Animegirl1129 - i hope you had a great b-day! i cant believe that you're gonna be 16 next time! tear... they grow up so fast! lol
Chapter 14 - Not a Good Enough Risk
Phil and Keely had had a great weekend together, but now, unfortunately, it was time to go back to school. They were at the bus stop by 7:15 and waited for the bus, the two of them shivering. Phil could see that Keely was cold, so again he held her in his arms to keep her warm. It helped tremendously.
"YES! The bus is here! Salvation!" Phil exclaimed as the bus rounded the far corner.
"Do I hear Angels singing?" Keely asked jokingly. Phil chuckled. They were so cold that it seemed like the bus was just a mirage in the distance. But it finally got to them and they boarded the bus and found a seat together in the middle, slightly towards the front. Keely then pulled out her CD player and gave one of the ear pieces to Phil.
"Are the batteries still old?" Phil asked.
"Nope. They're fresh. Oh, I am so good," Keely joked. Phil snickered.
"So, what are we gonna listen to?" Phil asked.
"It's your turn to pick a song first today. You tell me."
"Okay... you have your Nickelback CD with you?" he asked. Keely pulled out her CD case and flipped through it quickly.
"Which one... Curb or All the Right Reasons?" she asked, showing them both to him.
"All the Right Reasons."
"Okay," she said as she popped it into the CD player. "Which song?"
"Photograph," Phil said, looking at the number on the CD player, blinking "3."
As the song played, Phil and Keely mouthed the words together perfectly, not ever missing a word.
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me... As the song ended, Keely flipped through her CD case and pulled out Mariah Carey, 'The Emancipation of Mimi,' and put on song number 11. It was called 'I Wish You Knew.' Keely immediately began mouthing the words while Phil gazed at her.
I've got to see you
Wherever you are
And I've got to be there
I'm wishing on stars
I've got to reveal what's inside of my heart
But the words escape me and I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you baby
Honestly I know it's silly of me
To want you so badly
But keep it concealed
See my inferiority complex kicks in And the words escape me and I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you baby
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you baby...
Oh I wish you knew... oh
What I feel inside for you...
Probably haven't got a clue...
But I wish you knew How I love you baby... oh
Keely loved that song, even though it usually depressed her. It was as if the song perfectly spoke for her. She always got paralyzed when she looked into his eyes everytime she tried to tell him... which was at least five times before... literally. She just couldn't... she was always afraid to tell him. What if he didn't feel the same? What would it do to their friendship?
And the song spoke for her again... she wanted him so badly she could hardly stand it. Sometimes she thought it WAS a bit silly to how much she wanted him. But she couldn't help it. Besides, nobody knew about her little crush except for her mom and Via. Via didn't mind at how much she talked about him, since she usually joined in and gave her ideas to how she could get him, which was one of the other reasons she was happy to have Via as a friend. Her mom never seemed to mind either... but the only place she talked about him at home was on the phone with Via, online with Via, in her mind, and especially in her diary.
She always wrote about him every day after school. The funny things he did. The nice things he did. The goofy grins, the sparks between them that she mostly created. There were sparks every day, and he never seemed to mind, which was good for Keely's sake. Sometimes she couldn't help but think that she loved her too.
But the thing was, she didn't know for sure. And she loved the sparks. She wanted to tell him dearly... but what would happen? There was no way to see unless she told him. But what if he hated her after that and didn't feel the same way?
That was a risk she wasn't willing to take.
End of Chapter 14