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I got my blue belt yay! And yes it is in karate for those who asked. Yeah, I haven't updated real soon, but I've been busy with studying for finals and such. groans and hits head on table

heh, ya I know I forgot to remove the chapter five exerp oops! I'll do that soon.

Gohan woke up early the next morning. His father was leaving today and he wanted to have one last spar with him. He shook Goten awake and then walked downstairs to where his tousan was already eating. Gohan dived into his food. Goten, who had wandered sleepily downstairs, woke up immediately to the smell of food. All three Saiyajins finished their morning snack quickly and headed outside to spar one last time.

The spar seemed to go way to quickly and before the end Goten had broken down in tears.

"Goten, it's alright I'll be back." Goku knelt before his youngest son, embracing him.

Goten sniffled, "but I don't want you to go. "

" Hey now Goten, at least he can come back right?" Gohan smiled at his brother, though inside he was fighting the same tears.

Goku gave Goten a hug and then pushed him towards the house. "Go wake Chichi up son, I should be going soon. "

The saiyajin warrior looked at his son for a moment before speaking.

"I don't know if anything I say will ever make a difference in how you feel. But I am proud of you son. You have been through more than anyone I know and you have risen to the challenges despite fear."

Gohan did not dare speak for his emotions were so close to the surface. He and his father embraced and Goku went to say goodbye to his wife once more before he left.

Gohan was late for school. It had been a tearful goodbye to his father and then he'd had to deal with three separate crimes. Subsequently he was in a very foul mood by the time he reached Orange Star High School.

"I'm sorry I'm late sensei." Gohan murmured as he rushed into class.

The teacher gave him a disapproving glace, "I shall have to call your mother about this."

Gohans face darkened uncharacteristically and he walked to his desk more annoyed than before. Sharpner smirked as Gohan sat down. "What's the matter with you nerd-boy? Decided to gain some nerve all of a sudden haven't you?"

Gohan restrained himself from blasting Sharpner into the other world. "Leave me be Sharpner." He said, with a glare that sent chills down Videl's spine.

"Jeez! What's with him?" Esra murmured shuddering.

Gohan growled lowly as her comment reached his ears but didn't react. Instead he tried to inwardly calm himself and concentrate on the teacher's lecture. After a while, Gohan's head nodded and hit his desk, making a light crack down the centre. His head rose from the desk and he eyed the crack with blurry eyes. 'Oops' he thought sleepily and blinked a couple of times before fixating his eyes once again on the teacher. His concentration was in vain and it wasn't long until he drifted off to sleep; the early morning's emotions having drained him.

A buzzer woke him up. The faintest of lights began to shine in Gohans palm. Darn alarm clock! His head jerked up in realization. He was at school, not at home. The ki dissipated. That meant that his dream about his Otousan being alive was a dream. He groaned as reality once again presented it's head. This was going to be a very long day.

"Gohan?" Videl appeared beside him, "Daijubu ka?" ((A/N: are you ok?))

He glared at her. "What do you think?" he snapped. "Leave me alone, baka onna!" (A/N: is he taking lessons from Vegeta?)

Videl watched stunned as he walked darkly down the hall. What had gotten into him? She'd never seen him act like this! He was always nice, if a little naive.

Once he'd gotten to class Gohan groaned. He shouldn't take it out on Videl, it wasn't her fault that his dad wasn't alive. He decided to make it up to her at lunch.

At lunch...)

"Hey can I sit down?" Videl knew by the hesitant voice that it was Gohan. Man, he seemed to change moods instantly.

She nodded and he sat down.

"Listen Videl, I'm really sorry about earlier. I'm just not having too good of a day." He looked at her apologetically.

"Must have been some morning, " she murmured. "I've never seen you so upset."

Gohan blushed and for a moment seemed like his old self. His eyes shifted from the table to stare into her own. "I'm not perfect Videl, I have bad days just like everyone else." Except I'm not like everyone else he added silently.

Videl smiled slightly, feeling a faint tinge of red grace her cheeks. The looked at each other awkwardly for a moment before she turned away flushing deeper. What was the matter with her? This was Gohan!

"So..." She began, not wanting to break the spell, " What has been on your mind?"

"It's nothing." he sighed hesitating slightly. " Just the past catching up with me."

Videl felt a wave of pity for the demi-saiyajin. She opened her mouth and then closed it, unsure of what to say.

"I'd better go." Gohan said, his stomach reminding him that he hadn't eaten his unearthly large lunch.

Videl nodded and waved a hand in acknowledgement. She ate her lunch, vaguely wondering where Esra and Sharpner where.

The rest of the day was a blur to Gohan. He dragged himself through his classes, feeling weighed down by life, but at the same time lifted. He took a long time flying home not wanting to face his brother or mother and their tears. Every time Goku left they cried, and it was all his fault.

A/N: ok that was both depressing and romantic...what happened to humour? Oh well, I blame it on the romantic Brian Adams song that was on the radio at the time :-P Review please. I'm thinking that there will be maybe three chapters left.