Pleasure and Pain Chapter 7: Without You, a that's so raven fanfic

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Here's a song to set the mood for Eddie's big scene:

"Without You"- Charlie Wilson

It feels like a lifetime,
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right
Nw you're so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I'll always stay

Girl, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine,
Sun doesn't shine without you

This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there's no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you're so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you

Eddie walked slowly upstairs, still trying to maintain his heart-rate. He knocked lightly on her door, she didn't answer so he walked in.

"Eddie?" she said. "Yea, how'd you know it was me?" Eddie said wondering how she knew. "I--I just did. Well, atleast I was hoping it was you because I wanna talk." she confessed. "Good, because I'm ready Rae" he said

"Well, there's almost nothing for you to be ready for, since I heard almost everything you needed to say. I don't get why you couldn't just come to me, are we not close enough?" she said rising to her feet. "Rae, I never mean to keep anything from you, but have you any idea how hard it is for me to confess this to you being that I've grown up with you and we've been through so much together. This would mean a drastic change in the way we feel for each other..."

"We...?" Raven felt a pause, and she was puzzled at how he got the idea that she felt the way he did...

"Yes Rae, we." he said, feeling that he lost her at the 'we'. "I--you do feel the same, right?" Please God let her feel the same, I can't stand the fact of being in love alone...

"Eddie, you don't think you're jumping the gun a bit" Raven said feeling a bit cold about it. "I haven't confessed any feelings for you momentarily and it's really not a good time." Eddie's heart was breaking with each word.

"It's a good time as any."

He stepped closer.

"Rae, stand here and tell me you don't feel anything for me..." he said with tears almost forming in his eyes. Raven felt so horrible about it, she couldn't look him in his eyes. Eddie reached and lifted her chin with his finger, as he felt tears from her eyes roll down his hand. "Rae, tell me you don't love me and I'll go. I'll never bring it up again." He said, his heart tugging at him to leave, but his feet wouldn't step any further away from her.

He moved in closer, "Raven, I have never felt like this before. You pass me and your scent makes wana grab you and pull you closer...," Eddie pulled Raven close to him, and wrapped one arm around her waist, "I get weak at the site of you Rae, I wanna be your protection, your lover but most of all your best friend."

Raven couldn't utter a word, she just cried and stood still, allowing his embrace.

"Everything about you, the way your eyes shimmer when you're happy, the way you look when you're sad. I can't help my self Rae, I--I'm in love with you...and I couldn't do anything without you." Eddie slid his free hand behind Raven's kneck and softly pressed against her lips. Raven still speechless and motionless.

She finally was able to snap out of her lifeless state, she pushed Eddie away from her and hung her head low, knowing what she was about to say would really hurt him. She loved him, but just couldn't take on any more than she already was.

"Ed--I--," she wanted to! She just couldn't...but in due time. "I think you should go, I think I've been through enough already and I can't bare a love triangle.

This infuriated Eddie, his heart immediately shattered. "I don't get it Rae! You push someone away who loves you to no depth, but you seem do forgive and accept anything from a mutherfucka who couldn't care anymore about you than satisfying his self!" She never saw Eddie so upset, she hated herself for making him feel so horrible. Eddie felt tears build in his eyes, but he fought the pain inside himself.

"Rae I would do anything for you and I don't understand what it is that's keeping you so far from me...I feel like I'm losing you. The way I look at you and make you feel, is that not enough?" he begged.

She wanted to hold him and just lay with him all night.

"Eddie, you just don't understand" she said as her tear drops became larger and carried even more of a burden then ever before. She might be losing a lover and more than that...her best friend... "No Rae, I understand, I just don't think you do." With that he walked out, and she didn't know if it was forever. All Raven could do was lay in her bed and cry.

Hope you guys are liking this update, I'm trying so hard to bring my readers back. I also hope I'm hitting some soft spots, tell me you need more or if the writting is just right! More updates later, gotta work.

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