: GIGGLES: OMG YOU GUYS did you really think that was the end? I am really mad that you actually though that. : giggle snort: I said the end made me cry, that chapter hardly brought a tear to my eye. I started the new story, they're in college this time and ahem….Marco and Ryan and Dylan and Michael and Jake and.. : squee: ADRIAN AND TRENT AND RORY BABY… are all back. Oh and Andy and Brian and Pete and the rest of the crew for more naughty fun. It's a bit more mature than this story is and I;m just working on a title for now. Here's chapter 23 my loves. There's 2 more chapters left….well actually one. This is basically a filler

AN: I dunno if the whole beat thing is true sort of...

Chapter 23: We're Not Dead Yet

We've been together forever. Or at least it's sure as hell felt that way. I remember our first kiss. The way Rory had shoved me into you and how you tasted like cigarettes even though you were like 5 years old. I remember the way your cheeks were bright red from blushing for a week and how when I had asked you if my breath was okay you said it was perfect. We will always be together. We have to be, because if we're not together we're not happy. And even when we're seldom together we're still not happy. But Jake, can't you see, you're more than life to me. I think that's why I love you so much. Because as many complications as there are in our lives, and it doesn't matter how many times we hurt each other - mentally and physically-, we always find a way back to each other. I don't think I could get rid of you now, even if I wanted to. And I'm okay with that, Jakey. I really, really am.

Wedding Vows.

Michael's wedding vows.

Lovely, weren't they?

"Where are you going?"

"Where do you think I'm going?" Michael sighs out and Alex shrugs, " To get hurt, as usual"

"Right you are, Alexander" Michael's smile is sad now and he shrugs," But I have to go and find him"

"Does Marco know?"

"No. Don't tell him. Or at least tell him after I leave" Michael doesn't look as sure of his actions as he acts and instead wipes his nose a little," I have to do this. I know you understand that Alex"

"I do" Alex's voice is formal and flat. " It's what Jake does to people"

"Yeah…" And then Michael leaves.

Alex signed him out of the hospital.

"12355 beats exactly. " Michael moans out palming his head on the airplane as Jamie snores on his shoulder. " What the hell is he doing in New York?"

Jamie is very lucky that Randy is extremely careless when it comes to money while involving his friends. The airplane flight is quiet and lonely. Michael's very afraid that something bad is going to happen. Because well, doesn't something bad always happen when it comes to those two?

Now that Michael thought about it he realized that his life was just full of fucking pain and anger. And oh, the things he went through. The abuse. The lies. The lost loves and all the promises that Jake gave him, never to be fulfilled.

Why did he keep coming back?

He didn't know.

Knew that he loved him.

But didn't know much else.

But that was all he needed to know.

Jamie stood still and Michael breathed unevenly while walking around, as if in a daze. Looking for the hotel he was in. All he knew was room 324 and the area code. There were only 7 hotels in the area code that he had traced, and this was the last one. So Jake had to be here. As they went up the stairs Michael stopped Jamie. " I need to do this alone…." He whispers and hugs him, because it's been a while since he's hugged Rory….he means Jamie. But he thinks Rory. Because they're basically one in the same. Jamie nods and lets go of him before Michael moves up towards the door.

The sky is black and rain is pouring down hard, as if warning Michael that there was hell about to ensue.