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A/N: Thanks to all of those who reviewed. Sorry for such a long delay, I was gone due to the holiday.

Chapter 4

All throughout their dinner, Haru kept watching the way Kyo's lips moved as he took tiny bites of the fish he had made. His own mouth just wants to ravish the older teen and he wonders how he'll make it through tonight with the teen in his small bed. He can't stop staring at his kitten's firm behind as he stands up to wash the dishes. "Kyo, do you want to visit his grave," he asks just to make some sort of conversation and he steps up behind his beloved hugging him to his chest while his lips ghost over his ear. He feels his beloved tense and gently pets his hair before wrapping his arms once again around the felines waist. "Why? So I can dance on it and laugh at him," Kyo demands while he drops the bowls into the dish rack. "If you want to," Haru mummers finding it harder to control his teenage hormones as the neko steps back accidentally pressing their bodies together and Kyo states irritably, "I don't want to see Akito at all, it doesn't matter whether he's dead or alive." Stepping to the side, Kyo detangles himself from Haru's greedy limbs and heads upstairs to hide on the roof.

Liquid tears fall from the sky soaking his small, weary form within seconds. His orange locks lay flat upon his head, clinging desperately to his paling face, as his t-shirt becomes a second skin. Lying back, Kyo hates himself for becoming so tired and weak due to a simple storm. He'd rather be inside the dry house, but he couldn't handle Haru's innocent advances anymore. His mind kept bringing up the past even though he knew that Haru wouldn't hurt him the way Domenic had. His eyes close against his will and his mind floods with dreams of his life before he came back to Shigure's.

: It had been raining and he was trying to make his boyfriend a nice meal for when he came home from work. Despite the fact that the storm exhausted him, he still sat up and prepared a pasta dinner. After it had been finished, he laid upon the couch waiting for Domenic to arrive so they could share the meal with each other. He had wanted tonight to be special. He wanted to show his boyfriend how much he loved him. Well past midnight the man came staggering through the door awakening him and he rubbed his eyes before standing up to greet the man.

'I made dinner for us,' he said approaching the drunken man and the blond turned his dangerous blues upon him saying, 'I wouldn't eat anything you've made even if I was starving, I ate with Kohana tonight.' He tried his hardest to hide his pain and guilt fully he looked away when he noticed the lipstick smudges on the man's collar. 'You cheated on me,' he finally growled ready to punch the man then Domenic stepped forward and shoved him onto the couch.

He felt the man ripping his clothes off then the searing pain. Afterwards, he laid in the tub sobbing and the man sobered from their encounter watched him with loving eyes saying, 'You do know that I love you, right? I didn't cheat on you, she tried forcing herself onto me but I pushed her away. I didn't mean what I said. The food was delicious." He had nodded dumbly and accepted the man's adoring kisses greedily. In the morning Domenic dressed himself calmly and he sat up praying that his lover would at least look at him. 'I promise that will never happen again, honey. I was drunk and angry at my job. You understand, don't you? Tonight I'll make it up to you."

When Domenic came home that night he quickly stood to greet him from the couch where his virginity had been savagely taken. The man held out a dozen wine red roses and a card that said Sorry. His lover had brought home food so that he wouldn't have to move too much then they lay together. He couldn't stop himself from cringing every time he the man taking a sip of alcohol or getting angry though. :

Tears course down Kyo's cheeks as he opens his eyes and stares blankly at the night sky while the rain pelts down against him. "Was it really my fault that he hurt me so often? He wouldn't have beat me if I hadn't asked so many stupid questions or did things without asking." He didn't expect an answer to his question, but a low voice drifts over to him. "No, honey. It's his own fault. You didn't do anything wrong," Haru says approaching him with lazy steps. "I let him do it, though. I could have tried to hurt him or I could have left, but I didn't," he states weakly and Haru says, "Hey, don't think about it. You were too scared before, but you did leave him. We'll get through this together." When he looked into Haru's soft eyes he sees the love clearly shining through them almost veiling the intense hatred the boy feels for his former lover. "Lets take care of those wounds and get you into some dry clothes," Haru says leading the boy into his bedroom and he looks around sighing. He couldn't help but feel like something horrible would happen to darken his happiness.

The doorbell rings and tiredly he walks down to open it. Outside on the porch are a dozen of red roses with note that says I Love You. Quickly he brings the gifts inside and tosses them on the table saying, "He knows that we are here." Shaking his head, Haru argues, "No one would let a stranger into this part of the compound. He probably gave it to one of the others and had them drop it off." With a depressed sigh, Kyo cuddles into a blanket and lies out on the couch. "I'm sorry, Haru." The multi-tonal haired boy smiles at him and sits next to him turning on the television. Between the thunder roaring in the background and the low buzz of the show, Kyo is lulled to sleep leaving Haru to devise a plan to rid his kitten of that man completely.