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Chapter 3: Arguments and Bloody Tears
As Natalya and Raini walked up to breakfast the next morning (they had gone out like a light that evening), Raini couldn't help teasing Natalya...
"You like him..."
"Shush, will you!" Natalya muttered through gritted teeth as fellow students walked past.
"You soooooo do!" Raini giggled
"And you're soooooo gonna get a slap if you don't shush!"
Raini laughed...
"Ooh, did I hear correctly that my little friend Natalya has a crush?" Paige whispered as she came up behind Natalya, making her jump...
"Oh, don't you bloody start as well Paige!"
"Its Professor Mc..."
"Oh shut up, I've known you me whole life you daft cow..." Natalya laughed
"Ok, then, but in classes..."
"Professor McGowan, yah di yah da yah..."
"Yes, well done, now, who do you like? Ooh, I think I know!" Paige giggled, sounding very much like Raini.
"Only coz he hasn't judged me and Raini and he knows about our pasts... and, he hasn't put me on a blasted pedestal like everyone else does... coz I'm a Ruichi-bloody-ano..." Natalya said as she rolled her eyes...
"Fair enough... I'll drop hints to him..." Paige said, and then burst out laughing at the look of horror on Natalya's face.
"No. You. Will. Not!" Natalya said in a rather high pitched voice, causing a few 1st years to turn round as they went through the doors of the Great Hall.
"Course I won't Tali... See you two later..." Paige winked as she went to the staff table.
Raini burst out laughing...
"What's so funny?" Harry asked as he sat down next to Raini
"The lovely Raini, is winding me up... again..." Natalya said, pursing her lips slightly as put a piece of toast on her plate.
"Is that all you're having!" Lavender Brown asked her, looking positively shocked at how little Natalya was eating.
"Well, it's what I eat every morning, so I was planning on it, yes..." Natalya said, grinning.
"You'll only be hungry..."
"Later on? Probably... but there's always lunch and dinner... so, I'll survive" Natalya answered back before Lavender could finish her sentence. She then got up in a huff and walked off.
Raini burst out laughing...
"God you're cruel..."
"Did you see the look she gave us at the Welcoming Feast yesterday though?" Natalya explained
"She deserved that, Tali..." Harry whispered, chuckling slightly.
"Yeah well... I'm not someone to be messed with," grinned Natalya.
"Anyways... First lesson... Hhmmm, Potions... Ooh, what's Se - Professor Snape like in class?" Raini asked
The look on Harry's face said it all, he raised his eyebrows and looked directly over his glasses as if to say 'there's no way I'm answering that pathetic question'
"Fine, don't answer... we'll see..." Raini said, laughing, as she and Natalya walked to Potions.
...Meanwhile...
Oh god... Natalya's in this class... damn... calm down Severus... oh dear, not now... why does she make me feel funny inside, and especially... 'ahem' ... great...
"Erm, Professor? Can we come in?" Natalya asked as she knocked on the door
Shit, is that the time already! Calm, Severus... Calm...
"Yes, class, do come in." Professor Snape replied, in a rather sharp tone.
"Right, class... calm down! The instructions are on the board... Get to work."
The class was more or less working in silence as everyone worked on their potions... until...
BANG!
"MALFOY YOU PRICK! WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE PLAYING AT!" Natalya shouted as Draco threw an extra ingredient into Natalya's potion, which was going better than his...
"20 points from Gryffindor Miss Ruichiano for foul language." Snape drawled.
"Excuse me! I swear and I get 20 points taken off me, HE throws stuff in my cauldron and gets fuck all! That's unfair!" Natalya shouted
"A further 20 deducted for being rude to a..."
"Fuck you Snape! Side with your own fucking house you sadistic bastard!" Natalya shouted as she picked up her stuff and ran out of the class.. The class burst into chatter…
"CLASS, BE QUIET!" Snape shouted.
"Professor McGowan!" He shouted as he threw floo powder into the fire...
"Is everything ok, Professor?" Paige asked.
"Watch the class for me please, don't know how long I will be." Snape said rather rudely as he helped Paige through the fire and walked out of the classroom.
"FUCK YOU SNAPE!" Natalya screamed as she sat down in the deserted toilets
"Oooh, don't shout like that..." Moaning Myrtle whispered
"Oh shut up... leave me alone." Natalya shouted as she locked herself in an empty cubicle.
"Where is it?" Natalya whispered as tears flowed down her cheeks as she rummaged through her bag.
"Aha, my pen-knife..." She whispered as she put the knife to her skin and made the first deep cut.
"WHY DID YOU ACT LIKE THAT YOU BASTARD! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE THERE FOR ME!" Natalya screamed as she cut again and again
"FUCK YOU! I'M ENDING ALL THIS NOW! NO MORE HURTING!" She carried on shouting as her tears mixed with her cuts... a cut on her face, on her chest, and several on her arm before she fainted...
"NATALYA! Where are you! Oh shit, what have I done!" Severus shouted
"Leave her alone, you've done enough damage you evil man!" Myrtle shouted at Severus
"Oh, sod off Myrtle... where is she!" Severus asked as he walked up to the cubicles and opened each door...
"Oh my god! Natalya! Shit, wake up... wake up! Enervate!" Severus said very worriedly
Natalya stirred
"Huh? Professor... what?" Natalya muttered.
"Oh god... I'm so sorry Tali... please forgive me... god I'm a prat, no wonder no-one likes me... I'm so, so sorry" Severus whispered as Natalya flung her arms round him as he too started to cry.
"I really should watch my own house in future, shouldn't I?" He chuckled
Natalya nodded, and smiled.
"Come on, back to my quarters, I'll sort you out there..." He said as he picked her up and carried her to his quarters.
When they got to Severus' (and Natalya and Raini's) quarters, he placed her down gently on the sofa.
"Now, show me, where have you cut? I can see the one on your face... where else?" Severus asked soothingly...
Natalya rolled up both her sleeves, and then pointed to where her heart was.
"You tried... to... oh my god... what have I done?"
Natalya hung her head in shame, but it was soon lifted up by Severus, who used his thumb to wipe her tears away and whispered
"I'm so sorry Natalya... I didn't realise you... did this... I'm going to get a balm for your cuts. I won't be a second... Stay there."
Literally, 2 seconds later, Severus was back, holding a purple vial in his hand and taking the top off it.
"Now, let me see those cuts of yours...(Natalya held out her arms) Holy shit Natalya, these are deep...I'm not surprised you fainted... This won't hurt, I promise." Severus soothed as he rubbed the balm onto Natalya's arms, which immediately stopped bleeding and scabbed over.
"You'll have to put this on for a week so there's no scarring, ok?"... Natalya nodded.
Once the cuts on her arms and face had been done, Severus looked at Natalya and raised his eyebrow...
"You do realise, you're going to have to unbutton your shirt..." Natalya was already a step ahead of him.
Severus gulped... Natalya blushed
"I can call Professor McGowan if you want her to..." Severus was broke off by Natalya kissing him. She broke off and looked embarrassed...
"You call that a kiss Miss Ruichiano? I'll show you what a kiss is..." Severus whispered as he leant in and their lips met again. Severus trailed his tongue over Natalya's bottom lip, and she opened her mouth slowly as his tongue met hers, dancing and exploring each other's mouths...
"Now... That's what you call a kiss..." Severus whispered, chuckling at the look of sheer disappointment on Natalya's face
"Erm... you never did sort out the cut on my chest..."
"I'm about to do that now... stop giggling!"
"I'm ticklish!" Natalya squealed as Severus hit a ticklish spot.
"There... done."
"Oh, ok... Erm... you do realise it's like, dinnertime? As in evening... as in, we've been doing this all day..."
"Yes, I did notice, Tali... I can get Dobby the House Elf to bring us some food if you like..." Severus asked
"Erm, yeah, that'd be nice..."
About half an hour later, Severus and Natalya were just finishing their dinner when…
"That's where you'd got to...Bloody hell Tali, you got us worried!" Raini shouted
"I did tell you she was with..." Paige interrupted
"Worried sick I was! Not in the hospital wing, not at lunch, OR DINNER!" Raini carried on, sounding remarkably like Mrs Weasley.
"SHUT UP!" Paige shouted. Raini immediately went quiet.
"Raini, I told you, she. Was. With. Severus... bloody hell..." Paige said, rolling her eyes.
"I... sorry... erm... why you two holding hands?" Raini asked, as Severus had realised he had put his hand on top of Natalya's...
"You two?"
Severus nodded.
"But? Isn't that?"
"Against the rules, no, there are loopholes, not surprisingly... And all we've done is kiss and hug. No rules broken." Severus explained as Raini breathed a sigh of relief.
"Since when do you care about the rules?" Natalya asked Raini, looking rather concerned.
"Well... since, well... I dunno... just don't want anyone to get into trouble, that's all... You included Sev." Raini smiled.
"Why thank you..."
"You're never right in the head..." Natalya chuckled
"Nope, I'm all left in the head... Anyways, I'm getting an early night... Night lovebirds..." Raini giggled as Natalya went to slap her as she walked past.
Natalya raised her eyebrows...
"She's your friend..." Paige laughed.
"I know... I know..." Natalya sighed.
"What's wrong?" Severus asked
"I dunno... I just, feel I've known you my whole life..."
"Well, you technically have... Although your mother didn't approve of mine becoming a Death Eater...Hhmmm...".
"She what? You what?"