Dear Santa
I guess it's pretty weird writing to you and since I'm a female at a womans college the girls would mock me if they found this, but I think it's worth it in a number of ways
Santa
What I'd appreciate this year
Is my face to be washed
I'm sick of looking into my reflection
And finding myself to be there
I tried to go after someone because of pity
I don't understand why
Pity took over my life
But I want to change that now
I taught myself to love
Love should come naturally
But not like that
Never like that
To teach yourself love is a problem
I wish I could be like Momiji
Not the family issues
But the happiness
Saying things truthfully
Not minding who hears
Having no selfish desire
Than to be loved himself
Or Haru
Who doesn't mind what the public says
He just takes it
Straight honest face
And if there's a problem
He confronts it
He attacks people
I, I think I've done a bad thing
I've manipulated people for so long
To have myself feeling good
I've pushed them down and abused them
Some days my reflection scares me
I have my mother
Some of the Sohma's don't even have that
And yet they feel like kids in a game
I treasure the moments
When I used to go to a place
With nothing at all to do
Just to be able to talk to Kyo
But that's where things went wrong
I slowed down
I
manipulated
I've run water over my face so many times
But it's not yet clean
What I'd like this year
Is a fresh start
An honest heart
And most importantly
A clean face
Kagura Sohma