I hate her - I love her.

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One shot… It is a fragment of a larger fic. actually. But it will take some time to translate the whole thing into English…. If you'll like this, then you'll probably like the bigger fic.


-"Stop! In the name of Helm I shall strike you down!"- that pitiful knight… always shouting, always proclaiming something…. My strike is swift and merciless…..Anomen flies aside and lands on the floor motionless. Is he dead? Why should I care? So close now…so close. The green column of light ahead is just within reach now.

-"Stop him! He's out of his mind!"- was that Nalia's voice? It probably was. The young sorceress always tried to command people around her – a trait inherited with the blood of noble that flowed within her veins. I continue to walk even as I hear the sounds of pursuit and shouts of my former comrades behind me…. They try desperately to stop me, lead by that shortsighted fool that I once called my brother, following his example as a champion of light like blind cattle. But not me… I alone saw the potential within our blood where everyone else saw only damnation. It saddens me to see Imoen amongst my pursuers. Unlike Darris she was not a stubborn do-gooder, she could have seen the reason behind my actions…. But no….She followed my brother instead of me, just like every one of my so-called "friends".

A magic missile strikes me in the right shoulder….useless…my magic protection is absolute. But I stop. I then turn to face them. Only five of them left now, with that brash fool Anomen lying on the floor soaked with his own blood. I face them without fear. I am powerful enough to destroy any of them now and they know it as well as I do.

They look at me their weapons ready their eyes wide with terror and disgust. I enjoy it….

Then I see her… She stands with them just as she did back in Saradush. Aerie of all why have even you betrayed me? After all I have done for you, you still choose to follow my brother instead of me! The thought and memory of how she abandoned me when I needed her most fills me with rage….I want to kill them all, I want to see them bleed to death, destroy them, break them, see them beg for mercy, whatever it takes to bring as much harm for them as possible!

-" And it ends here brother! I alone and the five of you! How very fair…."- I say and even in my own voice I hear the hatred that fills me…

-" You have chosen your path yourself, Alfain….It saddens me that you fell as low as you have."- Darris steps a bit forward, his sword, the legendary Carsomyr held high.

-" So be it….- I answer – Which one of you will be first? Or do you choose to attack me at all at once?"

-"Wait!- Aerie suddenly steps forward – It is not too late Alfain. It is not too late to turn back. Everybody has their right for salvation….You…you can still return to us."- I look at her as she speaks…and only then I realize how strong she became since the first time I saw her….The little girl has finally grown up….And deep within my soul I feel that I still love her…But then the anger returns. Love her! No! NO! I hate her! I HATE HER JUST AS I HATE ALL OF THEM! She must die! She must suffer just like everyone else! And I will make her suffer….

Without saying another word I take out my sword, Gram the ancient blade of Grief and step forward to face my destiny……………………….


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