Littlesweetcupcake: The phrase 'buzz you up' means like if your in an apartment building and someone comes to visit you, then they have to push your apartment numberon this 'panel thingy' and you can 'buzz' them in by a button you will have by your apartment door. It makes it a little more safe and blah blah...not all apartments have this, but most apartments in the upper northwest do, as well as various other places but especially in places like, Chicago, New York and blah, blah blah. Ha! didn't think I would be able to explain it. Hope you get it now. :)

Samness: Yeah that's true she would push him away...usually, but usually she is never raped. She is strong but she's not superman...er...a...woman :) But don't worry, she will...lets say, get to her old self soon. :)

Coolbyme: Yeah I do need a beta, can't find one though...unless you are volunteering to be my beta:)If you are or know any beta's please email me about it. Email is on my profile.

Chapter 11: Kathy's demise of hope

Kathy's POV

Going up the elevator that went up three levels, Lizzie glanced up at me. Could she really see what I was feeling, my despair, my loss, my sadness.

And to think how many times has Elliot escorted Olivia up and down this very elevator?

Did he ever escort her further than her apartment doors?

These thoughts and more constantly haunted my every waking moment and sleeping ones as well. So help me God if I find them lying in bed together, well lets just say, Lizzie will be going to a different room. Ha!

That little whore. She could have any guy she wanted, she knew it and Elliot knew it. But that wasn't good enough, Olivia just had to have her husband.

The moment I saw Olivia almost six years ago, I knew there would be problems but never like this. I loved Elliot and still do.

I finally figured out the answer to my seemingly unsolveable question. Am I still in love with him? Yes I believe I am. I'm willing to do anything to keep our family together, keep our love assembled.

But I am so worried that he already moved on and just forgot about me. Well I should stop standing here like the mother of all idiots before Lizzie notices.

Looking up, she glanced toward my eyes. All I could do was smile before stepping out into Olivia's hall. The hall which stole my husbands' love from me.

Slowly advancing down the neatly decored halls,I found the infamous room number: 150.

KNOCK,KNOCK,KNOCK.

The door opened to a tall man, Elliot Stabler. Thankful for him to have his shirt tucked in, we casually, very casually, exchanged greetings.

"Hello Elliot. How are you?" I said.

"Well, I am ok, you?" He said, obviously through anger.But as Lizzie entered the room, his face lit up like a wildfire.

"Hello, Lizzie, so happy to see you. I have missed you soo much." Elliot said swooping her up in his muscular arms.

"Hey Daddy. I left my skirt over here a month or so ago, just remembered about it today. Tommorow's dress up day at school." She excitedly said coming into the room, closing the door.

"Oh hi Ol..ivia. Are you okay?" Lizzie stuttered, she only thought Olivia had been shot. But when she saw her, she was so unprepared. Olivia carried bruises and her broken arm. Her dad had been around this stuff a good while but she was never around it. And seeing it happen to someone she thought of as an older sister, a friend, came as a kind of double punch to her.

She didn't know what to say or think for that matter. And Olivia saw this.

"Its allright Lizzie, your things are in the back room." Liv said too tired to make any real conversation.

OLIVIA'S POV

I never expected to see Kathy here. I now I heard El, speak something of her but these meds., got me so drugged. I swear if she gives me any crap, and I do mean any, then wow, I will release such a wrath on her that she has never seen before. Well at least not seen in me.

I will apologize to Elliot after maybe but now since they are seperated, there is nothing to keep me from speaking my mind. But not to make any predictions and for it to turn into a bad predicament I will just act ever so nonchalantly.

Not even looking m way Kathy just kept making small talk with elliot. As she was doin so, I could see a pained expression on his face.

"You know we should have lunch sometimes or something like that, dinner maybe."Kathy said. She was trying so hard and failing miserably.

"I don't think that is best right now Kathy, time will not allow for that. I have to take care of Olivia. Maybe some other time." He said as if he just dodged a bullet.

"Oh, yes, hello Olivia, I hope my husband is making you more comfortable."

"Of course he is. Never felt so comfortable before." I said playing her little game. Next thing I saw, was Kathy's face scrunching up in utter disgust. I tried so hard to hold back my laughter. Who would of known that all this time, over six years, that Kathy Stabler was jealous over me?

"What? You little whore!" Changing her eyes from me to Elliot she adressed him. " Not even a month after our seperation and your sleeping with that bitch!"

"Don't you dare call Liv a bitch! You know what I walked into that night of our seperation?" Elliot paused as I broke in. I was going to enjoy this. But I never in a trillion years would think that Elliot would defend me against his own wife! Well, her loss is my gain, ha!

"Its okay El, I haveheard it plenty before. But I don't believe you have room to call me that Kathy. Maybe you just don't realize that you in fact are the bitch. Not that its any of your buisness, but El and I are not together. But if your that insecure and want to think that's the reason why Elliot doesn't want to come back to you, then go ahead think that. But El, remained faithful to you the whole time of your marriage. And my God, if he didn't love you then I don't know what it was. He was crazy about you. I can tell you now that if you and El go to court then you most certainly will not gain custody of your children, at least not full custody." I finished, slightly out of breath but I tried not to show my signs of weakness in front of her.

Completly shocked and wordless, Kathy just stared.

"What have you been talking to her about El?"

"Everything, Kathy, and don't you call me El, you lost that priveledge a long time ago. Olivia is my best friend, my partner of 6 years and Ilo...care for her a lot." He stumbled across his feelings for me almost revealing his true feelings for me which I know I am not ready to hear about yet.

NO MORE POV

Elliot could see the pain in Oliva, both physical and mental. Kathy had to leave and he had to figure out how to do it.

Lizzie just came from the back room and walked to her mother's side.

"I think it would be best for you to leave Kathy." Elliot spoke, turning to the door to show her out. He was mad at Kathy not at Lizzie so he picked his little girl up to kiss goodbye,"I will see you soon, Ok Lizzie. I love you."

Everything was silent for a good while after Kathy left. All Elliot and Olivia could do, was look into each others' eyes. Until one of them broke the silence.

"I'm sorry El, I didn't mean to snap like that. She is just so...so unbelieveable. Don't know how you could stand her all those years. She basically has been playing you. And now she wants to talk to you and try to get back together with you. Have you asked yourself why yet? Its not because she loves you because if she did, she would not have been in bed, your bed, with another guy. She knows if she can get you back that you will always stay there, that you will always be that one constant in her life. She wants you back for security El, not love."

Elliots eyes hit the floor after her statement. What he had been trying to figure out for years took his partner only mere minutes to find. "Yeah, I guess your right."

"When am I not right?"

Though her face was full of laughter, Elliot could still see the pain shining in her eyes. He stepped closer to sit by her. Removing his coat, he sat only for her faint smile to be washed away. She knew what was coming. And she knew she needed to talk about it. Elliot was just the person to talk about it with.

Okay, I know everyone wants longer chapters...but It was going to be long but then it morphed into something else while I was writing it. So...here comes the EO in the next chapter. But I will need at least 35 reviews for you to get the 12th chapter. Trust me it will be good...I hope. :)

CoryS!