Yes, I do love Ashlee Simpson's songs. They're good. If anyone has any good Jemma songs, tell me the name and artist. I'll check them out. :)

This is a small chapter. I was going to add more, but instead I'll post it and start on another chapter. Enjoy

Love Ridden

Chapter Thirteen

Eyes Wide Open

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Emma woke up early the next morning. When she opened her eyes, she was confused. She didn't know how she got to her room. Then she remembered, Jay had come over. He saw the cuts. She sat up quickly and laying next to her in bed, was Jay. Sound asleep. She quietly got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. She pulled up her sleeves and noticed everything was cleaned and bandaged up. She sighed, 'Jay must have done it after I feel asleep.' She walked out of the bathroom and back to her room. Jay was awake now, sitting up against the headboard.

"Hi." She said as she got back in bed.

Jay sighed, "Don't hi me like nothing's wrong, Em."

"There's nothing wrong."

"So, you just cut the hell out of your arms for no reason?"

Emma let out a small laugh, "So, you were just in your room, almost naked with an almost naked girl for no reason?"

"Em, that has nothing to do with this."

"No, Jay. It has everything to do with it! You caused my pain. I caught you cheating on me! My release was watching my body bleed."

"It's not healthy. It's not even helping you deal with all the shit that goes in your head. If you keep avoiding things, they won't go away, they'll just get worse. Cutting yourself won't solve your problems."

"My problem, is you."

"And your parents moving, getting kicked out, then being allowed to leave here, on your own, with Manny. Getting followed by 3 guys. Getting beat up and almost raped in a van."

Emma laughed, "Where were you when I first started this, huh?" She yelled at him, getting out of bed.

"This wasn't the first time?"

"No. The first time was the morning after Jeff tried to rape me. I woke up and you were gone. I had to deal somehow. So, I cut." She pulled up her pant leg past her thigh. She was showing him her cuts that have recently turned to scars.

"Emma...promise me you'll stop."

"Promise me, you'll be there."

"I promise you Em. Whenever you need me, I'll be there."

She sighed, "I promise I won't do it again."

"Good. Now come here."

She shook her head, "No way. We still have to talk about what happened with Jessica."

"It was a big mistake. We were drunk. She came on to me. I didn't stop her. Then you came before anything else happened."

"Good thing I came by then."

"Yeah."

"Don't let it happen again. I know I'm going to be slapping myself if this happens again and I know I shouldn't forgive you. But, I love you and that's enough."

"I love you, too."

"Now, can we be together without anything happened?"

"I hope so."

Emma got back in the bed and laid down next to Jay.

I could hear her breathing
No one believed me
No one believed me
I could hear those voices
So decieving
So decieving

Cool wind on my face
Cool wind on my face

Do you know how it feels to be afraid
Lying there frozen
With my eyes wide open
Do you know how it feels to find a trace
Of words unspoken
With my eyes wide open
I know your secret
I can feel you calling
I know that you're there I know that you're there
Tell me all your memories
I'll keep them alive I'll keep them alive
Cool wind on my face
Cool wind on my face

I heard youI felt you
I know so what do you want from me

Cool wind on my face
Cool wind on my face
Cool wind on my face
Cool wind on my face

Song: Eyes Wide Open

Owned by: Ashlee Simpson