Coz Love Conquers All
Author: Kitty
Disclaimer: The same disclaimer as the prologue applies to the whole fic.
Category: It's pretty damned obvious by now
Pairing: John/Lita
Notes: This is in John's point of view
I wonder why she doesn't wanna come near me that much anymore. I wonder what I've done – if anything to make her dislike me – possibly even hate me.
Every night – or early morning, what fucking ever – I come home and she's lying in bed, wearing nothing but her underwear and there's no 'hey' or a "how ya doin'?", not even a little kiss on the cheek. We just have sex.
Sometimes I really do wonder if she actually loves me – if she actually cares about me at all – because the things she does – well, more like the things she doesn't do – makes it seem like she doesn't even care about me, like she doesn't even care about us. Not that there's much of an us to talk about.
Seeing how I broke her trust by sleeping with her enemy – as well as various other girls – while with her, and I did it quite regularly but I swore to myself that today was the last time.
The absolute last time. That's what I had promised myself that night, when I left Lita all alone in the club – no ride no nothing – just to go have one final quick fuck with Trish. Because after all, I made myself a promise.
Not that it mattered that much anymore, I had done it many times to her so many fucking times. Yet each and every time she stood by my side.
I wonder how she would react if she knew what I had been doing. Whether she would scream, or cry, leave me, slap me.
No matter what she thinks I love her…more than anyone else I have ever loved in my whole entire life. In fact, I love her with my whole entire being. If possible with even more.
Even if I reek of Trish's expensive perfumes and scream her name out at the top of my lungs - Lita will always have something with me that Trish cant even begin to comprehend.
She has my love and she has my heart. Something that nobody – or nothing – has ever had – or even come close to having – because like I said before what I have with Lita is love, such a great feeling that I can't even begin to describe – maybe its coz of the ethereality of it all, but I dunno, all I know is she has me.
She has me good.
And when she lay on my chest last night, after the most amazing sex I have ever had in my entire life, I gave her the ring and she told me 'yes' and I could tell that there was something going on.
And then after we kissed – one of the most breathtaking kisses ever - she told me she was pregnant.
We are having a baby. I'm gonna be a daddy and we're gonna have a family.
And it all works out coz in the end – after all those meaningless girls I've hand in the alleys, penthouses and playgrounds it doesn't even matter anymore, because I love her and she loves me and Trish and Dawn Marie and Stacy and all those other girls; seemingly nameless and faceless – it doesn't matter because I love her and she loves me.
So it doesn't matter that I reek of some expensive Tommy Hilfiger perfume and that I accidentally cried her name out during sex because she's carrying my baby and love conquers all.