Ok heres the dealio...I'm going to be posting some small chapters in order to get a few out a night. OK? Ok. BTW this is ending soon.

Love Ridden

Chapter Twenty

Because I Can

Jay walked in to the quiet hospital room that Emma was in. He gently closed the door and walked over to the bed. He sat in the chair that was next to the bed. He stared at her. He looked at the peacefulness of her face. His eyes then went to her stomach. There was no longer a baby. He felt relief for that, but also anger towards Jeff and to Emma for going back to the Ravine. He closed his eyes and clenched his fist. He took a few deep breaths, trying to calm down. He sighed and then opened his eyes again. She looked so still. So perfect. As if a huge burden had been lifted off of her. He knew she hadn't been sleeping well. She most have welcomed that rest with open arms.

He put a hand on top of hers. He whispered, "Em, what were you doing? I know you weren't sure about...about the baby. You didn't have to do this." He wiped a tear from his eye, "I'm sorry for this whole year. From the play, to now. I should have left you alone. None of this would have happened." He squeezed her hand, "I'm going to go away, for a little while. I'm going to give you time to think about your life. You need to. I'll know if you ever really need me. Manny, Alex and Sean will be here for you. I just...I'm sorry. I love you." He stood up and kissed her forehead. He opened the door to leave. He walked out letting the door close behind him.

A few minutes later, Emma's eyes fluttered open, "Jay?" She looked around, but no one was there. She sighed and fell back to sleep. The next day, she woke up to Manny and Alex talking next to her bed, "Hey guys," she said in a hoarse voice.

Manny smiled, "Em! You're awake!"

Emma smiled, "Yeah."

Alex looked away and then back to her, "You can be dumb sometimes, Emma."

"I know, Lex. I know...Speaking of dumb, where's Jay?"

Manny and Alex looked at each other and didn't say anything.

"Guys, where is he?"

Manny sighed, "We don't know."

Alex stood up, "He just said he wanted to give you space..."

Emma started to cry, "I can't fucking believe him! I need him so bad right now."

Manny put a hand on Emma's shoulder, "I know. He'll be back though. He loves you too much to stay away."

Emma sighed, "Can you guys just leave me alone for now? I want to be alone."

They both nodded and left the room. Emma looked down at her stomach and then remembered she lost the baby, "I'm so stupid."

I keep on looking through the looking glass
And I want to fall on through
Out of the real world to a happy day
Out of the wreckage that I do

I keep on dreaming because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on tripping because its free to a place I only know
I keep on dreaming because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on slipping out of this life

Still my hand won't go to the other side
My boney fingers stay locked here
The glass is cold when I touch my face
But I can taste my salty tears

I keep on dreamin because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on trippin because its free to a place I only know
I keep on dreamin because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on slippin out of this life waiting for the drapes to close

Mirror mirror won't you kiss my cheek
And tell me I'll be oK
And warm my spirit with your sugar lips
And help me wait for another day

Song: Because I can

Owned By: Katy Rose