Hi ya! Tis I with yet another chapter! Sorry it took me a little bit longer than usual. I've been informed that Ushka is not a Russian word after all. -yikes- Ah well. I had looked up Russian names on google an dat's what I got. -sigh- Well, I guess it's too late to change his name now. At least it sounds cute, right?

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Ch. 3 Sorry

Rei felt his innards twist. Oh shit. This was it, he was going to die. No way around it.

"How long?" Kai demanded, his voice sounded like steel hitting ice. The little kitten's big eyes wandered back and forth between both of the bladders, clearly unaware of the tension.

Mustering as much courage as he could Rei answered, "Long enough." Rei screwed his eyes shut, bracing himself for Kai's reaction. Minutes past, but the expected out burst never came.

Cautiously, Rei opened his eyes. The Chinese blader had to use all the self control he possessed not to gasp at the sight in front of him.

Kai was sitting next to him, his back pressed against the wall. The little grey kitten lay contentedly in his lap. He had never seen Kai act gently towards any creature, be it human or animal, and now, somehow, this little cat had found it's way into his heart.

"What do you want Rei?" Kai's voice was that of someone who was tired, no, utterly exhausted. It seemed dry and gruff, barely above a whisper. Like smoke that drifted on a strong wind, the words hung in the air.

"I had wanted to talk to you….I-I was worried." Rei said gently.

Kai sighed, and started to gently stroke the kitten. The blood red eyes closed. Why does he bother? No ones ever cared before… Just then the image of a certain red head entered his mind. The haunting blue eyes bored in to his heart. He had let him down, the one person that had meant anything to him, the one person who had cared…

He had stopped stroking the kitten, memories flooding his sub conscious. Ushka mewed impatiently, pawing at his master's battered hands.

"Kai, Kai what's wrong?" Rei felt worry jolt through. He wanted so badly to help the Russian, but how could he when he didn't know what was going on?

The crimson eyes snapped open. As Rei stared in to the blood red orbs and saw they were glazed over with tears. Rei felt a lump lodge itself firmly in his throat.

"Kai?"

The little cat mewed, as if afraid to lose its new found friend. Gently Ushka pawed at the broad chest.

A large tear rolled down the phoenix's cheek as memories swarmed his tired mind.

.: Flash back:.

The little boy stared at his mother, not quiet understanding what she was saying.

"Listen Kai," her voice was rough and uncaring "You are to go with your grand father, do you understand?"

Sheh pushed him forcefully towards the older Hiwartari. It didn't matter if he understood what was going on, it had never mattered. Whatever was going to happen would happen, what he thought made no difference.

"Please momma, I don't understand, p-please!" The little boy felt panic stinging his insides. He didn't understand .

"Stupid boy!" his mother cursed as he began to fight against her iron grip.

"Please m-momma! I don't understand! Please don't leave me please!" the boys voice was strangled by sobs "NO! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME PLEASE MOMMA!" he shrieked as he was thrust in to the strangers arms.

He had never been so afraid. No matter how she hated him he would always love his mother; always crave her presence near him. He had always hoped that one day her heavy blows would turn into an embrace, but deep inside the child's heart he knew the truth. She would never love him as much as Alexei, never.

The woman turned her back to him, and Kai felt the feeling of loss strike him. And for a moment, he stayed rigid and still in his grandfathers arms.

He knew this feeling well. It was nothing knew to him. He had felt it with the departure of his father, and with the death of his brother. Yet some how, it hurt more than ever before, clawing deep into his heart.

"M-momma, please don't go. Please don't leave m-me." Kai's desperate shrieks had died down into pitiful whimpers. Large began to build up behind the crimson orbs.

"M-momma," he paused as if waiting for a reply. When none came he felt grief settle into his stomach. His breath became quick and ragged. No, she couldn't be gone…. He felt desperation claw at the pit of his stomach, "MOMMA!"

She's not coming back, the voice rang through his mind bringing with it a wave of fear, she's not coming back and it's your fault.

"No momma! Momma please, I'm sorry, I-I'm sorry!" he cried out hysterically, "I'M SORRY!" Big fat tear drops began to roll down his cheek, each one making itself known with a dull splash on the ground.

SLAP!

Kai raised a small hand to his burning cheek. For the first time during that whole scenario his grandfather spoke, "A Hiwartari, does not cry!" his voice was cold and unyielding, making Kai feel smaller than he already felt.

"Do you understand!" Kai didn't understand anything anymore. It didn't matter what he felt or thought or cared about. Every thing he had known had been brutally ripped away from him in one fatal moment. What did it matter if he understood? Life would go on any way, pulling him along with it. After what seemed like ages to Kai, he nodded "I understand."

.:End Flash back:.

"Kai? Kai!" Rei's voice mixed with the frantic mewing dragged Kai back to reality. He lifted his head slowly, it suddenly seemed to way a ton.

Rei gasped slightly at seeing the crimson eyes. They were so hollow and lifeless.

"Kai….." Rei reached out to touch him but the phoenix shrank away from him.

"Kai, Kai I want to help you! Do you understand?" Rei said, as if to comfort a frightened animal. Never had he seen his captain like this, never.

Little Ushka rubbed his silky head against Kai's cheek, mewing supportively.

Kai felt unconsciousness tug at him, begging him to rest.

He peered back at Rei through blurry eyes. He was saying something to him, but he couldn't understand.

He felt Ushka hop off him. No don't go… Rei hoisted him onto his back. The golden eyes widened slightly, how was it the phoenix could have so much muscle, yet weigh so little?

"C'mon Ushka let's get this guy to bed." Rei said. The kitten mewed in agreement and trotted off. How is it that he knows where to go? Rei thought.

Just as he was about to follow, he heard the Kai's rough whisper, "I'm sorry momma, I'm sorry…"

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