Chapter 13: Don't Love Me Please

The weather was painfully cold on that awkward November day was Jake walked with Alex holding hands down the block. His hair was tucked tight under a hat, which on ontop of the hood from his sweater. He had several layers on, due to the fact that his flushed cheeks obviously pointed out how sick he really was. He tugged on Alex's sleeve slowly. Alex would remember that tug for the rest of his life after the words that followed.

"What's wrong?" Alex asked, worried.

"I love you" Jake stated plainly and Alex's heart stopped.

"What?"

"I said I love you" Jake repeated again slowly, trying to figure out what to say next.

Alex caught him off guard," Why?"

" Why?" Jake repeated.

"Yeah, why do you love me?"

He thought for a second." I don't know"

Alex suddenly began to cry, just a little bit.

"No…wait, what did I say something wrong? Please Alex don't cry, I loath it deeply." Jake whispered, making Alex cry harder so he slapped him," Alex what the hell is wrong with you?"

Alex looked up with red stinging cheeks and touched the spot where Jake slapped him with broken eyes. Jake looked taken aback when he noticed that look and tried to step forwards," I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hit you. Damnit…why does this keep happening? I shouldn't have said anything" He sighed out in agitation as he walked over to a bench and sat down. Alex just stood there hugging himself, tears streaming down his eyes.

After a few minutes he ended up leaning against Jake and sobbing in his jacket," I love you too" was all he could say. Even though he really didn't want to. He really didn't want to feel anything at the moment but he did. A bad love, a burning love. Something sharp that sent darts of dark fantastic passion surging through his body, the only type of feeling that Jake knew how to give people.

And as much as he despised this feeling he loved it even more.

(I feel the emotion in that sentence from the day I wrote it and go" Wow" every time)

Andrew paced around as Robert sat in front of him and frowned," What's the matter now?"

"Your hair"

"What's the matter with my hair?" Andrew asked, touching his locks.

"It looks different. It's dyed midnight blue. Why?" Robert had a cold edge to his voice as Andrew shrugged," I always enjoyed this look, and I think it best fits my character, wouldn't you say so as well?"

"I want you to change it"

"What"

"I want you to change it. Right now. Go and wash that shit out of your hair" Robert sneered out as he walked out of the room, grabbing his coat.

"Why are you so dead set on making me wash this out? There's nothing wrong with the color…Robby--" Andrew yelled, running after him and catching him by the arm and turning him around," What the fuck has been your problem lately?"

Robert pulled his arms away as his cell phone rang. " Hello?" He asked, the phone making the tips of his ear freeze. " Oh hi." He deadpanned the whole reaction. " I know. Yes, I know….no it's not that…yes…yeah sure….I'm pretty sure he is fucked but that doesn't mean that….wait, who hit you…no…I knew it, I fucking knew it! I told you this was going to happen….I don't care how much he says he loves you….oh…you do?" Robert closed his eyes," I'll be there in a few minutes, don't move" He closed the phone

"Who was that?"

"A friend" Robert rushed past Andrew but he simply reached out and grabbed him again," What is going on between us? Why don't you like this hair color. Robert, you're starting to agitate me"

Robert wheeled on him." I'm agitating you?" He snorted, sighing as he remembered something

"Why is your hair like that Mikey?" Robert asked one day after Michael had wondered into the room with blueish black hair and dark circles under his eyes. Michael sighed tiredly, " I tried out for a drama major today, and I thought if I dyed my hair it'd be good luck. Adrian had his hair like that, and I'd like to think I still had something left of me with him. So I dyed it. I normally do it when I'm upset though…I don't know why"

"Just get rid of it before I get back home"

"Are you threatening me?"

Robert sneered out as he slammed the door," Yes"

(: rolls eyes, kicks Michael: )

Andy smiled as he braided Tilly's hair in the back of the car," So what's this I hear that you…of all people, have a boyfriend?" Tilly busted out laughing in disbelief," No…not Bri bri, he can't stay in a steady relationship. Dadd- Michael told me that himself"

Brian frowned," Even the kid's got a point…-- Hey Michael said what? And besides, it's not a big deal, he's always on the go, so it's not like I see him all the time anyway or anything. And that I'm still madly in love with Andy."

Andy stuck out his tongue," Cute, so how does he look?"

"Um…strong arms, tight build. Blue eyes, dark black hair. Has two brothers. Smexy as hell"

"Smexy?"

"Smutty and sexy" Brian nodded," Smexy"

"Sounds like a hottie"

"Well, he is" Brian shifted gears and then pulled onto the next highway.

" Do you have any clue where the hell we're going?"

"No" Brain half truthed," I dunno….but um, at least we're having fun?" He said it as a question than a statement

"We are?"

"I am" Tilly pitched in.

"Well if she's happy….um, what's his name"

Brian flushed.

"oh my god, your blushing? Oh my….fuck….you never blush!" Andy stammered, this was a shocker for centuries to come. " What's his name, you love him don't you. You want to be his looovvvvaaa, HIS LOOVVVVVVVAAAA"

"Lover" Tilly corrected but giggled quietly and said " Lova"

"Not for that reason….um…his name is Randy" Brian murmured.

"Oh, that's a hot name…Oh wait…" He trailed off, waiting for his thought to kick in. " Randy…randy…YOU MEAN DYLAN'S EX BOYFRIEND RANDY! How the hell did you pull that off?"

"well I pulled something off…" Brian trailed off as Tilly giggled and squeeled "Gay sex!"

Andy covered his mouth as him and Brian said at the same time," She's getting it from you, you know"

"She is not!" Brian frowned.

"She is too" Andy murmured.

"You're the whore"

"You're the pimp"

Tilly knew where this was going and sighed out.

"Bitch"

"Dirty….boy…slut toy thingy"

Andy reached over into the front seat and poked Brian in the chest." Bastard"

"Bugger" Brian sneered into his ear,

Tilly silently counted…

" Fuck you!"

"Fuck you"

"That's why your lips taste like salt" Brian yelled.

"Where do you think that taste came from?" Andy yelled back.

That was unexpected….

Without warning Andy pounced on Brian through the back of the car and starting molesting him. " Andy…traffic…" Brian sighed out, driving with his foot as Andy dragged him through the back seat like a scene from jaws. " I can't find your…button…"

"Snot wearing a button down sh-"

"The other one" Andy said as cars honked behind them and they went off the road. Tilly wiggled into the front seat and switched on the GPS mode of the car to navigate for them. Brian had money, so all his things were top of the line. Meanwhile Andy smiled as he found the zipper and Brian proceed to yell out in an over exaggerated voice. " Gay- gay passion?"

Andy smirked and nodded, biting down on his bottom lip," Gay passion"

(LMAO : rolls: gay passion indeed: )

Robert cradled Alex in his arms, the cold arm making them both hollow inside as Alex choked out," This wasn't supposed to happen"

"How could you love someone who destroys everything?" (Didn't Robby be like, enamored by the thought of Jake, hello, airplane scene three years ago)

"Jake doesn't destroy everything he touches…"

"But he doesn't love-"

"He does" Alex snapped. " He destroys everything he loves because that's how he grew up. Everything he loved was taken away from him, so now he tries to push people away so that way they don't get hurt but…they still end up hurting anyway"

Robert paused for a moment, looking into Alex's weak eyes," Look what happened to you…." He brushed a hand against his cheek," Does it hurt?"

"He slapped me, not mauled me" Alex rolled his eyes, but the silence that was crazy was painful enough," But it hurts"

"Of course it does" Robert sighed, placing a soft friendly kiss there.

Alex just held him close," This is just fucking ridiculous. But Roscoe is going to fix everything"

"Roscoe, how?"

"The kissing scene" Alex murmured, sleepy eyes closing as Robert shoved him to stay awake, but obviously Alex was beyond tired. " What kissing scene, from the play? Alex why do you have to fall asleep now…damnit?" Robert trailed off as Alex murmured, half in sleep, " It'll bring the audience to it's knees…"

(I am not setting up Alex and Robert, I am not setting up Alex and Robert, I am not setting up Alex and Robert, I am not setting up Alex and Robert, I am not setting up Alex and Robert :shakes head, whistles: no, not me. What so ever. Period. : runs : )Okay, so I have 1 more new character. Jamie. And yes, now everything comes around full circle again, things from the past are back. Remember Rory? Good. He'll be quite important because Jakey has a secret that only 2 people know. Heheheh, I love me. And you. And everybody. :points: YOU GET A HUG! AND YOU! I watch too much Oprah