Love Ridden
Chapter Eighteen
Is It Love?
Wednesday, November 2, 2005
Emma sat in the waiting at the clinic. She let her feet swing back and forth, becoming impatient. Jay sat next to her, with his head against the wall. They were sitting there for twenty minutes. They cut school to go. Emma picked up a magazine and began to flip through it. A lady stepped out, "Nelson?"
Emma put the magazine down and stood up, "That's me."
Jay stood up and followed Emma and the lady in to a room. He took a seat.
The lady looked at Emma, "Change in to the gown on the table. The doctor will be right in." She left and closed the door.
Emma walked towards the table and began to unbutton her pants. She looked at Jay who was staring at her, "Do you mind?"
He laughed, "Em, you walked through your party naked."
She sighed, "Whatever." She took of her clothes and changed in to gown. She sat p on the table, waiting for the doctor.
There was a knock at the door and a young woman doctor walked in, "Hello. I'm Dr. Hardiman. You must be Emma."
Emma nodded and smiled, "Yep" She pointed at Jay, "That's my...That's Jay."
Dr. Hardiman walked over to Jay and shook his hand. She walked back to Emma, "So, what brings you here."
Emma sighed, "I'm late. I've missed two periods. I took a test and it was positive."
The doctor nodded, "Alright, let's do an ultra sound. Labs take too long. And I'm sure you're anxious to know."
Emma nodded.
"Alright, lay back." Emma did as she was told. Dr. Hardiman put a blanket over Emm's legs and pulled up the gown to show her stomach. She pulled out a bottle, "This will probably be cold." She squirted some on Emma's stomach. She brought of the sonogram machine. She put the transducer probe on Emma's stomach and moved it around over the gel, "This has a heart monitor built in to it. It's better. Gets things down quicker. Want me to turn it up so you can hear the heartbeat, if you are pregnant?"
Emma looked over to Jay and he walked over. He held her hand and she nodded.
Dr. Hardiman reached over and turned the sound on. Nothing could be heard except Emma's heart beat. She got closer to the monitor and continued to move the transducer probe around. She smiled slightly, "Well, I found something." A fast heartbeat filled the room.
Emma squeezed Jay's hand harder, "Is it.."
Dr. Hardiman nodded, "Yes. You're pregnant. See right there?" She pointed to the screen, "That's the baby's head."
Emma looked at the screen and then turned away. She started to cry. Jay laughed a little, he was in shock, "Wow."
Dr. Haridman hit print and then pushed the machine away, "Do you know what you want to do, Emma?"
Emma wiped away her tears, "No. I have no idea."
Dr. Hardiman wiped the gel off Emma's stomach and pulled the gown back down, "Well, you have a few options. One, is aborion. Two, is adoption and third keeping it."
"I need time. I need to think about it."
"Well, you have about two weeks to decide. After that, you only have two choices, adoption and keeping it."
Emma nodded and sat up, "Ok."
"Come back when you know. We're done here, so... you can get dressed and head out."
"Thank you."
Jay nodded, "Yeah, thank you."
Dr. Hardiman walked out and Jay passed Emma her clothes. She quietly got dressed. They walked out of the clinic and back to Jay's car. They drove to her house in silence. When they got there, Emma let out a sob, "This can't be happening. It can't. I don't know what I want to do!"
Jay brought her in to a hug, "Em, it's going to be ok. We'll get through this. Whatever you decide, I'll back you 100."
She pulled away from him, "What do you want to do?"
He shrugged, "I don't know."
"Thanks for the help."
"Let's just go inside."
"Fine." She got out and walked in to her house with Jay following behind.
Manny heard them come in and walked over to them, "Were have you guys been? You didn't go to school?"
Jay looked away and Emma sighed, "We were at the clinic."
Manny's jaw dropped and started hitting Jay, "You ass! You gave my friend another STD!"
Jay shook his head, "Ow! No...OW! I didn't! OW! Emma help!"
Emma pulled Manny away, "Manny, I'm pregnant."
Manny stopped and then looked at Jay. She gave him an evil look and started hitting him again, "That's enough worse!"
Jay backed in to the door, "You are so lucky I don't hit girls!"
Emma pulled her back again, "Manny, stop."
Manny took a deep breath, "Ok. I'm done. What are you gonna do?"
Emma shrugged, "No idea."
Manny pulled her in to a hug, "It'll be ok."
Emma pushed her away, "Will people stop saying it'll be ok? How will it be ok? I get an abortion, I go against what I believe me. I put it up for adoption, I wonder my whole life what it's doing. I have it, I ruin my life. None of them is ok!" Emma ran up the stairs to her room slamming the door.
Chorus:
Is it love, or just a curse
Do you feel good when I hurt
I need your heart to open up
If this love's not real, then it's just my luck
Mommy help me, I need your help
This little boy, he took my love
And he says these things that make my body pump up
But then he runs leavin me un-doneAnd I don't understand
For sex he said he'd be my man
Repeat Chorus
Daddy listen, I gave it up
I'm not your little girl
My cherry, and all the trust is missing
But please listen, what do I do
I know you wanna hurt him
But I like what he do, he's only doin what you used to
Repeat Chorus
You never told me bout the birds and the bees
Or bout hide n' go seek or what he gets when he finds me
The biggest mistakes in the choices I make
Won't you help me decide, what's goin down in my mind
Repeat Chorus 2x
That thing you're puttin on me
Has got me so confused
Won't somebody help me, tell me what should I do
In my heart it feels so good, is it just a curse
Will it get better, or will it get worse
Repeat Chorus To Fade
Song: Is it love?
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