Dear Santa
Why am I writing to you? Like everyone else I doubt that you'll listen to me, are you pretending to be nice to all those children as my parents were to me? I don't understand...is this a game to you adults? Something, that even now I remain too young to understand?
What I'd like this Christmas
Can't be something that people would give
I'd like for the act to never begin again
False happiness is a cause of death
I wish instead to see the truth
To see if anyone is looking for me
Wishing to hold me
And not pretending
As they so often are
I want to be here strong
And make sure that they don't feel guilt
Or pity me
But look upon me with their heart
And not their head
Make sure that they aren't pretending
Making themselves miserable
To provide my own happiness
Haru seems to be the only one to feel that way
Not hiding from me his true feelings
And that's why I have to protect him
He goes black so often
But that is why I love him
He isn't hiding himself
He isn't taking part in some play
This life isn't an act to him
He cares
He cares too much to make things clear
I'd like to see what people are thinking
What my own parents are thinking?
Do they care about me
No
That's why I hate her
Her smile is false
There's pain behind that
And she won't let it out
Tohru Honda, she won't
This Christmas I want to see the world for what it is
I have gone through enough pain to understand it
I want to see bad people for bad people
And good people for good people
So that I will never again rely on false hope
So that I will never again fall upon my beliefs
Please help me do that
I don't know what I'll see
But if I see the truth, then that is the beautiful thing
Rin Sohma