey, I'm addicted to songs, addicted to fics, it just seems to go together. Plus, this one will be a whole lot more fic than song, I promise!
Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls or "Wurlitzer Prize" by Norah Jones and Willie Nelson.
Italics: letters
Bold/ Italics: song
Bold: flashbacks
Dodger,
I came to see you...I did, I swear. But I just couldn't. Sure, you always came to Stars Hollow and caused the appropriate uproar, and I was always appropriately angry and made the appropriate comments and simple greeting and then you left at the appropriate time. But for once, just for once, I wanted to do something that wasn't expected. Something...inappropriate. I wanted to see you, Jess, you.
Yeah, you, the one who totally screwed up my life, the one who came here without a care in the world but left with so many of mine. The one who tried to get attention with your stunts, even though you were subtle about them, pretending not to know that I could see right through you. You, the Guns-of-Brixton-boy. You. And then... I couldn't. I couldn't initiate the meeting. You have to do it because I can't. I was always the one to do things first. Our first kiss? Me. The first one to say
Rory paused from her writing and took a deep breath, the tears welling up in her eyes as she weighed her options, she could either just say it and get it over with and get to the point of her letter or she could crumple it up right now, throw it out, and have yet another nervous breakdown. She inhaled and exhaled slowly, her hand shaking as she went back to the letter in front her.
"I love you"? Me. But this time I couldn't be first. I need you to come to me, you know where to find me. You always have.
Flashback
Jess walked up to the bridge tentatively, wondering whether she was that upset. "Well of course she's upset, Mariano...bag boy just dumped her!" He thought.
"Rory, you don't deserve that...especially not from him." She looked up at him, she had obviously been crying.
"Yes, I do. All those lies, all those fake smiles and kisses...he the one that doesn't deserve it." She looked back at her hands.
"Can I ask you a question?" He asked sitting down next to her. She smiled slightly, "Sure."
"Why did you do it?" Whoa. The smile disappeared. It hit her like a ton of bricks, she knew the question was coming but she had no way to get away from it.
She knew why she did it, why she had lied to him, why she pretended. Because of Jess. It was always about Jess, but now if it happened right, as she had planned it so many times...maybe she wouldn't feel so guilty when she was with Jess.
End Flashback
I haven't forgotten...I haven't forgotten the time you came to the bridge and the time you came to the hockey game and I never will. Please, just come. And if you don't run, I won't either. I promise. I need you, Jess, I need you more than anything I've ever needed.
I'm not here to forget you
I'm here to recall the things we used to say and do
I don't wanna get over you
I don't wanna get over you
Rory didn't sign it, he would understand, he would know who wrote it. He always knew; he always remembered. He never forgot.
A/N: This isn't the only chapter, there's more of the song and what kind of author would I be to just leave it? Hm? ;-)