Chapter 9
Drowning in dreams that are actually his reality, Kyo tries to break the surface and wake up. His mind threatens to show him every memory that he had hidden away. The truth about his past that he shields himself from. The love he received regularly that he hid from everyone else and the pain.
: Snarling in disgust, a boy only a few years older than himself stands before him and stares down at him with hatred shining in his dark eyes. His young mind wonders what he did wrong to anger the boy. He had bowed down respectfully, he hadn't spoken at all, and he only looked at the boy when it was commanded of him. Innocently he asks, "Akito, why are you mad?" He had to be about three or four, but he understood what hatred was and it radiated from the Head.
He gasps in shock when slender arms wrap around him tightly. Only a selected few ever touched him of their own free will. Turning around he looks up into the boy's cold eyes and finds his tiny fingers reaching up to brush his tears away. "Don't cry, Akito," he whispers wrapping his own arms around the boy's neck trying to comfort him somehow. "You're the cat, but I find myself caring about you. I think that you and I should share a special secret," Akito says before his lips crush upon his own. His crimson eyes widen in surprise but he tightens his hold on the young Head. "If it'll make you feel better then I agree," Kyo whispers as he sits next to the window with the sickly boy.
Soft hands play in his silky hair as he's pulled onto the boy's lap. "No one can know about this," Akito says tracing gentle designs along his jaw then the elder's lips ghost over his neck before they slip into a peaceful sleep. :
Shock radiates through Kyo, as he lays on the bed unable to wake up though he desperately wants to. He feels two warm bodies surrounding him and he barely manages to roll onto his side to bury his face in one of the bodies' hair. Haru's exotic scent surrounds him and he fells Yuki's body press against his back.
: "I don't want you to see Haru or Yuki anymore. They're stealing you away from me," Akito says while he pets his hair and he looks up into the boy's dark eyes in shock. "But I like them, Akito. I still come to see you every day," he says standing up and shrugging the loose, silk robe back onto his shoulder. "I know, sweetheart, but I'm only trying to protect you. They don't love you, Kyo. Remember that it was the rat that tricked you and caused everyone else not to like you," Akito reminds him in that caring voice that disguises the monster that lives within him. Tears shine in his red eyes as the Head pushes him away and weakly he asks, "What's wrong, Akito?" He lies back down and lets the older boy untie the robe that had been picked out earlier for him. "Don't worry, Kyo. Just obey me and we'll be fine," Akito says and begins his usual kisses down his small chest. "You promise to keep this our little secret, this is our special bond and everyone else might not understand," Akito says while he moans because of the older boy's touches. :
His heartbeat quickens as his body recalls the caresses he received from the Head long ago. His mind reels in disgust through part of him reminds him that back then he adored the attention. Shivering, Kyo wraps his arms around Haru's waist and he struggles to escape his mind. He knows that soon the torture will begin. He recalls how Haru's scent always seemed to make him feel safe and the boy's gentle eyes pulled him in. In a way, Haru is addicting and he finds his senses wanting more of the teen. That's how he got hurt the first time.
: His eyes shine with excitement as he races towards the young two-toned boy. Arms wrap around his small form and he finds himself lost in his younger cousin's gray eyes. He glances at the window where Akito sometimes lays and he bites his bottom lip nervously. "So, do you want to spend the night," Haru asks while he ruffles the boy's white hair and they wave at Shigure who winks lewdly at them.
His mother glances at Haru with a shrewd eyes, but he flashes her a pleading smile. "Can I spend the night at Haru's, please," he begs and he notices how her eyes shift to his beads before she reluctantly nods. Quickly he rushes out the door forgetting about packing and he falls into Haru's arms. The boy's lips brush against his cheek and he blushes while he lets his fingers intertwine with the younger boy's. Maybe we've been hanging around the perverts for too long, he thinks as he follows the boy into his bedroom and watches Haru strip from his clothes then into p.j's. "Can I borrow some of yours," he asks looking away in shame and he grins gratefully when he stands clothed in the oversized button up shirt he is sure once belonged to Hatori. He lies on his stomach and relaxes while Haru's hands massage his shoulders. The younger boy's scent invades his senses causing him to feel slightly lightheaded. "I love you," Haru mummers and he tilts his head up to receive the boy's gentle kisses. So different then the demanding kisses he received the demanding kisses from Akito. I love him, he's so sweet and he's mine. My beautiful Haru. :
A softer scent rouses his senses as he's tugged against Yuki's chest. He feels Haru's lips against his forehead and he briefly opens his eyes. "Haru," he whispers then lovingly brushes his fingers over the boy's cheek. Sleep over powers him once again and he slips into a restless slumber. The dream that's reality that he's been trying to avoid rapes his mind.
: "Where were you yesterday? I waited up for you until I was exhausted," Akito demands when he enters the room dressed in the deep blue robe the elder had picked out earlier. "Haru wanted me to stay over and mama said it was okay. I didn't think that you'd mind," he states slipping down to sit beside the Head and he tilts his head to receive the boy's kisses. When the youth's hand collides with his cheek, he stares in shock at the elder. "Akito, I don't understand," he says in bewilderment as he raises a hand to cheek and the Head snarls, "I said not to see him again. Maybe you are really stupid." Jealousy flares in the boy's eyes and instinctively he shields his head as the Head's fist smash into his body. "Damn, foul creature, I'll show you who you belong to," Akito states then he screams in pain as his innocence is brutally stolen from him. :
He pushes against the constraining limbs and his eyes shoot open while screams rip from his lips. Suddenly he's lifted from the bed and secured by stronger arms. "Honey, calm down," he hears a deep voice say and fearfully he gazes at Shigure. "Akito, he…he raped me," he stammers clutching the dog's clothes in his fist and Shigure smoothes back his damp hair whispering, "I didn't know. We should have, there had been so much blood. You were only four, how could he do something like that to a child?" He glares at the wall then spies Yuki's trembling, pale lips and Haru's expression changing to an angry one. "I didn't want to remember so why did I? He loved me so why would he hurt me," Kyo asks and he chokes on his own tears when the inu sets him back onto the bed. He cuddles in between the other two boys and smiles weakly when Haru's lips tickle his throat. "I'm sorry, Kyo, there wasn't much any of us could do. We had to obey him," Shigure says then leaves the room.
While Ayame braids his hair nervously, Hatori studies Shigure. "I was hoping that he'd never remember that," he says and Shigure nods looking at the floor guilt fully. "I asked about Kyo the next night and he ordered the children to have their memories erased because he didn't want them to remember the love they shared. He said the cat was no longer allowed anywhere near him unless he ordered it. What Akito didn't know was that Kyo had already blocked all his memories because they were too painful for him. Even the Head didn't want the boy to suffer that much," Hatori says and he holds out the photo he had of Akito holding Kyo lovingly as the sunset. "Jealousy tore this family apart," Shigure whispers and he sighs regretfully.
He remembers the feeling of Kyo sleeping in his arms wearing the shirt he had stolen from the doctor and Haru leans down to kiss his beloved's forehead. "Soon, Kyo, we'll be able to defeat Domenic and you'll truly be mine," he says then glances at Yuki who stares at him pointedly and he corrects, "Ours." Sinking down against the bed, Kyo lifts his head and greets Haru's warm lips before turning to kiss Yuki. "Did you love Akito," Yuki asks and he watches his orange haired angel's eyes widen as the boy stammer, "N-not re-really, I may have thought I did, but it wasn't as strong as the love I felt for Haru and now feel for both of you." Nodding Yuki moves so that Kyo's body fits perfectly against his own and he snuggles against his kitten's chest.