Cont.

Wheee! Strawberri, my lover (or at least my bestest friend in the whole wide world whom I platonically love to pieces) finally is back on line! With a fixed computer! Grriiiiiin! And I have happy happy news in which I inadvertently told HIM about himself. I told him about my obsession with "a guy." And he gave me advice… and now that I've lied so much to him, and he told me to tell him the truth… what would he say now?

Summer! Is coming! Whee! Meh! Yunaresuka and Chrisoriented are both beloved reviewers! I was feeling so depressed about this story, you don't even know. Straws knows though, because I told her every other day. Or class period, I'm not sure.

DISCLAIMER: Own Yugioh or Duvet, I do not.

Forever and After 5- Fools

((And you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much))

Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? That you'd maim and kill for them? Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd cry over them? I have.

Ryou wasn't mine. Ryou never would be mine. When I slept, I always hoped to dream of him with me. This happened only once, though the rest of my dreams still contained Ryou. Finally, one of those dreams came true, the latter one, at least.

Every night I was plagued by dreams of Ryou with another one. One dream contained Kaiba, while the next contained Jounouchi. The ones that always hurt the most were the ones where Yami told Ryou, before drawing him in for a passionate kiss, that I only thought of Ryou as a bet. Yami would wink over my hikari's shoulder at me, making me want to shout, Ryou! He lies! He is the one that finds you no more than entertainment!

But at last, that was the truth of it all.

As I stalked angrily down the streets of Domino, I could only be envious of my long term rival. He stole everything from me. First it was my family, then my choice to live or die.

No, I never wanted to live forever. I was aiming to kill the pharaoh, not be stuck in a piece of metal for all eternity! Then again, I would never have met Ryou, the sole occupant of my mind. And if I hadn't, I wouldn't be feeling the gut wrenching pain I did now.

I wanted to burn. Burn the sins away.

I am the King of Fools. The worst of them all. Why? Because I had fallen for the one who would never love me back, the one who hated me for being… me.

I found myself outside of the Kame Game shop for the fifth time in two hours. Yami must think I'm a freak; he'd caught me looking in through the window a couple of times. The trio had moved out to the main shop some time after I left, but now Yuugi wasn't there. Presumably, he'd gone to take an early nap, or maybe make dinner for them.

My Shadow-stomach rumbled. It wanted meat.

Without realizing it, I found my nose was pressed against the glass, my eyes staring at the pretty boy with white hair that was speaking warily with Yami, all masks of content dropped. A soft blue and white flannelette draped languidly along the boy's thin frame, causing myself to look at my own attire. I was wearing Ryou's shirt now, because I had gone home to change before I came back to the game shop. It smelled of Ryou, which, I had to admit, was very nice. It was the main reason I'd chosen this shirt.

I turned my eyes back in time to see Ryou looking at Yami, with a soft smile on his face. It was one of those soft smiles I'd grown to love, the ones where the eyes themselves smiled. The kind that came from the soul.

I could only death glare the pharaoh with all my hatred and jealousy. He looked at me to match my gaze. That split second froze. Yami smirked, goading me to drag my Ryou away. Or at least to try; Ryou would never want to come with me.

Before Ryou could be alerted to my presence, I spun on my heel and returned home.

My stomach reminded me that I was hungry, and the only one I knew who would be willing to get a raw steak for me, was Ryou. Oh well, I supposed my body could go without food for another day.

((And you don't even feel a thing))

tbc