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A/N: I'm sorry if you're going to hate this chapter but I'm depressed and it's showing in here…it's shorter then the rest but I like it that way…

Chapter Five

Mr. Sandmen Lend Me a Dream

His heart was throbbing in his ribcage the pain was spreading all over his body as he laid on his bed. He shut his eyes so hard that he felt his eye balls being pushed inside his skull. Questions and images ran in his mind. Was it that he wasn't paying enough attention? Or wasn't he giving enough affection? Another pang of pain shot threw his body. This time it was far stronger then the ones before.

"AHHHH!" he heard his voice echo in his bedroom but he felt like it wasn't his body on fire. In agony. "AHHHHHHH!"

He saw Dumbledore begging for his life as Snape draw his wand then it changed and he saw Sirius falling through the veil and then it stabilized in a picture that hunted him frequently, Ginny curled up on the floor crying and begging for him to stay and then a new one it was Ginny again but she was lying on her bed with her wrists sliced open and blood gushing on her body.

"No Please! Take it! Take it away from me!" he twisted and turned in his soaking sweaty covers. "ARRRRRRGGGGGGGG! MAKE IT STOP!" he felt his own blood gushing out of his veins.

A sound of hurried footsteps and the bedroom door opened with a loud bang as Hermione rushed in and found him twitching violently in his bed. "Harry?" she said in awe struck whisper and approached him with precaution. "Harry I'm going to get help."

"NO!" and he grabbed her arm in a firm grip and opened his eyes. "No!" he tightened his grip on her arm bolted from his wet covers. "What are you doing here?"

"I-I…Harry I heard you scream." She swallowed hard and tried to release her arm from his hold. "And then I came and I saw you I thought you were having a seizure or something."

"I don't need your help!" he freed her arm and got up from the bed. "Stop looking at me like that!"

"Harry please, I'm just trying to help you." She fallowed him as he made his way to the bathroom. "I can't bear to hear you scream like that almost every night why won't you let talk to someone-" but before she could finish her sentence Harry shut the bathroom door in her face.

He washed his face in the sink. The cool water helped his boiling body to relax and he stood up to look at himself in the mirror. He had bags under his eyes completed with black circulars. He was losing weight again and the color that he regained was not there once more.

He slowly opened the medicine cabinet and took out the all too familiar small bottle and slowly opened it. He took out two little white pills and stared at them. "I thought I got rid of you, I guess you're here to stay aren't you?" he spoke in a hoarse broken voice. "You couldn't leave me alone? I was finally on the right track and on the night I finally get that one chance and blew it you claim your spot." He wanted to crash those two little pills to feel his hand close on them and to crash them and then to feel his fingernails dig in his flash. Just to know that he was alive.

"Well, a long time ago we used to be friends." He had an ironic smile the one that only people of his kind were allowed to have, so he thought. "You missed me didn't you? Admit it." He waited for an answer. "I forgot, pills aren't supposed to speak but its okay. You're among friends." He smiled again and then in a quick movement he took the pills inside his mouth and bucked his head to help himself to swallow better.

He washed his face once more and when he felt he was ready he unlocked the door and opened it to find Hermione finishing changing his sheets and covers. "It's okay Hermione, you can go back to bed I'm fine now." he smiled at her but she shuddered at it.

"Are you sure because if not I can take you to St.Mungo's." but Harry shushed her and showed her the way out.

"I'm fine don't worry it's not good for you to worry not in your condition." And he rubbed her stomach. "Now go to bed I'll be okay and thank you."

"Are absolutely positive-"

"I am now goodnight." And he shut the door behind her and retrieved to his newly made bed. "I'm finally fine, Hermione. Never better." He said in shallow voice and fell to dreamless sleep.

A/N: thank you for reading I really appreciate it.

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