Teenage Dirtbag
Part Seven- Dilemma
AN: Hey! Sorry to keep you waiting! I became lazy! I got too excited waiting for
this "Meteor Garden" show to air at our local television… F4… my goodness... Vic...
if anyone here knows them, oh I know someone does…!!! *sweatdrops* It was
when I watched Wheatus' video "Teenage Dirtbag" did I realize that I have a fanfic
story to continue! Thank MTV for that…! Whew! Anyway, here's chapter seven! ^^
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Did he just say 'Mauve'…?
It's a color, isn't it?
Hasn't he just mistaken me from a color?
What's my connection with 'Mauve'?
"Fuu… ma…." I whisper, my eyes cemented at his. I just thought a while ago that
I'm ready to face him. But now… I feel like melting…
"Y--- you…?" Fuuma continues after mentioning 'Mauve'.
I'm startled. My heart hesitates to continue beating. My determination a while
ago to face Fuuma just decides to fade away.
"Ah! Fuuma-san!" Kakyou calls back. And with that, Fuuma turns around to look at
Kakyou.
"Kakyou?! What's this?" I see Kakyou gulps hardly with that. Fuuma's different
again. He's now the same Fuuma I always fantasize in the campus. The Fuuma who's
sometimes intense and sometimes nice. My knees are now starting to tremble. Is
he mad? Is he mad about me being here? Or he just doesn't really expect me here?
"I… gomen… the boy run into trouble while going home… and I… helped him." Kakyou
says, obviously nervous.
"You went out alone and got yourself a burden. It was a pretty challenging day
you had, wasn't it? Kakyou?" Fuuma says, in an abashing tone. I don't know if
he's mad or just teasing Kakyou again. I take a glimpse at Kakyou's reaction.
He's looking down.
… Shoot. Fuuma's mad.
Kakyou's in his utmost melancholy expression.
At first, I really don't know what to say or do. But I can't let Kakyou down! I
owe him a lot and I just can't stand here, watching my "wished lover"
sermonizing the man who helped me out when I was in the bulkiest trouble of my
life!
…Was it the bulkiest?
Damn. It's no time to think about that right now, no? At this time, what shall I
do?
Fuuma returns his gaze at me. I swallow thickly. Afraid of what he might say.
"Shirou if I remember correctly." He looks at me suspiciously, smirking. Now
I'm confused! He will not smirk if he's mad, will he? Now all I want is to crap
out then pray that when I open my eyes, I'm already at our apartment room. With
or without Subaru to screw me, I don't care.
"H-- hai… G-- good evening, Monou-san." That's all I can say as of now. Come to
think of it, is this evening really a good one?
Upon hearing the greeting and Fuuma mentioning my surname, Kakyou immediately
looks up, gawks at us with his eyes widened and lips parted. He's patently
surprised about Fuuma and I mentioning each other's name like we already do know
each other. Oh yes we do.
"Y-- you know each other?" Kakyou asks sounding oh so very curious.
I don't answer him. Fuuma doesn't, too. He's still looking at me.
I look up at him, ready to explain things out. "Monou-san, don't be distraught
about Kakyou-san accepting me here… I know it's inappropriate for him to receive
someone in your room without your permission… it's just… Umm… I take the blame
because I wasn't able to take care of myself." I gulp, then continue, "Please…
if you want, I'll go home now."
"No! Kamui! I've told you it's quite dangerous!" Kakyou says. I like him so much
because even though he knows that Fuuma is a bit mad, I really hope just a bit,
he still thinks about my good.
Fuuma looks back at Kakyou. "Kakyou!" he raises his voice. Now it sends chills
shiver down my spines. And I know it does with Kakyou's, too. "Shut up at once!"
Fuuma commands. Kakyou doesn't expect that, really, I know. Just a while ago,
they were very dear with each other that everyone can mistaken them of being
lovers, and now…
Fuuma's gentle mood transforms into rage.
Now I know that he's not mad just a little bit.
He really is mad.
"M-- Monou-san! I'll leave! Right now! Just d-- don't get mad at Kakyou-san!" I
beseech with him.
I can't believe this! Instead of confessing love and exchanging sweet nothings
with this person I love, I'm currently begging him, defending his roommate whom
has been so nice to me.
Why should Fuuma be so enrage about seeing me here in his residence? I know he
doesn't like me at the least but does he hate me? If he does, what have I done?!
"Move." The very cold response he gives me.
I wonder, "move…?"
"Out of the door."
Dammit. He really discards me outta here. I want to whimper until my tear gland
cracks.
"DEMO--!" Kakyou still tries to change Fuuma's mind.
"Move before I pea with my pants."
"Huh???" Kakyou and I startle.
"Goddamnit! It's starting to trickle down! Little one, I have to come in now!"
He screeches in an I-can't-really-explain-mode.
"O-- okay…." I say, still fluster, while moving out of the comfort room's
doorway.
"Thanks! Don't you dare leave this apartment room! We have to clear things up."
With that, he instantly makes his way inside the comfort room leaving Kakyou-san
and I in distress.
I wonder what he means by that. I'm very confused about Fuuma now. I walk
towards Kakyou while he pushes his wheelchair towards me.
"What has gotten into him…?" Kakyou asks me, perturb.
"H-- how should I know…." I murmur. Kakyou just takes a light sigh then looks up
at me, his heavy eyelashes very noticeable… makes me adore his golden-eyes more.
Gold… like Fuuma's. Fuuma's just there inside the CR unlike oftentimes that he's
like hundred miles away from me when we're in the campus. But this makes no
difference at all the way I admire him.
"Right… I think I should be the one to know what has gotten into him since I
know him the best… or so I said. …Ah! Kamui-kun… is it all right if I address
you with that?"
"Sure…" I see no problem with that.
Kakyou continues, "I apologize for Fuuma-san's actions. He really changes mood
now and then. But… he's overall nice." Kakyou explains to me and I believe him.
"Yeah…" I smile, agreeing.
"So… you know each other by name…? Are you friends in the campus?"
I shake my head, "No…"
"I know you would say that. Just plain coincidence, I see…"
"Why did you say so?"
"Saku--- ah… nothing, really. It just came out from my mouth. Do you see him
around often?"
"Y-- yeah…" I do, really. Because I glue my eyes at him all the time.
"Bet you know about…. that guy…." I know Kakyou means Seishirou Sakurazuka.
I try to pretend that I don't know much, "Guy…? Oh… that guy he is always with?
Ya, I see him, too. He often walks with Monou-san during break time and he waits
for him all day." All day, I mean it. Sure he does. Seishirou spends his whole
day chasing after Fuuma in the campus. He loiters at the corridors while Fuuma's
in class. Damn it, no one cares about that. They don't even think of what
Seishirou is up to. They simply are all afraid to ask and suspect because they,
or I mean we, all know that if we do, we'll face our creator in an instant.
Everyone is used about Seishirou being in the campus even though he intends no
important business at all. And damn they all like it. The teachers, the
students, the administrators, all! Except me and those who want Fuuma so badly,
I guess. He became popular in the campus even though he doesn't even studies
there or works there.
Maybe he thinks that the campus is a park.
Crap, I hate my jokes.
Kakyou looks down, glummer than ever I think. "He's a bastard….." He whispers
but I heard him.
"Huh?" I'm quite surprise to hear that word from Kakyou's mouth. He's so gentle
like an angel and then he suddenly said the word 'bastard'? I know Seishirou
really is a bastard but… coming from Kakyou's mouth? It's like an angel befallen
a curse.
I figured out a while ago that we both dislike Seishirou but he didn't have to
say *that*.
Kakyou's in heaven now if ever Seishirou heard that. Glad he didn't.
"Stingy bastard… he never becomes contented…" Kakyou continues whispering.
"Kakyou-san…? You were saying…." I latch a hand onto his and that makes him look
up at me. His eyes are anticipating and that makes me realize that he was lost
in his thoughts a while ago while saying those squalid words.
"Hai…?" He asks.
"Ah-- nanimonai…" I think it would be better to stay out of his private
business. I have mine, too, and I don't like people to pry on that.
Just then, Fuuma goes out from the comfort room, suspiring.
Now here's my abnormal heartbeat again.
"Sorry if I was harsh…, Shirou-kun." He drops the words right away.
I remove my hand from Kakyou's then look up at Fuuma, my lips quivering a bit
again.
"I'm sorry… Monou-san."
Fuuma looks at Kakyou then smiles, very luring this time. I'll swoon any minute
now. Funny but I mean it. "Kakyou, did I scare you? There's this time that I
really become insignificant. Pardon me, Kakyou," he says.
"It's okay…"
Fuuma looks at me again, smirking. Damnit, why the smirking when he's looking at
me?
"Sit," he demands.
"Huh? Where?" I can only ask.
"Wherever you wish to." He tells me.
So I go and sit at this small couch, clueless to what he might tell me. Oh that
is, if ever he will waste his time telling me something. He sits, too, one meter
away from me. I want him to sit one millimeter away from me but that's way
impossible.
While Kakyou is pushing his wheelchair closer to us.
"Do you need me here?" he asks Fuuma.
"Yes, we do."
"Okay…"
I place both of my unease hands on my lap, looking at them. I try my very best
to avoid Fuuma's gaze. You might be wondering why since I want him really to
look at me. Well at this moment, I don't know the answer to that myself.
"Shirou-kun. First, I want you to know that you shouldn't have been here."
"I know…"
"Second, I can't do something about that now since you're already here."
"Mm…"
He looks at Kakyou, "Kakyou, it's great to know that you were able to help
somebody with that condition of yours. But I think you should help yourself
first. What happened to him?"
"A group of cads tried to harass him."
"Ahh---!" Fuuma's like very shocked with what he has heard.
Shocked? Is he shocked? If he is, it does mean that he is concern about me,
doesn't it?
No. No. I make a lot of wishful thinking again and that only makes me devastated
at the end. I'm sick and tired of that already.
Maybe he's shocked because he has never thought that some deranged chaps would
actually have an interest on an obscure kid like me. Yes, I know that those men
just want hell penetration out of me but it's still a different thing when
somebody actually pays attention at me.
"O-- ohh..." I look up at Fuuma this time and I see him looking at me with…
rueful eyes… I guess.
He pities me. I hate it when people pity me. I think it's not a good thing at
all.
I notice Fuuma sighs. "Ummm… ahh… Good…"
"Good?! Fuuma-san, I'm sorry to oppose you but I think nothing's good about
someone getting almost harassed…!" Kakyou grumbles.
Looking at Kakyou, startled, Fuuma begins shaking his head.
"N-- no! That's not what I mean! I--- you see… I mean… good! It's good to know
that you were able to help him and you yourself are safe. And that… he's in good
plight now…!"
I slowly rub my arms, removing away the tension.
"Okay. Let me continue. I think it would be best if you will go to your own home
right now. Your roommate certainly is worried about you."
That struck me. How did he know about me having only a roommate? It's easier to
understand if he said that my 'family is certainly worried' about me, no? So…
what makes him think that maybe I have no family to go home at all?
"Y-- you know…?" I ask him very curious this time.
"Know what?" He asks me in return.
"About… me having only a roommate to return to…?"
Fuuma looks disquiet again. He doesn't speak for a short while.
Until he sighs then grins, "Aa. So my guess is right? I really think that a kid
looking like you might really have no family already. Oh, I'm so lofty, am I
not?"
So it's only his guess. I should have really expected to hear that kind of
answer.
"But Fuuma-san! It's already cryptic outside and it's not a good idea by any
means to let him walk home alone," Kakyou proposes with concern.
Oh Kakyou-san, I love you. You're one of those few who bring me closer to
Fuuma.
Ah… Well, Keiichi really is the only one who brings me closer to Fuuma.
Fuuma thinks for a while. Oh, master of the universe, I pray that he will come
up with a wonderful decision.
"Okay… I'll walk him home."
Kakyou's eyes widen upon hearing that, "B-- but--! What if---!"
So Fuuma really doesn't want me here. It's not that I don't like him to walk me
home. As a matter of fact, I would really love that.
The man I love so much will walk me home? That's one of the greatest things that
would ever happen in my cursed life.
…But why is he really determined to dispose me out of here?
"Quiet, Kakyou!" I hear Fuuma tells Kakyou and I can say that it's some kind of
a warning.
Kakyou looks down again, morose, "I'm sorry…"
Fuuma continues, "So okay. I'll walk you home, Shirou-kun."
"Thank you…"
"Oh and lastly, before we end this, I want to congratulate you..., Tsuki."
I gasp with that. I thought he has already forgotten about us being together in
the audition a while ago in the campus.
I gulp then look at him, forcing myself to evince him a smile, "Thank you… But…"
Kakyou intervenes, "Tsuki…? Fuuma-san, you let me borrow and read the script
booklet of 'Verboten Love', right? And Tsuki is Asahi's love interest, right?
And you'll be playing Asahi… Does that mean…"
Fuuma chuckles, "Right, Kakyou! Shirou-kun here won Tsuki's role…!"
Kakyou's a bit surprised, "It's good to know that… But… it's sad to know that
Mauve-san wasn't able to have the role… You told me he was also there, right…?"
Kakyou whispers to himself but both Fuuma and I heard that.
Fuuma suddenly narrows his gaze at Kakyou, "Kakyou!"
"Ah--! Gomen…, Fuuma-san…"
Fuuma lets out a heavy sigh again before standing up, "Let's go now. We should
hurry, Shirou-kun."
"Now…? Ah… okay…" I stand up, too, and turn to Kakyou.
I smile at him then bow my head in respect, "Arigatou for everything,
Kakyou-san… I will never forget this. Sorry if I hooked you with my weakness.
Please take care always of yourself. One time, I might actually walk you out…"
Kakyou nods. He doesn't smile back but I know that his eyes are happy because
these are sparkling, "Doitashimashita… I'm looking forward to be with you again.
So long."
"So long." I very much hope that I can help Kakyou-san to have what he has
always wanted.
Fuuma and I are now walking at this dark and cold street. None of us saying a
word after going out from the door of their apartment room. This day is
admittedly a long one for me.
Come to think of it. I auditioned. I was with Fuuma. I got the role. I met
Nataku and gave up the role for him. I was almost molested. I met Kakyou-san. I
discovered that Fuuma's his roommate. I'm with Fuuma again. That's the way this
day of mine ends.
I just hope that this silent moment with Fuuma will never end.
Hah. But impossible, you see?
All of a sudden, I notice Fuuma sniffs. "...That smell...," he says furtively.
"Smell...? Oh yeah... I smell something... fragrant... But also fetid..."
"Flower...!" Fuuma gasps.
"Oooh… Fuuma, darling. You are with…? That brat. 'Shirou-kun', is that you?"
Someone speaks mischievously.
Fuuma and I both freeze.
We notice pink petals floating and then smoke.
In the dark…
There, in front of us…
…Appears…
Seishirou Sakurazuka.
I guess I'll end with this day.
-Tsuzuku.
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AN: Seriously, it took me quite a long while because I was rather busy creating
another fanfic. A CLOVER one! Hehe! It's just "one-shot" but VERY long…
*blush* so if you have enough time and if you love the GingetsuXLan pairing
like I do, please read it! ^^ It's entitled "FOR YOU". Anyways, back to this
gloomy fic… Here are my responses to some of your inspirations, er, reviews
pardon me… I just really like communicating with the reviewers…! ^^.
Futagoakuma-tenshi-san01! New to this?? ^^ Thanks for saying it's interesting!
Arashi-san… what can I say?? I'm really waiting for Fuuma to come!! Thank you
again for the cool reviews!!! ^^
Featherlight-san! Moshi-moshi!! ^^ You're a new reviewer of this fic, aren't
you?? ^____^ Oh yes… it's really frustrating to read those and even I myself
gets frustrated oftentimes. I often go: "WHAT!! DID I REALLY WRITE THIS
STUFF!?!" *blush* I, too, get irritated by what I wrote and I'm tending now to
avoid those. But I think it really helps because the more of it, the gloomier.
Hehe, and the gloomier, the more sympathy for Kamui-chan. DOMO!!!! ^_^
AH! Darkness-san! Thank you again and again and again and again….!!! Now I'm
starting to feel afraid because any moment soon, Sei-chan fangirls might start
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after reading this piece of work! *giggles* Ohohoho… Sei-chan, don't get me
wrong! You're one of my favorites, too! Bye de bye, too! I've observed that
that's your way of ending your reviews and gomen because I imitated it!
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writing more! I'm so glad I was able to make you happy with chapter six! Me too,
'Mauve' is one of my favorite words! ^^ I think it's kinda mysterious…! At
first, I thought of making it 'Amethyst' but then I realized that it wouldn't
really make an impact so I decided to go on with 'Mauve' since it has the same
meaning with 'Amethyst'. Domo!!! ^^
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-=Kamui Kinomoto=-
Part Seven- Dilemma
AN: Hey! Sorry to keep you waiting! I became lazy! I got too excited waiting for
this "Meteor Garden" show to air at our local television… F4… my goodness... Vic...
if anyone here knows them, oh I know someone does…!!! *sweatdrops* It was
when I watched Wheatus' video "Teenage Dirtbag" did I realize that I have a fanfic
story to continue! Thank MTV for that…! Whew! Anyway, here's chapter seven! ^^
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Did he just say 'Mauve'…?
It's a color, isn't it?
Hasn't he just mistaken me from a color?
What's my connection with 'Mauve'?
"Fuu… ma…." I whisper, my eyes cemented at his. I just thought a while ago that
I'm ready to face him. But now… I feel like melting…
"Y--- you…?" Fuuma continues after mentioning 'Mauve'.
I'm startled. My heart hesitates to continue beating. My determination a while
ago to face Fuuma just decides to fade away.
"Ah! Fuuma-san!" Kakyou calls back. And with that, Fuuma turns around to look at
Kakyou.
"Kakyou?! What's this?" I see Kakyou gulps hardly with that. Fuuma's different
again. He's now the same Fuuma I always fantasize in the campus. The Fuuma who's
sometimes intense and sometimes nice. My knees are now starting to tremble. Is
he mad? Is he mad about me being here? Or he just doesn't really expect me here?
"I… gomen… the boy run into trouble while going home… and I… helped him." Kakyou
says, obviously nervous.
"You went out alone and got yourself a burden. It was a pretty challenging day
you had, wasn't it? Kakyou?" Fuuma says, in an abashing tone. I don't know if
he's mad or just teasing Kakyou again. I take a glimpse at Kakyou's reaction.
He's looking down.
… Shoot. Fuuma's mad.
Kakyou's in his utmost melancholy expression.
At first, I really don't know what to say or do. But I can't let Kakyou down! I
owe him a lot and I just can't stand here, watching my "wished lover"
sermonizing the man who helped me out when I was in the bulkiest trouble of my
life!
…Was it the bulkiest?
Damn. It's no time to think about that right now, no? At this time, what shall I
do?
Fuuma returns his gaze at me. I swallow thickly. Afraid of what he might say.
"Shirou if I remember correctly." He looks at me suspiciously, smirking. Now
I'm confused! He will not smirk if he's mad, will he? Now all I want is to crap
out then pray that when I open my eyes, I'm already at our apartment room. With
or without Subaru to screw me, I don't care.
"H-- hai… G-- good evening, Monou-san." That's all I can say as of now. Come to
think of it, is this evening really a good one?
Upon hearing the greeting and Fuuma mentioning my surname, Kakyou immediately
looks up, gawks at us with his eyes widened and lips parted. He's patently
surprised about Fuuma and I mentioning each other's name like we already do know
each other. Oh yes we do.
"Y-- you know each other?" Kakyou asks sounding oh so very curious.
I don't answer him. Fuuma doesn't, too. He's still looking at me.
I look up at him, ready to explain things out. "Monou-san, don't be distraught
about Kakyou-san accepting me here… I know it's inappropriate for him to receive
someone in your room without your permission… it's just… Umm… I take the blame
because I wasn't able to take care of myself." I gulp, then continue, "Please…
if you want, I'll go home now."
"No! Kamui! I've told you it's quite dangerous!" Kakyou says. I like him so much
because even though he knows that Fuuma is a bit mad, I really hope just a bit,
he still thinks about my good.
Fuuma looks back at Kakyou. "Kakyou!" he raises his voice. Now it sends chills
shiver down my spines. And I know it does with Kakyou's, too. "Shut up at once!"
Fuuma commands. Kakyou doesn't expect that, really, I know. Just a while ago,
they were very dear with each other that everyone can mistaken them of being
lovers, and now…
Fuuma's gentle mood transforms into rage.
Now I know that he's not mad just a little bit.
He really is mad.
"M-- Monou-san! I'll leave! Right now! Just d-- don't get mad at Kakyou-san!" I
beseech with him.
I can't believe this! Instead of confessing love and exchanging sweet nothings
with this person I love, I'm currently begging him, defending his roommate whom
has been so nice to me.
Why should Fuuma be so enrage about seeing me here in his residence? I know he
doesn't like me at the least but does he hate me? If he does, what have I done?!
"Move." The very cold response he gives me.
I wonder, "move…?"
"Out of the door."
Dammit. He really discards me outta here. I want to whimper until my tear gland
cracks.
"DEMO--!" Kakyou still tries to change Fuuma's mind.
"Move before I pea with my pants."
"Huh???" Kakyou and I startle.
"Goddamnit! It's starting to trickle down! Little one, I have to come in now!"
He screeches in an I-can't-really-explain-mode.
"O-- okay…." I say, still fluster, while moving out of the comfort room's
doorway.
"Thanks! Don't you dare leave this apartment room! We have to clear things up."
With that, he instantly makes his way inside the comfort room leaving Kakyou-san
and I in distress.
I wonder what he means by that. I'm very confused about Fuuma now. I walk
towards Kakyou while he pushes his wheelchair towards me.
"What has gotten into him…?" Kakyou asks me, perturb.
"H-- how should I know…." I murmur. Kakyou just takes a light sigh then looks up
at me, his heavy eyelashes very noticeable… makes me adore his golden-eyes more.
Gold… like Fuuma's. Fuuma's just there inside the CR unlike oftentimes that he's
like hundred miles away from me when we're in the campus. But this makes no
difference at all the way I admire him.
"Right… I think I should be the one to know what has gotten into him since I
know him the best… or so I said. …Ah! Kamui-kun… is it all right if I address
you with that?"
"Sure…" I see no problem with that.
Kakyou continues, "I apologize for Fuuma-san's actions. He really changes mood
now and then. But… he's overall nice." Kakyou explains to me and I believe him.
"Yeah…" I smile, agreeing.
"So… you know each other by name…? Are you friends in the campus?"
I shake my head, "No…"
"I know you would say that. Just plain coincidence, I see…"
"Why did you say so?"
"Saku--- ah… nothing, really. It just came out from my mouth. Do you see him
around often?"
"Y-- yeah…" I do, really. Because I glue my eyes at him all the time.
"Bet you know about…. that guy…." I know Kakyou means Seishirou Sakurazuka.
I try to pretend that I don't know much, "Guy…? Oh… that guy he is always with?
Ya, I see him, too. He often walks with Monou-san during break time and he waits
for him all day." All day, I mean it. Sure he does. Seishirou spends his whole
day chasing after Fuuma in the campus. He loiters at the corridors while Fuuma's
in class. Damn it, no one cares about that. They don't even think of what
Seishirou is up to. They simply are all afraid to ask and suspect because they,
or I mean we, all know that if we do, we'll face our creator in an instant.
Everyone is used about Seishirou being in the campus even though he intends no
important business at all. And damn they all like it. The teachers, the
students, the administrators, all! Except me and those who want Fuuma so badly,
I guess. He became popular in the campus even though he doesn't even studies
there or works there.
Maybe he thinks that the campus is a park.
Crap, I hate my jokes.
Kakyou looks down, glummer than ever I think. "He's a bastard….." He whispers
but I heard him.
"Huh?" I'm quite surprise to hear that word from Kakyou's mouth. He's so gentle
like an angel and then he suddenly said the word 'bastard'? I know Seishirou
really is a bastard but… coming from Kakyou's mouth? It's like an angel befallen
a curse.
I figured out a while ago that we both dislike Seishirou but he didn't have to
say *that*.
Kakyou's in heaven now if ever Seishirou heard that. Glad he didn't.
"Stingy bastard… he never becomes contented…" Kakyou continues whispering.
"Kakyou-san…? You were saying…." I latch a hand onto his and that makes him look
up at me. His eyes are anticipating and that makes me realize that he was lost
in his thoughts a while ago while saying those squalid words.
"Hai…?" He asks.
"Ah-- nanimonai…" I think it would be better to stay out of his private
business. I have mine, too, and I don't like people to pry on that.
Just then, Fuuma goes out from the comfort room, suspiring.
Now here's my abnormal heartbeat again.
"Sorry if I was harsh…, Shirou-kun." He drops the words right away.
I remove my hand from Kakyou's then look up at Fuuma, my lips quivering a bit
again.
"I'm sorry… Monou-san."
Fuuma looks at Kakyou then smiles, very luring this time. I'll swoon any minute
now. Funny but I mean it. "Kakyou, did I scare you? There's this time that I
really become insignificant. Pardon me, Kakyou," he says.
"It's okay…"
Fuuma looks at me again, smirking. Damnit, why the smirking when he's looking at
me?
"Sit," he demands.
"Huh? Where?" I can only ask.
"Wherever you wish to." He tells me.
So I go and sit at this small couch, clueless to what he might tell me. Oh that
is, if ever he will waste his time telling me something. He sits, too, one meter
away from me. I want him to sit one millimeter away from me but that's way
impossible.
While Kakyou is pushing his wheelchair closer to us.
"Do you need me here?" he asks Fuuma.
"Yes, we do."
"Okay…"
I place both of my unease hands on my lap, looking at them. I try my very best
to avoid Fuuma's gaze. You might be wondering why since I want him really to
look at me. Well at this moment, I don't know the answer to that myself.
"Shirou-kun. First, I want you to know that you shouldn't have been here."
"I know…"
"Second, I can't do something about that now since you're already here."
"Mm…"
He looks at Kakyou, "Kakyou, it's great to know that you were able to help
somebody with that condition of yours. But I think you should help yourself
first. What happened to him?"
"A group of cads tried to harass him."
"Ahh---!" Fuuma's like very shocked with what he has heard.
Shocked? Is he shocked? If he is, it does mean that he is concern about me,
doesn't it?
No. No. I make a lot of wishful thinking again and that only makes me devastated
at the end. I'm sick and tired of that already.
Maybe he's shocked because he has never thought that some deranged chaps would
actually have an interest on an obscure kid like me. Yes, I know that those men
just want hell penetration out of me but it's still a different thing when
somebody actually pays attention at me.
"O-- ohh..." I look up at Fuuma this time and I see him looking at me with…
rueful eyes… I guess.
He pities me. I hate it when people pity me. I think it's not a good thing at
all.
I notice Fuuma sighs. "Ummm… ahh… Good…"
"Good?! Fuuma-san, I'm sorry to oppose you but I think nothing's good about
someone getting almost harassed…!" Kakyou grumbles.
Looking at Kakyou, startled, Fuuma begins shaking his head.
"N-- no! That's not what I mean! I--- you see… I mean… good! It's good to know
that you were able to help him and you yourself are safe. And that… he's in good
plight now…!"
I slowly rub my arms, removing away the tension.
"Okay. Let me continue. I think it would be best if you will go to your own home
right now. Your roommate certainly is worried about you."
That struck me. How did he know about me having only a roommate? It's easier to
understand if he said that my 'family is certainly worried' about me, no? So…
what makes him think that maybe I have no family to go home at all?
"Y-- you know…?" I ask him very curious this time.
"Know what?" He asks me in return.
"About… me having only a roommate to return to…?"
Fuuma looks disquiet again. He doesn't speak for a short while.
Until he sighs then grins, "Aa. So my guess is right? I really think that a kid
looking like you might really have no family already. Oh, I'm so lofty, am I
not?"
So it's only his guess. I should have really expected to hear that kind of
answer.
"But Fuuma-san! It's already cryptic outside and it's not a good idea by any
means to let him walk home alone," Kakyou proposes with concern.
Oh Kakyou-san, I love you. You're one of those few who bring me closer to
Fuuma.
Ah… Well, Keiichi really is the only one who brings me closer to Fuuma.
Fuuma thinks for a while. Oh, master of the universe, I pray that he will come
up with a wonderful decision.
"Okay… I'll walk him home."
Kakyou's eyes widen upon hearing that, "B-- but--! What if---!"
So Fuuma really doesn't want me here. It's not that I don't like him to walk me
home. As a matter of fact, I would really love that.
The man I love so much will walk me home? That's one of the greatest things that
would ever happen in my cursed life.
…But why is he really determined to dispose me out of here?
"Quiet, Kakyou!" I hear Fuuma tells Kakyou and I can say that it's some kind of
a warning.
Kakyou looks down again, morose, "I'm sorry…"
Fuuma continues, "So okay. I'll walk you home, Shirou-kun."
"Thank you…"
"Oh and lastly, before we end this, I want to congratulate you..., Tsuki."
I gasp with that. I thought he has already forgotten about us being together in
the audition a while ago in the campus.
I gulp then look at him, forcing myself to evince him a smile, "Thank you… But…"
Kakyou intervenes, "Tsuki…? Fuuma-san, you let me borrow and read the script
booklet of 'Verboten Love', right? And Tsuki is Asahi's love interest, right?
And you'll be playing Asahi… Does that mean…"
Fuuma chuckles, "Right, Kakyou! Shirou-kun here won Tsuki's role…!"
Kakyou's a bit surprised, "It's good to know that… But… it's sad to know that
Mauve-san wasn't able to have the role… You told me he was also there, right…?"
Kakyou whispers to himself but both Fuuma and I heard that.
Fuuma suddenly narrows his gaze at Kakyou, "Kakyou!"
"Ah--! Gomen…, Fuuma-san…"
Fuuma lets out a heavy sigh again before standing up, "Let's go now. We should
hurry, Shirou-kun."
"Now…? Ah… okay…" I stand up, too, and turn to Kakyou.
I smile at him then bow my head in respect, "Arigatou for everything,
Kakyou-san… I will never forget this. Sorry if I hooked you with my weakness.
Please take care always of yourself. One time, I might actually walk you out…"
Kakyou nods. He doesn't smile back but I know that his eyes are happy because
these are sparkling, "Doitashimashita… I'm looking forward to be with you again.
So long."
"So long." I very much hope that I can help Kakyou-san to have what he has
always wanted.
Fuuma and I are now walking at this dark and cold street. None of us saying a
word after going out from the door of their apartment room. This day is
admittedly a long one for me.
Come to think of it. I auditioned. I was with Fuuma. I got the role. I met
Nataku and gave up the role for him. I was almost molested. I met Kakyou-san. I
discovered that Fuuma's his roommate. I'm with Fuuma again. That's the way this
day of mine ends.
I just hope that this silent moment with Fuuma will never end.
Hah. But impossible, you see?
All of a sudden, I notice Fuuma sniffs. "...That smell...," he says furtively.
"Smell...? Oh yeah... I smell something... fragrant... But also fetid..."
"Flower...!" Fuuma gasps.
"Oooh… Fuuma, darling. You are with…? That brat. 'Shirou-kun', is that you?"
Someone speaks mischievously.
Fuuma and I both freeze.
We notice pink petals floating and then smoke.
In the dark…
There, in front of us…
…Appears…
Seishirou Sakurazuka.
I guess I'll end with this day.
-Tsuzuku.
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AN: Seriously, it took me quite a long while because I was rather busy creating
another fanfic. A CLOVER one! Hehe! It's just "one-shot" but VERY long…
*blush* so if you have enough time and if you love the GingetsuXLan pairing
like I do, please read it! ^^ It's entitled "FOR YOU". Anyways, back to this
gloomy fic… Here are my responses to some of your inspirations, er, reviews
pardon me… I just really like communicating with the reviewers…! ^^.
Futagoakuma-tenshi-san01! New to this?? ^^ Thanks for saying it's interesting!
Arashi-san… what can I say?? I'm really waiting for Fuuma to come!! Thank you
again for the cool reviews!!! ^^
Featherlight-san! Moshi-moshi!! ^^ You're a new reviewer of this fic, aren't
you?? ^____^ Oh yes… it's really frustrating to read those and even I myself
gets frustrated oftentimes. I often go: "WHAT!! DID I REALLY WRITE THIS
STUFF!?!" *blush* I, too, get irritated by what I wrote and I'm tending now to
avoid those. But I think it really helps because the more of it, the gloomier.
Hehe, and the gloomier, the more sympathy for Kamui-chan. DOMO!!!! ^_^
AH! Darkness-san! Thank you again and again and again and again….!!! Now I'm
starting to feel afraid because any moment soon, Sei-chan fangirls might start
ATTACKING me. I think you're the second reviewer who felt like killing Sei-chan
after reading this piece of work! *giggles* Ohohoho… Sei-chan, don't get me
wrong! You're one of my favorites, too! Bye de bye, too! I've observed that
that's your way of ending your reviews and gomen because I imitated it!
*sweat-drops* Ja!
OH, FANNY CHAN-SAN!!!! You've already flattered me a lot!! DOMO!!! I'm starting
to feel like finding you then glomp you!!!! Right from the beginning, you've
really inspired me!!! It's nice to know that there really is someone who likes
reading this fic much and that makes me so proud! =^_^=
Hokuto chan-san! Helooooo!!!!! Arigatou gozaimasu!!! Hehe! ^^ For you, I'll keep
writing more! I'm so glad I was able to make you happy with chapter six! Me too,
'Mauve' is one of my favorite words! ^^ I think it's kinda mysterious…! At
first, I thought of making it 'Amethyst' but then I realized that it wouldn't
really make an impact so I decided to go on with 'Mauve' since it has the same
meaning with 'Amethyst'. Domo!!! ^^
Shinigami-san!!! "-san" means Miss or Mister. I think it's a label of respect in
Japan. If I call you "Shinigami-chan", that means we're already friends or close. ^^
Umm... HENTAI??? O.o Thanks again for the review!!!
Phoenix-san!! Yes, I like GnR and Mortal Sins!!! SO MUCH! So Continue Mortal Sins,
too, I BEG OF YOU!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH for always minding to read what I'm putting
in my ANs. Thanks for reading then reviewing always!!! ^____^
Ishuzu-san! The trenchcoat!!! HAHAHA!! Thanks for the review again! He did not push
him inside so sorry about that. But sometimes I might actually put a
*CENSORCENSORCENSOR* thingy! Hehe... ^^
Fara-san! I'll put more about that 'Mauve', promise!! Action... I'm not good at writing
actions, oh, but I know what you are trying to point out! Thanks for the advise and
the review! ^^ And for reading, of course!
Venedy-san! I thought you've forgotten about this fic! All the letters of your review
are in uppercase... so I supposed you are screaming there! Hehe! Excitement?? Thanks
for reading! ^^
DOMO TO EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!! ^_____^
-=Kamui Kinomoto=-