Prologue.
Serena set on the chair above her computer and start to write. To write a letter, a letter which may be will never get an answer. Her long brown hair was left down and her beautiful grey eyes was dazing somewhere in the thin air which was apparently nothing. Long pale fingers were squeezing a silver pen, her mind was not definitely here. On the table was laying a piece of black paper. At last she start to write very slow like she was trying to memorise every single word she was writing on the paper:
" I love you. Yes, I love you from the first time I saw you. Do you remember the first time I saw you? It was 5 years ago when I first arrive in our school, when I was fifteen. I was so afraid : new school, new friends, new life. And when I saw you, and I forgot about my fears, I saw in your face an old friend whom I was not remembering but was caring dearly. But lets go on, it is happy and painful memories at the same time.
I know you love another woman, I knew it from the start. You do not love me or care about me, but it is OK. I can understand why, I am not beautiful or very smart, I am a klutz and sometimes too shy, too silent to notice me. Three days ago I had a hope, one single hope in my heart that you will notice me and will love me, like I do, in return. For five years I was believing in this crap, yes now it is crap for me because I found out that you will marry someone, someone I know so well and sure I love her as much as you do. I was surprised in the first, I was surprised then she said "yes". I know she is not in love with you, she told me this so many times this, that I was sick of it. Really I was sick from my jealousy, but with time I understood that you loved her and was happy with her on your side. I know you are happy even now, and then you are happy I am happy too, did you knew this? No, I am sure you did not knew this, you even do not notice that I care about you, of course it was my fault I was trying so hard to hide it from you; I was afraid that if you find out this, you would laugh at me and reject me. Who am I kidding? I am still afraid and of course you will never find out that I love you. This letter supposed to go in fireplace in my apartment. I just want to tell someone about my feelings. You know then I was little I was dreaming about a life, a life like fairytale. Where was a prince, my charming prince and I was the beautiful princess; when I grow up you was this prince but I wasn't a princess anymore I am princess's lady-in-waiting, the princess is now your future wife, she deserves you and I don't. Now, with my heart broken I will be live in this cold world without love, without friends, without you. You will never read this letter but now I am feeling better and I am ready to go out of my illusion and I hope I can make it. 'Hope' this is strange; I thought I lost it and I did, now I realize that I have nothing left. But I don't blame you or your beloved one, you and she was the most beautiful thing that happened to me in my whole life. Yes, Darien you were and I want you "to know" that I will always love you, silently but I will, no matter what happens I will be always there for you...and her."
Serena stood up and went in bathroom the letter left on the table. She quickly filled the bathroom with hot water and removed the jeans and blue T-shirt she was wearing. Serena jumped in the bathroom and closed her eyes trying to relax but the thoughts of the young man was hunting her, the images of him: laughing, smiling, serious, mad, sad. She knew him so well and he was always so cute; even if he did not knew her so well…or is it just her imagination? Serena got angry of herself and shouted "Urgh! I can't take it anymore, I must go out to talk to someone!" she climbed out of the bath taking a towel on her way she went toward the door which was the only thing white colored in this "pink-type" bathroom, but stopped in the middle of the room "Where am I thinking I going without my bathroom suit!...And why this room is so damn pink!" Serena snapped with anger and tears started to fall from her eyes, collapsed on her knees and started to sob "Please stop it! Please you promise you want cry about it! Please it is not worth it! … but he worth it, he worth even more than me." At the time then Serena was crying in bathroom in the hall started to ring her phone. Serena stopped to sob and silently went to the hall and took the phone.
"Serena here." She said trying to calm herself.
"Hey, Serena it is me! I want to talk to you, can you come to our usual place?" answer a cheerful voice. A warm smile crossed Serena's face.
"Hi Star, is it really so important? I am not in the mood right now." replied Serena looking in the mirror above her; the reflection showed a girl with wet brown hair, pale skin and almost red eyes.
"What happen? Is it something about John?" asked Star.
"Yes…Something like that…we had a little fight, that's all." Serena lied about her "false" boyfriend.
"Oh! I am so sorry Sere. But it is really important for me and I hope for you too, can you just come to arcade? Please?" she begged her friend knowing that she wouldn't resist her BEST friend in whole world.
"OK, where are you now? Are you in arcade?" asked Serena a little bit annoyed with Star.
"Yes, can you make it? In 30 minutes? What do you say?" happy voice of Star rang on the phone.
"That's fine with me, I will be there in 30 minutes." With this words Serena hang up the phone and went to her room, in the room she saw the letter she wanted to burn; but now it is just don't seems right, she took it and place it in the closet under the big white box with huge red bow and a little card saying: "To Darien and Star, on their wedding day. With love Serena."