Teenage Dirtbag
Part Twelve- Wish
AN: Never mind the title... My mind is currently blank... ^^;;; Anyway....
I'm back, minna-san!!! ^^
Disclaimers: [I read somewhere that disclaimers are REALLY important
and I find myself too lazy to put...] X and all the kawaii characters belong to
CLAMP-sama and Hizashi-sensei is just a name for the director of the play! ^^
Someway she belongs to me but I don't necessarily want her to be mine... ^^
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Subaru. With Sakurazuka.
Is there any bigger surprise than that?
I can hear their conversation. And yes, I'm undeniably eavesdropping.
They didn't notice me when I opened the door so I decided to leave it that way.
Besides, if I'll close it, they might catch me already.
The two of them are sitting in the couch with Subaru on one end and Seishirou on
the other. The older man is holding a cup of tea. I assume Subaru, being a
little nice host, gave him that.
If I were on his place, I'll put poison in that.
Heaven forgive me with what I've thought.
"Are you really his lover?" Seishirou suddenly asks Subaru.
"I have no comment with that. It's not for you to know, Seishirou-san."
I see Seishirou smiles with that a little bit sweetly.
"I'm just curious. That boy seems to be a little... cynical. I don't know if
that's the word. He's in his teenage period so I think... I'll take back what
I've said. He's angsty."
Damn. I'm irritated. He's talking about me. My rival, there, he is talking about
me like he's someone who knows me personally.
"You don't know him that well yet." Subaru says coldly. And I'm touched with
that.
"Why? You think you do?" That man with the black trench coat questions.
In my point of view, Subaru gasps a little with that and starts paying attention
with the man in front of him. He blinks a couple of times and clears his throat
gently.
"What do you mean?"
Seishirou then gets a cigarette somewhere from his suit and lights it. Then, he
breathes a little of it and puffs it out slowly through Subaru's direction. I
think he's just trying to annoy Subaru.
After that, he snuffs it down to the ashtray on our small living room table as I
put it there a long time ago because Subaru also happens to smoke cigarette
regularly. Shoot. I never imagined it'd be of Seishirou's use.
They continue with Seishirou replying. "I mean... do you know his favorite
color? Music? Simple things like that."
Subaru shakes his head gently.
"So what do you know about your lover?"
"Nothing." He answers bluntly. Seishirou blinks but Subaru continues, "All I
know is that... He's not happy. Not yet happy."
The other man is speechless.
And so I am.
"I do love him and I want him to be happy. Sometimes, I become fierce with him
but I really love him. I want him to be happy but I... I don't know what would
make him. I know not me, but still... I want to try. Many times, I asked him to
give it a try and one time we did but it just wouldn't work."
I want to cry with that. I don't really appreciate Subaru much. As long as I
love Fuuma, nothing between Subaru and I would work.
Many times I want to apologize but I just can't bring out the words.
"You mean... you're not his lover?"
Oh no. If ever Seishirou finds out that I mislead him about my relationship with
Subaru, I'm dead.
My heart starts beating loudly but not speedily. Just loud.
"I didn't say that. He's my lover, I'm his lover, and you can't do anything with
that. Besides, what's really the reason that you're here? Just to ask me about
how Kamui and I are going?"
Seishirou grins a little and puts away his glasses then looks straight at
Subaru's eyes, "I'm just making sure. You see, I just want to help you with the
boy."
Subaru then stands up and Fuuma's lover follows him with a stare. Crap, I want
to vomit that I said that.
"If that's the case, I don't need your help."
"I have theories. Our boyfriends are acting a little bit weird."
"I'm not interested with your theories."
Suddenly, Seishirou stands up and moves closer to Subaru and the latter gasps.
He grasps Subaru's wrists and moves his face a bit closer to him.
Now this is not right. Does he have a tendency to cheat on Fuuma?
Subaru tries to move away but he can hardly do, "Hey...! Let go of me...!"
"I wonder if you'll be able to say that again after tomorrow, Subaru-kun."
Because of astonishment, I didn't notice that I have knocked over the pot, which
is here beside our door.
Both Seishirou and Subaru tilt their heads to look and I even hear Seishirou
says: 'The door is open.'.
But luckily, before they can even take a glimpse of me, I'm here inside this
another apartment room. As far as I'm concerned, nobody rents this room yet. I'm
safe.
After dinner, Subaru asks me to give little of my time to him and I agree.
"What's Monou Fuuma to you?" He asks right away.
My eyes bulge with that. Why the heck is he asking me this?
"I... I don't know...! What do you mean?" I try to bring-out the stage-actor in
me.
"Do you happen to... be involve with him?"
"He's a schoolmate..." I stutter.
"I know I told you to forget about yesterday. But I need to bring this out. Stay
away from him, and so with his so-called-lover."
"Kedo...!"
"He's just a schoolmate, isn't he? It's easy to stay away from him. I mean,
don't go to the place wherein you know he stays. If possible, try to think that
they don't even exist."
You don't know how impossible that is, Subaru.
I ask him why.
His reply is this- "I don't want you to be involve with those two."
It's quite impossible now. But I give Subaru a reluctant nod.
I wonder what were those other things Seishirou informed him to make him think
this way.
"Tsuki... I... I love you..." Fuuma whispers to my neck.
We're currently having our practice since the play is already approaching.
This is my favorite part. No. All the scenes that Fuuma and I are together are
my favorites and one of those is this.
"I love you, too, but... not as you want me to. Ni-san, I love you as a brother,
brother because you're my brother."
He looks directly at my eyes and it sends me shivers. I might forget my lines.
"For once, please let me feel you not as a brother..." He hisses and I can feel
cold sweats trickling down my back ad cheeks. Fuuma's breath is really hot.
While doing this, I can say that my hand is quivering and I know that Fuuma
notices.
It just stops when... Fuuma grab a hold of it with his larger palm.
"Tsuki, tell me 'I love you, Asahi'. That's all I want..."
I gulp. Now this is the scene we've never tried to rehearse yet. I know the
lines but I don't know what to do. This is the first time we ever reached this
part without any meddling.
I take a glimpse at Hizashi-sensei and she nods. That means she wants us to
continue so I look back at Fuuma. He's having a serious eye contact with me and
it makes me feel more pressured wit this. I hope I don't get this wrong.
I open my mouth and try to deliver the lines, "I... I love you, Asahi...?"
Slowly, Fuuma brings his right hand to my cheek. The other one is still holding
my shaking hand. I bite my lip.
Even more softly, he traces my cheekbone until he has cupped my chin with his
long slender fingers. He then lifts my jaw slightly and lowers his head little
by little. He is opening his mouth so I decided to do the same.
I might faint. My heart is beating fast and loud. Too loud for the whole world
to hear. I can't breath normally.
I'm looking at his golden eyes while he's staring at my lips, concentrating on
the scene.
Fuuma's eyes are half-closed now.
In the script, it says he'll kiss me.
That's something.
This isn't my first kiss but if ever this continues, this would be my first kiss
with the person I truly love and adore.
"Aishiteru..." I read his lips whispering that.
'Aishiteru'... Really how I wish that in my actual life, Fuuma would tell me
that because he does. Not only because he needs to.
I swallow hard when I feel that Fuuma's grasp to my hand became somewhat
tightened. He raises it a bit.
His face is just inches away from mine. Shouldn't I feel happy and grab the
chance?
No. That's taking advantage.
I look at his open lips. It's neither dry nor wet. It's just simply delectable.
I can feel his ebony bangs to my forehead now. He's so close. With that, I lock
my eyes and try to wait patiently with what will happen next.
I'm not that intense since I know that having my first kiss with Fuuma will take
a longer while as I don't sense I can have it *that* easily without suffering
from any pain. But still I wish, this kiss would continue until it becomes a
reality.
/It will only bring you so much misery. I feel it's not worth it. As early as
now... you better stop./ I hear the girl's voice inside my mind. That makes me
snap out of my fantasies.
I open my eyes and pull away from Fuuma.
He unlocks his eyes, too.
"Na... ze...?" I hear him whisper.
I feel so lost and confused. Why did I do that?! Isn't the kiss what I want?
I notice now that I have my two hands near my chest and both are closed. I glue
my eyes at Fuuma. I want to make sure that he's Fuuma.
He's staring at me, completely unaware of what suddenly happened to me. He
probably thinks now that I'm a complete idiot.
"Ore wa..." I attempt to find the words to explain but suddenly, Hizashi-sensei
approaches us, clapping and smiling.
"Good job, you two. That was perfect! I'm so glad that you are my main actors!
We continue that scene later after the break, okay?" She says.
Then, she looks at Fuuma but Fuuma is still staring at me. Very bemused.
"Monou-kun, is it okay for Sakurazuka-san for you to have a kiss scene with
Shirou-kun? Do you think we should better fake it?"
My most beloved looks at her and tried to smile a little. "He's not here so I
don't know. But... his opinion is not needed with that affair. It's my lips to
use after all. As for me, it's okay to kiss Shirou-kun since this is work. I
know many audiences will love that. I want a perfect show. How many times we
need to do kissing-scenes?"
"Three or four... I think? The two are just for an instant while the other one
is passionate. The left one should be harsh as you are just forcing him to do it
with you. Shirou-kun, is that all right with you? We can fake the others if you
want."
I don't think I can reply yet. The voice is repeatedly playing in my brain.
But then, I notice Fuuma tilts his head back at me then gazes with a bit of
niggle, "Wouldn't your boyfriend become jealous? I think he's the type."
Huh? Subaru doesn't even know about this and I absolutely have no plan to let
him find out. And moreover, he's not my boyfriend. Just a surrogate one to be
able to hide from Seishirou's eyes.
I shake my head gently. Who wouldn't want to be kissed by the person he loves
the most?
"It's... not a problem... Actually, Subaru is very supportive to me when it
comes to things like this. He's not the jealous type. He knows the difference
between work and reality." I explain, as I act like someone so sincere.
I see Fuuma's fingers flinch a little and I sense some kind of an unexplainable
pang. He then removes his gaze from me and lays it to the ground. He's quiet
for a while but it didn't last for long.
He smirks afterwards and looks at our director, "Well then. That's good to
hear, isn't it, Hizashi-sensei?"
Hizashi-san smiles and nods with it, "Yes, very nice to know that. So... we
don't have problems anymore! Well yes, we still do, but that's easy."
I look down. I'm hiding behind tons of lies already. I know that not long after,
everyone will know the truth that they needed to know but…
"I think I'll ask for his permission first. How about that, Shirou-kun?" Fuuma
asks me with a very fake smile. I don't know. I just think that that smile of
his doesn't really come from the heart.
I want to avoid that question. I'm sure that a 'no' won't give him any
satisfaction but a 'yes' will kill me.
I pretend that I don't care about his matter and I bow in front of them,
"Sumimasen, I need to go the restroom. I'll be back for a minute. Domo."
Instantly, I go out of their sights and yes, proceed to the restroom.
In front of me is a mirror. I can see myself clearly.
I have two large purple eyes and light-raven hair. When stricken with sunrays,
it becomes brown. I have fair skin. My body frame is so thin.
It's rare that I look at myself in the mirror because I tend to hate what I see.
But now, someway, I already feel good about myself. By being with Fuuma, I'm
starting to remove the skeletons inside my closet because I want to breath
normally. I want to look normal and beautiful in front of him.
I smile a little. The reflection in front of me smiles as well.
I'm happy to see him that way.
Having realized that I'm wasting time, I open the faucet and let the waters
sprinkle all over my hand.
Abruptly, I see new images in the mirror.
Five tall guys, wearing the same uniform. And they are glaring at me in an evil
way.
I don't want to turn my back and meet with their ugly faces. I'm still steady
standing. I know what those looks mean.
Damn, not again.
"W—what are you doing here...? Do you need anything from me...?"
"You're far way lucky, Kamui-kun. Having the main role in the play, having
paired-up with Fuuma-san and etcetera... We just can't figure out what's with
you...! You have a face but then what happens when we remove that?"
I clench my fist. I can't let *that* happen again since there would always be no
Kakyou-san to rescue me.
"You don't deserve anything of that. You one darn bitch!" One of them shouts.
I'm shocked with that. My eyes enlarge, "What the hell...! You don't know what
you're talking about!"
"We simply hate you. There you are entering the scene jut when everything seems
to be okay. With or without Sakurazuka-sama's words, we'll smash you, you
little!
Someone slams the door and the other one grabs me from behind.
Dammit! I said not again!
As my chest is being grasped, my neck soon follows.
The guy is too tall that my feet are now no longer touching the floor.
"Hey!" I choke, "Let go of me! Bastards!"
"We're going to beat the crap out of you."
The longhaired guy punches my stomach. Gods, I vomit blood.
"Vomit right away?"
Punches, kicks, fly over my body.
They're now hitting me with those brooms they bring along.
I don't understand but I can't scream.
I feel my own blood dripping down my cheeks from my forehead. And so are the
ones from my nose. My nose is bleeding.
They lay me down the floor. I have no strength to stand up at all.
Now I can see bruises all aver my arms.
One guy concentrates on my pants and slits my thigh lightly with a small fruit
knife. It hurts. Very much. Blood is now flowing out.
The other one seizes my neck violently and I thought for a while that it'd
break.
My eyes are partly open but I can still see them clearly.
"Why... are you doing this to me...?" I ask them very softly. I'm starting to
feel very very powerless.
"Because we just want to. Thank god that we didn't rape you. We're not perverts
and we don't think you can fulfill our lustful desires. You're as good as a
cockroach."
"Now that's enough. We've wounded him big time already."
"Shouldn't we smash his spinal column?"
"Gah, I don't want to be a killer, no."
"Funny, we almost did kill him."
"We better go before someone ever catches us."
Regarding that, they start getting ready to leave... and as they do, I feel that
my last left energy fades away.
Away...
"MAUVE!!!"
. . . . . . . .
I open my eyes. Hoping that everything is just a dream.
If not, I'm expecting to see Kakyou.
Is this what they call 'Déjà vu'?
Weird. The ceiling is not a simple one. It is covered with light-blue wallpaper
and the sides as well have lovely designs.
I notice that I'm being covered with a very silky blanket and so it is has
pleasant drawings.
I look under the blanket.
I'm half-naked. Bondages and band-aids cover almost one-half of my torso.
I'm no longer in my school pants but in a pair of white pajamas.
!!!
This_is_weird.
I look around me. This room is very enchanting. Though not that really huge, it
has nice features.
I try to rise. Eventually I twitch and fall back bed. I feel that my body is in
great pain and it hurts even more when I try to move.
"Where am I...?" I ask myself.
Just then, I hear a door rustles. I think it's the door at the other side of the
room. Not really the main one.
I tilt my head to the right even though it gives me a little throb.
Wait...
Fuuma?!?
"Ah--...?" He's currently in a bathrobe that fits him so well and his hair is a
little soaked.
Chotto matte... IS THIS A DREAM?
"Oh... So you're awake..." He immediately notices that I'm staring at him very
surprised.
The first thing that ever enters my mind is to ask him: "Where are we...?"
"Motel room."
My eyes bulge. Utterly stunned.
"M--- Motel room???" I ask for a clarification while my voice is shuddering.
Maybe my ears and my eyes are playing tricks on me.
"In fact, I was thinking of bringing you to a hotel instead in a motel because
you know what kind of a reputation does a motel has. But... my budget is not
enough to check-in in a hotel so..." He's talking while looking at my eyes.
Then, he brings along a chair and moves to my side.
"How are you feeling now?" He later asks.
Now this is really creepy. Fuuma and I are inside one room? And a motel room?
Crimson blushes start creeping across my cheeks.
Fuuma sounds very gentle, "I thought for sure that you're going to die... I
was... very worried..."
I swallow very hard. Is this really happening? I mean, many things I thought
were impossible but have already happened... But this... It's like... tomorrow
is the end of the world.
He starts explaining, "I was stricken with so much horror when I saw you lying
inside the restroom with so many bruises, wounds and blood. We were all worried
back there. I brought you to the infirmary right away and after they had cleaned
and covered your wounds, they asked me to bring you home. But I don't know where
you exactly live so... I brought you here. I remove your garments as Seishirou
might.…" He stops.
Wait... what exactly has happened?
... Yes... Those guys I actually don't know have beaten me up. They beat me and
I wasn't able to do anything to protect myself. They beat me because... I'm
involve with Fuuma...
"What happened...? You were already dying inside the restroom and yet you didn't
scream for help! What if you really did die!?!" Now he's angry.
I can't help but to cry.
"I... I..." I sob.
He then immediately snaps and takes a hold of my hands, which are excruciating a
little.
"I'm sorry... Did I scare you...? No, no... Don't cry... Please..." He whispers.
I'm not crying because he scares me. I'm crying because I'm puzzled.
As follows, he sits on the bed, still holding my hands.
"Thank you... I don't know what could've happened to me if you didn't..." I try
my best to speak even though I'm sobbing.
With that, he unexpectedly locks me within his arms. My backbones kind of hurt
but I don't care. The blanket slides off, revealing my bandaged-chest.
"I was just thinking... What if you really passed away? You're going to leave me
with only overcast regrets... I haven't even..."
I don't precisely get what he's trying to say but then my tears continue to
fall.
"Mauve... no... Kamui..."
His embrace becomes more tautened to which I feel warmer. The cramps, like miracle,
slowly disappear.
'Mauve'...? I've heard him whispering that name several times...
Who's Mauve...? I'm eager to know. He has always been mistaken me for this Mauve.
He continues, "I realized that many things await all of us... And the very last
one is death... So before anyone of us dies, I want you to know that I..."
I return his embrace. I don't know. Perhaps he's only practicing his emotions
for the play.
"I love you..., Kamui." Fuuma finishes.
...?...
What is that?
-Tsuzuku.
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AN: *blush* Didn't really give the spotlight to Subby-chan and Sei-chan but still,
I hope all of you enjoyed! ^^ Hurted Kamui-chan a little (or was it a lot) but all
the pains became heaven, ee?? ^_^ Okay, locate your names, minna-san! ^^
Madiha-san!!! ^^ Thanks for R&R and waiting!!!! I hope you wouldn't get tired
always waiting for so long! ^_~ Yuzu-chan... *jumps* I'm so glad I didn't make
her OOC! ^^ First time a non-OOC character! ^^ Heheh, thanks again! ^^
Kamikakushi-san, ei, thanks for reading YBD!!!! ^^ Oh, I'm so happy this could
make you laugh! ^^ Thank you! ^^ *throws Kamui and Fuuma in the CR on the other
hand*! ^^
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You gave me the courage to update chapter two and until here! @_@ I hope in the
near future, too, you'll always be there! =^^= I'll try my best to update ASAP
so you, too, okay? ^^ By the way, have you received my e-mail?? ^^ Oh, okay, you
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Fairy of irrelevance-san! ^^ Whoa... a kinda long review there... Let's see if I
can answer all those... ^^ First, I love you, too! ^_^ No need to thank me, I'm
happy doing that! ^^ Now... let's go on... [1] Hello there, guppy-chan and
rhiannon rabbitsbane!!! ^^ Do you know that you have a pretty cool friend
there?? ^^ smiles*! Thank goodness I'm safe...^^v [2] Hmm... no... Fuuma's not
yet free to pursue Kamui. It'd be a little longer for that. Oh, I love Kamui
being thin! ^^ [3] Thanks so much for loving this!!!! ^^ Don't worry, I'll work
with this until to the last chappie! ^^ I also love AU fics... ^^ Especially
when school, or something related to that, is included! ^^ I think it's so cool!
^^ But that doesn't mean I least like the others which aren't AU. It depends
with the story actually! ^^ [4] Oh, the play! ^^ I'm now planning to end that so
I can bring the story to the next level. But it's not yet final. ^^ Kamui-chan
submissive brother... Actually that idea was from one of my original stories...
But opposite. Younger bro loves Ni-san so much but Ni-san doesn't care... ^^ I
just recycled the idea! ^^ [5] Fuuma-kun... he's used controlling himself from
being protective of Kamui but when he isn't able to stand it anymore, it becomes
a little bit overkill... letting out all the care he imprisoned inside the
bottle. ^^ [6] Oh! Nataku! ^^ I've almost forgotten about him since he's long
way ago out of the picture! ^^ I'm glad you appreciated his part! ^^ Nataku-chan
thanks you! ^^ [7] Yuzu-chan is just a personal friend of Kamui who happens to
be fond, too, of Subaru-kun! ^^ [8] Fuuma and Sei! ^^ *giggles* Of course, I'll
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doesn't fit me. I call others '-sama'! ^^ Thanks for the praise! ^^ No,
actually, I cut the chapter when I think it's too long! ^^ Hehe, just kidding!
Of course, I think about it! ^^ Oh, yeah, if you can, please read YBD! ^^ Some
of the reviewers told me that it was quite good! ^^ I have the feeling that you
might like it, too! ^^ ...Oh, of course the sentence does make sense! ^^ I get
what you mean! ^^ You're German! ^^ My grandpa lives there and I'm used calling
him 'Opa' while I call my grandma 'Oma'! ^^ Is that what you call them, too? I
mean, are 'opa' and 'oma' for grandparents or really for parents?? ^^ Oh,
English is not my mother tongue that's why I'm so poor with it! ^^ I came from
the Philippines... Somewhere here on Southeast Asia! ^^ You're not annoying me!
^^ Actually, you flatter me! ^^ Well, till next chappie! ^^ Thank you and bai!
^^
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I'm looking for! ^^ 'Skeptics'! ^^ Of course, no pain, no glory. Kamui and Fuuma
should undergo a lot of things first before finally ending up together! ^^ If
they don't die because of longing, they'll end up together! ^^ Hehe! Domo
arigatou! I missed you! ^^
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torturing you but I don't mean it! Thank you for saying that this is good!
*happy* No, Fuuma and Sei aren't dream couple. I was just influenced by the
immense growth of SubaruXKamui fans and SeishirouXFuuma and I happen to also
like a seme/seme pairing... I liked the scene wherein Fuuma and Sei shared ice
cream! I think it was somewhere in volume 13, right? Or no? I've already
forgotten. Yeah, I know I'm kind of odd. ^_~ But still of course, my favorite
pairing is FuumaXKamui! ^^ No one could ever beat that! ^^ Domo!
HellFenix-san! ^^ Hello there! *jumps* NEW!!!! ^^ Thanks, too, for reviewing the
chapters separately! ^^ I appreciate that so much! ^^v Thank you! ^____^ Kamui
seems to be so blind because he never really imagined that someone like Fuuma
could ever like him... especially that it *is* Fuuma! ^^ Yes! Inferiority
complex is the word! ^^ I'm just sometimes disappointed because some
misinterpret Kamui here as weak. No, he's not, is he? ^^ Actually he's doing his
best now to be with Fuuma! ^^ Hinoto-hime... nothing with her! Don't mind her! I
just put her there to mess up with Kamui's brain so that Kamui runs away and
goes straight home to catch Sei! Eheh! ^^Thanks again for reading! ^^
Person-san! *waves* Is that really what you want to be known?? ^^;; Anyway,
thanks for the praise! ^^ I'm SOOOOOOOO happy you like this! ^^ Arigatou!
Isabeau-san!!! ^^ I love you, too! ^_^ That's not big deal, really! ^^ I love
answering reviews. ^.^ Hmm... yeah... I'm actually planning about Fuuma and
Kamui's first kiss...! *blush* *winks* Sooner... Just wait! ^_^ Thank you for
R&R!
Aestalitz-san! Hey! ^^ Hehe! Here I go again! ^^ Did I hear someone
mentioned 'EXAM'!?! Argh! I hate exams! Good luck to you! ^^ Or if it's
already finished, I hope you got high grades! ^^ Yuzu-chan... Don't mind her
^^ Besides, what's important is that Kamui doesn't listen to her. ^^ Fuuma
seems really bad so you can't blame her!
^^ ...Hihi... Sei... let's say he's just 'house-hopping'! ^^ Oh yeah...
Keiichi...! Where on earth is he?! Oh, do you have an idea if he'll ever have a
tarot card??? I think 'The Sun' fits him well... *GASP* Vic and Jerry! ^^ Love
them! I'm an F4 fan... I love the Yamaha commercial very much... HEHEHEH...
*BLINK* Tsubasa??? You mean with the 'Reservoir Chronicle' thingy??? And what's
the connection with this XXXholic?? I think I saw it somewhere... Yeah, I saw an
older Sakura and Syaoran but I'm not that sure about that yet... OH!!!!
TOUYA!!!!!!!! Where???? ^^ Is Yukito in there, too??? I hope they end up as a
true couple there! ^^ If it were possible! ^^ Let me research more on that,
oki?? ^^ 'Till next chappie! ^^
Bloaty Kitsune-san!!! ^^ Hello! ^^ It's okay if you review later than the
others! ^^ What's important is there you are and you read and reviewed! ^^ Zai
Zai performed really well at the concert *applauds*! ^^ OH! *looks back and
forth searching for a knife* Oh no! Blood!!!!!! ^_^ Sorry for updating a little
bit late! ^^ I'm doing my best to be as early as possible but I just can't...!
*cries~* Thanks again for R&R! ^v^
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^^
Mashou no Tenshi-san!!! ^^ NEW!!! I'm so happy every time I read new names! ^^
THANK YOU!!!!!!!! ^^ You go find out more about X now! ^^ I know you'll get
pretty well amaze! ^^ 'Mauve'... *giggles* I hope I'm like a Mauve to my crush,
too... He could have nicknamed me... 'Blackie'. *giggles* I'm just kidding! ^^
Thanks for the praises! ^^ I hope you R&R again! ^^
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^^ Ah, like my dad also... Always messes-up with the PC I use. *sweatdrops* Hey,
I wouldn't want to kill anybody... especially you! ^^ You ask someone else,
okay? ^^ Eheh... Thanks for the review again! ^^ Ja ne!
Noir14-san! ^^ Thanks for R&R! ^_^ Yes, I'll continue this! ^^ Don't worry! As
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Futagoakuma-tenshi02-san! Nyak... I forgot how to type it correctly... forgive me,
I'm doing this in memory since I have no Internet... ^^;; Oh...! Sadame...! Yes! Since I've
seen X episode 0, it does mean that I've heard of it! ^_^ So "Sadame" is the title, huh? ^^
Thanks for saying that this is good! I'm so proud! And yes, I'm a loving author! Sometimes...
I'm like what you have said... but only sometimes! ^_^ All right... the play... poor poor
Kamui, ne? Because Fuuma is always the center of attraction and Kamui becomes the
center of destruction on the other hand! ^^;;Oh... I only got two months to stay in school
now. After two months... VACATION!!!! And then I'm on my Junior years... AWWWW....
Okay, good luck to you again! ^^ DOMO!!!!
Until next time, minna-san!!!!!!! ^_^
-=Kamui Kinomoto=-
Part Twelve- Wish
AN: Never mind the title... My mind is currently blank... ^^;;; Anyway....
I'm back, minna-san!!! ^^
Disclaimers: [I read somewhere that disclaimers are REALLY important
and I find myself too lazy to put...] X and all the kawaii characters belong to
CLAMP-sama and Hizashi-sensei is just a name for the director of the play! ^^
Someway she belongs to me but I don't necessarily want her to be mine... ^^
~~~~~~
Subaru. With Sakurazuka.
Is there any bigger surprise than that?
I can hear their conversation. And yes, I'm undeniably eavesdropping.
They didn't notice me when I opened the door so I decided to leave it that way.
Besides, if I'll close it, they might catch me already.
The two of them are sitting in the couch with Subaru on one end and Seishirou on
the other. The older man is holding a cup of tea. I assume Subaru, being a
little nice host, gave him that.
If I were on his place, I'll put poison in that.
Heaven forgive me with what I've thought.
"Are you really his lover?" Seishirou suddenly asks Subaru.
"I have no comment with that. It's not for you to know, Seishirou-san."
I see Seishirou smiles with that a little bit sweetly.
"I'm just curious. That boy seems to be a little... cynical. I don't know if
that's the word. He's in his teenage period so I think... I'll take back what
I've said. He's angsty."
Damn. I'm irritated. He's talking about me. My rival, there, he is talking about
me like he's someone who knows me personally.
"You don't know him that well yet." Subaru says coldly. And I'm touched with
that.
"Why? You think you do?" That man with the black trench coat questions.
In my point of view, Subaru gasps a little with that and starts paying attention
with the man in front of him. He blinks a couple of times and clears his throat
gently.
"What do you mean?"
Seishirou then gets a cigarette somewhere from his suit and lights it. Then, he
breathes a little of it and puffs it out slowly through Subaru's direction. I
think he's just trying to annoy Subaru.
After that, he snuffs it down to the ashtray on our small living room table as I
put it there a long time ago because Subaru also happens to smoke cigarette
regularly. Shoot. I never imagined it'd be of Seishirou's use.
They continue with Seishirou replying. "I mean... do you know his favorite
color? Music? Simple things like that."
Subaru shakes his head gently.
"So what do you know about your lover?"
"Nothing." He answers bluntly. Seishirou blinks but Subaru continues, "All I
know is that... He's not happy. Not yet happy."
The other man is speechless.
And so I am.
"I do love him and I want him to be happy. Sometimes, I become fierce with him
but I really love him. I want him to be happy but I... I don't know what would
make him. I know not me, but still... I want to try. Many times, I asked him to
give it a try and one time we did but it just wouldn't work."
I want to cry with that. I don't really appreciate Subaru much. As long as I
love Fuuma, nothing between Subaru and I would work.
Many times I want to apologize but I just can't bring out the words.
"You mean... you're not his lover?"
Oh no. If ever Seishirou finds out that I mislead him about my relationship with
Subaru, I'm dead.
My heart starts beating loudly but not speedily. Just loud.
"I didn't say that. He's my lover, I'm his lover, and you can't do anything with
that. Besides, what's really the reason that you're here? Just to ask me about
how Kamui and I are going?"
Seishirou grins a little and puts away his glasses then looks straight at
Subaru's eyes, "I'm just making sure. You see, I just want to help you with the
boy."
Subaru then stands up and Fuuma's lover follows him with a stare. Crap, I want
to vomit that I said that.
"If that's the case, I don't need your help."
"I have theories. Our boyfriends are acting a little bit weird."
"I'm not interested with your theories."
Suddenly, Seishirou stands up and moves closer to Subaru and the latter gasps.
He grasps Subaru's wrists and moves his face a bit closer to him.
Now this is not right. Does he have a tendency to cheat on Fuuma?
Subaru tries to move away but he can hardly do, "Hey...! Let go of me...!"
"I wonder if you'll be able to say that again after tomorrow, Subaru-kun."
Because of astonishment, I didn't notice that I have knocked over the pot, which
is here beside our door.
Both Seishirou and Subaru tilt their heads to look and I even hear Seishirou
says: 'The door is open.'.
But luckily, before they can even take a glimpse of me, I'm here inside this
another apartment room. As far as I'm concerned, nobody rents this room yet. I'm
safe.
After dinner, Subaru asks me to give little of my time to him and I agree.
"What's Monou Fuuma to you?" He asks right away.
My eyes bulge with that. Why the heck is he asking me this?
"I... I don't know...! What do you mean?" I try to bring-out the stage-actor in
me.
"Do you happen to... be involve with him?"
"He's a schoolmate..." I stutter.
"I know I told you to forget about yesterday. But I need to bring this out. Stay
away from him, and so with his so-called-lover."
"Kedo...!"
"He's just a schoolmate, isn't he? It's easy to stay away from him. I mean,
don't go to the place wherein you know he stays. If possible, try to think that
they don't even exist."
You don't know how impossible that is, Subaru.
I ask him why.
His reply is this- "I don't want you to be involve with those two."
It's quite impossible now. But I give Subaru a reluctant nod.
I wonder what were those other things Seishirou informed him to make him think
this way.
"Tsuki... I... I love you..." Fuuma whispers to my neck.
We're currently having our practice since the play is already approaching.
This is my favorite part. No. All the scenes that Fuuma and I are together are
my favorites and one of those is this.
"I love you, too, but... not as you want me to. Ni-san, I love you as a brother,
brother because you're my brother."
He looks directly at my eyes and it sends me shivers. I might forget my lines.
"For once, please let me feel you not as a brother..." He hisses and I can feel
cold sweats trickling down my back ad cheeks. Fuuma's breath is really hot.
While doing this, I can say that my hand is quivering and I know that Fuuma
notices.
It just stops when... Fuuma grab a hold of it with his larger palm.
"Tsuki, tell me 'I love you, Asahi'. That's all I want..."
I gulp. Now this is the scene we've never tried to rehearse yet. I know the
lines but I don't know what to do. This is the first time we ever reached this
part without any meddling.
I take a glimpse at Hizashi-sensei and she nods. That means she wants us to
continue so I look back at Fuuma. He's having a serious eye contact with me and
it makes me feel more pressured wit this. I hope I don't get this wrong.
I open my mouth and try to deliver the lines, "I... I love you, Asahi...?"
Slowly, Fuuma brings his right hand to my cheek. The other one is still holding
my shaking hand. I bite my lip.
Even more softly, he traces my cheekbone until he has cupped my chin with his
long slender fingers. He then lifts my jaw slightly and lowers his head little
by little. He is opening his mouth so I decided to do the same.
I might faint. My heart is beating fast and loud. Too loud for the whole world
to hear. I can't breath normally.
I'm looking at his golden eyes while he's staring at my lips, concentrating on
the scene.
Fuuma's eyes are half-closed now.
In the script, it says he'll kiss me.
That's something.
This isn't my first kiss but if ever this continues, this would be my first kiss
with the person I truly love and adore.
"Aishiteru..." I read his lips whispering that.
'Aishiteru'... Really how I wish that in my actual life, Fuuma would tell me
that because he does. Not only because he needs to.
I swallow hard when I feel that Fuuma's grasp to my hand became somewhat
tightened. He raises it a bit.
His face is just inches away from mine. Shouldn't I feel happy and grab the
chance?
No. That's taking advantage.
I look at his open lips. It's neither dry nor wet. It's just simply delectable.
I can feel his ebony bangs to my forehead now. He's so close. With that, I lock
my eyes and try to wait patiently with what will happen next.
I'm not that intense since I know that having my first kiss with Fuuma will take
a longer while as I don't sense I can have it *that* easily without suffering
from any pain. But still I wish, this kiss would continue until it becomes a
reality.
/It will only bring you so much misery. I feel it's not worth it. As early as
now... you better stop./ I hear the girl's voice inside my mind. That makes me
snap out of my fantasies.
I open my eyes and pull away from Fuuma.
He unlocks his eyes, too.
"Na... ze...?" I hear him whisper.
I feel so lost and confused. Why did I do that?! Isn't the kiss what I want?
I notice now that I have my two hands near my chest and both are closed. I glue
my eyes at Fuuma. I want to make sure that he's Fuuma.
He's staring at me, completely unaware of what suddenly happened to me. He
probably thinks now that I'm a complete idiot.
"Ore wa..." I attempt to find the words to explain but suddenly, Hizashi-sensei
approaches us, clapping and smiling.
"Good job, you two. That was perfect! I'm so glad that you are my main actors!
We continue that scene later after the break, okay?" She says.
Then, she looks at Fuuma but Fuuma is still staring at me. Very bemused.
"Monou-kun, is it okay for Sakurazuka-san for you to have a kiss scene with
Shirou-kun? Do you think we should better fake it?"
My most beloved looks at her and tried to smile a little. "He's not here so I
don't know. But... his opinion is not needed with that affair. It's my lips to
use after all. As for me, it's okay to kiss Shirou-kun since this is work. I
know many audiences will love that. I want a perfect show. How many times we
need to do kissing-scenes?"
"Three or four... I think? The two are just for an instant while the other one
is passionate. The left one should be harsh as you are just forcing him to do it
with you. Shirou-kun, is that all right with you? We can fake the others if you
want."
I don't think I can reply yet. The voice is repeatedly playing in my brain.
But then, I notice Fuuma tilts his head back at me then gazes with a bit of
niggle, "Wouldn't your boyfriend become jealous? I think he's the type."
Huh? Subaru doesn't even know about this and I absolutely have no plan to let
him find out. And moreover, he's not my boyfriend. Just a surrogate one to be
able to hide from Seishirou's eyes.
I shake my head gently. Who wouldn't want to be kissed by the person he loves
the most?
"It's... not a problem... Actually, Subaru is very supportive to me when it
comes to things like this. He's not the jealous type. He knows the difference
between work and reality." I explain, as I act like someone so sincere.
I see Fuuma's fingers flinch a little and I sense some kind of an unexplainable
pang. He then removes his gaze from me and lays it to the ground. He's quiet
for a while but it didn't last for long.
He smirks afterwards and looks at our director, "Well then. That's good to
hear, isn't it, Hizashi-sensei?"
Hizashi-san smiles and nods with it, "Yes, very nice to know that. So... we
don't have problems anymore! Well yes, we still do, but that's easy."
I look down. I'm hiding behind tons of lies already. I know that not long after,
everyone will know the truth that they needed to know but…
"I think I'll ask for his permission first. How about that, Shirou-kun?" Fuuma
asks me with a very fake smile. I don't know. I just think that that smile of
his doesn't really come from the heart.
I want to avoid that question. I'm sure that a 'no' won't give him any
satisfaction but a 'yes' will kill me.
I pretend that I don't care about his matter and I bow in front of them,
"Sumimasen, I need to go the restroom. I'll be back for a minute. Domo."
Instantly, I go out of their sights and yes, proceed to the restroom.
In front of me is a mirror. I can see myself clearly.
I have two large purple eyes and light-raven hair. When stricken with sunrays,
it becomes brown. I have fair skin. My body frame is so thin.
It's rare that I look at myself in the mirror because I tend to hate what I see.
But now, someway, I already feel good about myself. By being with Fuuma, I'm
starting to remove the skeletons inside my closet because I want to breath
normally. I want to look normal and beautiful in front of him.
I smile a little. The reflection in front of me smiles as well.
I'm happy to see him that way.
Having realized that I'm wasting time, I open the faucet and let the waters
sprinkle all over my hand.
Abruptly, I see new images in the mirror.
Five tall guys, wearing the same uniform. And they are glaring at me in an evil
way.
I don't want to turn my back and meet with their ugly faces. I'm still steady
standing. I know what those looks mean.
Damn, not again.
"W—what are you doing here...? Do you need anything from me...?"
"You're far way lucky, Kamui-kun. Having the main role in the play, having
paired-up with Fuuma-san and etcetera... We just can't figure out what's with
you...! You have a face but then what happens when we remove that?"
I clench my fist. I can't let *that* happen again since there would always be no
Kakyou-san to rescue me.
"You don't deserve anything of that. You one darn bitch!" One of them shouts.
I'm shocked with that. My eyes enlarge, "What the hell...! You don't know what
you're talking about!"
"We simply hate you. There you are entering the scene jut when everything seems
to be okay. With or without Sakurazuka-sama's words, we'll smash you, you
little!
Someone slams the door and the other one grabs me from behind.
Dammit! I said not again!
As my chest is being grasped, my neck soon follows.
The guy is too tall that my feet are now no longer touching the floor.
"Hey!" I choke, "Let go of me! Bastards!"
"We're going to beat the crap out of you."
The longhaired guy punches my stomach. Gods, I vomit blood.
"Vomit right away?"
Punches, kicks, fly over my body.
They're now hitting me with those brooms they bring along.
I don't understand but I can't scream.
I feel my own blood dripping down my cheeks from my forehead. And so are the
ones from my nose. My nose is bleeding.
They lay me down the floor. I have no strength to stand up at all.
Now I can see bruises all aver my arms.
One guy concentrates on my pants and slits my thigh lightly with a small fruit
knife. It hurts. Very much. Blood is now flowing out.
The other one seizes my neck violently and I thought for a while that it'd
break.
My eyes are partly open but I can still see them clearly.
"Why... are you doing this to me...?" I ask them very softly. I'm starting to
feel very very powerless.
"Because we just want to. Thank god that we didn't rape you. We're not perverts
and we don't think you can fulfill our lustful desires. You're as good as a
cockroach."
"Now that's enough. We've wounded him big time already."
"Shouldn't we smash his spinal column?"
"Gah, I don't want to be a killer, no."
"Funny, we almost did kill him."
"We better go before someone ever catches us."
Regarding that, they start getting ready to leave... and as they do, I feel that
my last left energy fades away.
Away...
"MAUVE!!!"
. . . . . . . .
I open my eyes. Hoping that everything is just a dream.
If not, I'm expecting to see Kakyou.
Is this what they call 'Déjà vu'?
Weird. The ceiling is not a simple one. It is covered with light-blue wallpaper
and the sides as well have lovely designs.
I notice that I'm being covered with a very silky blanket and so it is has
pleasant drawings.
I look under the blanket.
I'm half-naked. Bondages and band-aids cover almost one-half of my torso.
I'm no longer in my school pants but in a pair of white pajamas.
!!!
This_is_weird.
I look around me. This room is very enchanting. Though not that really huge, it
has nice features.
I try to rise. Eventually I twitch and fall back bed. I feel that my body is in
great pain and it hurts even more when I try to move.
"Where am I...?" I ask myself.
Just then, I hear a door rustles. I think it's the door at the other side of the
room. Not really the main one.
I tilt my head to the right even though it gives me a little throb.
Wait...
Fuuma?!?
"Ah--...?" He's currently in a bathrobe that fits him so well and his hair is a
little soaked.
Chotto matte... IS THIS A DREAM?
"Oh... So you're awake..." He immediately notices that I'm staring at him very
surprised.
The first thing that ever enters my mind is to ask him: "Where are we...?"
"Motel room."
My eyes bulge. Utterly stunned.
"M--- Motel room???" I ask for a clarification while my voice is shuddering.
Maybe my ears and my eyes are playing tricks on me.
"In fact, I was thinking of bringing you to a hotel instead in a motel because
you know what kind of a reputation does a motel has. But... my budget is not
enough to check-in in a hotel so..." He's talking while looking at my eyes.
Then, he brings along a chair and moves to my side.
"How are you feeling now?" He later asks.
Now this is really creepy. Fuuma and I are inside one room? And a motel room?
Crimson blushes start creeping across my cheeks.
Fuuma sounds very gentle, "I thought for sure that you're going to die... I
was... very worried..."
I swallow very hard. Is this really happening? I mean, many things I thought
were impossible but have already happened... But this... It's like... tomorrow
is the end of the world.
He starts explaining, "I was stricken with so much horror when I saw you lying
inside the restroom with so many bruises, wounds and blood. We were all worried
back there. I brought you to the infirmary right away and after they had cleaned
and covered your wounds, they asked me to bring you home. But I don't know where
you exactly live so... I brought you here. I remove your garments as Seishirou
might.…" He stops.
Wait... what exactly has happened?
... Yes... Those guys I actually don't know have beaten me up. They beat me and
I wasn't able to do anything to protect myself. They beat me because... I'm
involve with Fuuma...
"What happened...? You were already dying inside the restroom and yet you didn't
scream for help! What if you really did die!?!" Now he's angry.
I can't help but to cry.
"I... I..." I sob.
He then immediately snaps and takes a hold of my hands, which are excruciating a
little.
"I'm sorry... Did I scare you...? No, no... Don't cry... Please..." He whispers.
I'm not crying because he scares me. I'm crying because I'm puzzled.
As follows, he sits on the bed, still holding my hands.
"Thank you... I don't know what could've happened to me if you didn't..." I try
my best to speak even though I'm sobbing.
With that, he unexpectedly locks me within his arms. My backbones kind of hurt
but I don't care. The blanket slides off, revealing my bandaged-chest.
"I was just thinking... What if you really passed away? You're going to leave me
with only overcast regrets... I haven't even..."
I don't precisely get what he's trying to say but then my tears continue to
fall.
"Mauve... no... Kamui..."
His embrace becomes more tautened to which I feel warmer. The cramps, like miracle,
slowly disappear.
'Mauve'...? I've heard him whispering that name several times...
Who's Mauve...? I'm eager to know. He has always been mistaken me for this Mauve.
He continues, "I realized that many things await all of us... And the very last
one is death... So before anyone of us dies, I want you to know that I..."
I return his embrace. I don't know. Perhaps he's only practicing his emotions
for the play.
"I love you..., Kamui." Fuuma finishes.
...?...
What is that?
-Tsuzuku.
~~~~~~
AN: *blush* Didn't really give the spotlight to Subby-chan and Sei-chan but still,
I hope all of you enjoyed! ^^ Hurted Kamui-chan a little (or was it a lot) but all
the pains became heaven, ee?? ^_^ Okay, locate your names, minna-san! ^^
Madiha-san!!! ^^ Thanks for R&R and waiting!!!! I hope you wouldn't get tired
always waiting for so long! ^_~ Yuzu-chan... *jumps* I'm so glad I didn't make
her OOC! ^^ First time a non-OOC character! ^^ Heheh, thanks again! ^^
Kamikakushi-san, ei, thanks for reading YBD!!!! ^^ Oh, I'm so happy this could
make you laugh! ^^ Thank you! ^^ *throws Kamui and Fuuma in the CR on the other
hand*! ^^
Dahlia-san!!!!!!!!! ^^ I miss you again! ^^ Always thank you for R&R!!!! ^_^ I'm
so happy every time I read a review from you! ^o^ Mm! Everyone has a freedom to
love as long as he/she doesn't hurt someone else's feelings intentionally! ^^
YEAH! ^^ *waves also* *sniffs* Thank you so much for appreciating my work!
*sniff* I don't think I can thank you enough! You're there right from the start!
You gave me the courage to update chapter two and until here! @_@ I hope in the
near future, too, you'll always be there! =^^= I'll try my best to update ASAP
so you, too, okay? ^^ By the way, have you received my e-mail?? ^^ Oh, okay, you
update with GnR and MS now, all right??? Because I terribly miss it!!!!! ^^
DOMO! ^^
Fairy of irrelevance-san! ^^ Whoa... a kinda long review there... Let's see if I
can answer all those... ^^ First, I love you, too! ^_^ No need to thank me, I'm
happy doing that! ^^ Now... let's go on... [1] Hello there, guppy-chan and
rhiannon rabbitsbane!!! ^^ Do you know that you have a pretty cool friend
there?? ^^ smiles*! Thank goodness I'm safe...^^v [2] Hmm... no... Fuuma's not
yet free to pursue Kamui. It'd be a little longer for that. Oh, I love Kamui
being thin! ^^ [3] Thanks so much for loving this!!!! ^^ Don't worry, I'll work
with this until to the last chappie! ^^ I also love AU fics... ^^ Especially
when school, or something related to that, is included! ^^ I think it's so cool!
^^ But that doesn't mean I least like the others which aren't AU. It depends
with the story actually! ^^ [4] Oh, the play! ^^ I'm now planning to end that so
I can bring the story to the next level. But it's not yet final. ^^ Kamui-chan
submissive brother... Actually that idea was from one of my original stories...
But opposite. Younger bro loves Ni-san so much but Ni-san doesn't care... ^^ I
just recycled the idea! ^^ [5] Fuuma-kun... he's used controlling himself from
being protective of Kamui but when he isn't able to stand it anymore, it becomes
a little bit overkill... letting out all the care he imprisoned inside the
bottle. ^^ [6] Oh! Nataku! ^^ I've almost forgotten about him since he's long
way ago out of the picture! ^^ I'm glad you appreciated his part! ^^ Nataku-chan
thanks you! ^^ [7] Yuzu-chan is just a personal friend of Kamui who happens to
be fond, too, of Subaru-kun! ^^ [8] Fuuma and Sei! ^^ *giggles* Of course, I'll
explain that sooner! ^^ [9] Okay! ^^ Thanks again for R&R! ^^ I hope I was able
to answer all your questions! ^^ Thanks for the praises!!!!!!!!! I appreciate
those very much more than you could ever imagine! ^^ Bye! ^^
P.S. MY, MY!!!!!!! Thanks for reading my CLOVER fic!!!!!!!! *droolLANdroolGINGETSU*
^^ Aww... here's TD chapter 12, you see? ^^ And I've answere all your questions! ^^
THANK YOU SO MUCH! ^^ I hope very much that it touched you! ^^ I'm so happy
about those things you said! ^^
Fanny chan-san!!!!! ^^ I miss you! =^_^= Thank you for still reading! ^^ Thank
you! *_*
?-san! ^^ Please make yourself known to me! ^^ Anyway, I'm so happy you're glad
about me updating! ^^ Thank you so much! ^^ Oh, I'll continue and finish with
this! ^^ Promise! ^^ YA!!! F/K Forever!!!!!!! ^^
SupaSaiyajin-san!!!! ^^ Oh... SubaruXKamui...? I just said F/K forever...
*whispers*! Oh!!!! I'm so glad you like the style! ^^ You really get a clear
picture of his feelings, eh?? ^^ I'm so proud to know that! ^^ Thanks for R&R!
^^ Ja ne mo! ^^
Featherlight-san!!!!! ^^ Yes!! I update!! ^^ I'll never leave this hanging! ^^
Besides, I feel lonely, too, every time I don't see the FF I read being updated
*winks*! ^^ More F/K scenes will follow soon! ^^ I'm just finding the right
timing! ^^ And Hinoto... she was there just to mess with Kamui's brain! ^^ Don't
worry, she doesn't really have a big part! ^^ And Sei-chan~~~~~! ^^ Anyway,
thanks again! ^^
Link621-san!!!! ^^ *blinks* OH!!!!!!!!!! That... that was very cool!!!! I think
that was a better summary!!! I've never thought of that! ^^ I think I can use
that sooner, what do you think?? ^^ You do good with summarizing! ^^ Thanks for
the idea and the praise! ^^ I hope both of you like this! ^^
Strawberry Eyes-san!!!!!! ^^ Hello there!!!! ^^ Oh please, leave the '-sama'
part! ^^ Besides, I'm so used being my friend's 'ukeish toy' so I think '-sama'
doesn't fit me. I call others '-sama'! ^^ Thanks for the praise! ^^ No,
actually, I cut the chapter when I think it's too long! ^^ Hehe, just kidding!
Of course, I think about it! ^^ Oh, yeah, if you can, please read YBD! ^^ Some
of the reviewers told me that it was quite good! ^^ I have the feeling that you
might like it, too! ^^ ...Oh, of course the sentence does make sense! ^^ I get
what you mean! ^^ You're German! ^^ My grandpa lives there and I'm used calling
him 'Opa' while I call my grandma 'Oma'! ^^ Is that what you call them, too? I
mean, are 'opa' and 'oma' for grandparents or really for parents?? ^^ Oh,
English is not my mother tongue that's why I'm so poor with it! ^^ I came from
the Philippines... Somewhere here on Southeast Asia! ^^ You're not annoying me!
^^ Actually, you flatter me! ^^ Well, till next chappie! ^^ Thank you and bai!
^^
Akurei Hikari-san! ^^ Thanks for reading! ^^ But what do you mean his 'pseudo
relationship'?? ^^
Ishuzu-san!!!!!!!! ^^ Hello!!!!!!! Always thank you! ^^ Yes, that was the word
I'm looking for! ^^ 'Skeptics'! ^^ Of course, no pain, no glory. Kamui and Fuuma
should undergo a lot of things first before finally ending up together! ^^ If
they don't die because of longing, they'll end up together! ^^ Hehe! Domo
arigatou! I missed you! ^^
Chris pwure-san!!! ^^Thank you, you read YBD! ^_^ Anyway, I'm sorry for
torturing you but I don't mean it! Thank you for saying that this is good!
*happy* No, Fuuma and Sei aren't dream couple. I was just influenced by the
immense growth of SubaruXKamui fans and SeishirouXFuuma and I happen to also
like a seme/seme pairing... I liked the scene wherein Fuuma and Sei shared ice
cream! I think it was somewhere in volume 13, right? Or no? I've already
forgotten. Yeah, I know I'm kind of odd. ^_~ But still of course, my favorite
pairing is FuumaXKamui! ^^ No one could ever beat that! ^^ Domo!
HellFenix-san! ^^ Hello there! *jumps* NEW!!!! ^^ Thanks, too, for reviewing the
chapters separately! ^^ I appreciate that so much! ^^v Thank you! ^____^ Kamui
seems to be so blind because he never really imagined that someone like Fuuma
could ever like him... especially that it *is* Fuuma! ^^ Yes! Inferiority
complex is the word! ^^ I'm just sometimes disappointed because some
misinterpret Kamui here as weak. No, he's not, is he? ^^ Actually he's doing his
best now to be with Fuuma! ^^ Hinoto-hime... nothing with her! Don't mind her! I
just put her there to mess up with Kamui's brain so that Kamui runs away and
goes straight home to catch Sei! Eheh! ^^Thanks again for reading! ^^
Person-san! *waves* Is that really what you want to be known?? ^^;; Anyway,
thanks for the praise! ^^ I'm SOOOOOOOO happy you like this! ^^ Arigatou!
Isabeau-san!!! ^^ I love you, too! ^_^ That's not big deal, really! ^^ I love
answering reviews. ^.^ Hmm... yeah... I'm actually planning about Fuuma and
Kamui's first kiss...! *blush* *winks* Sooner... Just wait! ^_^ Thank you for
R&R!
Aestalitz-san! Hey! ^^ Hehe! Here I go again! ^^ Did I hear someone
mentioned 'EXAM'!?! Argh! I hate exams! Good luck to you! ^^ Or if it's
already finished, I hope you got high grades! ^^ Yuzu-chan... Don't mind her
^^ Besides, what's important is that Kamui doesn't listen to her. ^^ Fuuma
seems really bad so you can't blame her!
^^ ...Hihi... Sei... let's say he's just 'house-hopping'! ^^ Oh yeah...
Keiichi...! Where on earth is he?! Oh, do you have an idea if he'll ever have a
tarot card??? I think 'The Sun' fits him well... *GASP* Vic and Jerry! ^^ Love
them! I'm an F4 fan... I love the Yamaha commercial very much... HEHEHEH...
*BLINK* Tsubasa??? You mean with the 'Reservoir Chronicle' thingy??? And what's
the connection with this XXXholic?? I think I saw it somewhere... Yeah, I saw an
older Sakura and Syaoran but I'm not that sure about that yet... OH!!!!
TOUYA!!!!!!!! Where???? ^^ Is Yukito in there, too??? I hope they end up as a
true couple there! ^^ If it were possible! ^^ Let me research more on that,
oki?? ^^ 'Till next chappie! ^^
Bloaty Kitsune-san!!! ^^ Hello! ^^ It's okay if you review later than the
others! ^^ What's important is there you are and you read and reviewed! ^^ Zai
Zai performed really well at the concert *applauds*! ^^ OH! *looks back and
forth searching for a knife* Oh no! Blood!!!!!! ^_^ Sorry for updating a little
bit late! ^^ I'm doing my best to be as early as possible but I just can't...!
*cries~* Thanks again for R&R! ^v^
Sakurazuka-chan-san! Thanks for reading! ^^ Domo so much, you seemed to like it!
^^
Mashou no Tenshi-san!!! ^^ NEW!!! I'm so happy every time I read new names! ^^
THANK YOU!!!!!!!! ^^ You go find out more about X now! ^^ I know you'll get
pretty well amaze! ^^ 'Mauve'... *giggles* I hope I'm like a Mauve to my crush,
too... He could have nicknamed me... 'Blackie'. *giggles* I'm just kidding! ^^
Thanks for the praises! ^^ I hope you R&R again! ^^
Shinigami11-san! ^^ I thought you've already forgotten about this whole thing!
^^ Ah, like my dad also... Always messes-up with the PC I use. *sweatdrops* Hey,
I wouldn't want to kill anybody... especially you! ^^ You ask someone else,
okay? ^^ Eheh... Thanks for the review again! ^^ Ja ne!
Noir14-san! ^^ Thanks for R&R! ^_^ Yes, I'll continue this! ^^ Don't worry! As
long as there is someone who wants me to, I will! ^^ Domo! ^^
Futagoakuma-tenshi02-san! Nyak... I forgot how to type it correctly... forgive me,
I'm doing this in memory since I have no Internet... ^^;; Oh...! Sadame...! Yes! Since I've
seen X episode 0, it does mean that I've heard of it! ^_^ So "Sadame" is the title, huh? ^^
Thanks for saying that this is good! I'm so proud! And yes, I'm a loving author! Sometimes...
I'm like what you have said... but only sometimes! ^_^ All right... the play... poor poor
Kamui, ne? Because Fuuma is always the center of attraction and Kamui becomes the
center of destruction on the other hand! ^^;;Oh... I only got two months to stay in school
now. After two months... VACATION!!!! And then I'm on my Junior years... AWWWW....
Okay, good luck to you again! ^^ DOMO!!!!
Until next time, minna-san!!!!!!! ^_^
-=Kamui Kinomoto=-